AUGUST
I was covered in sticky mud, and my uniform started to feel even tighter and tighter as I tried to find my way out of the forest. I was running a bit scared that I might end up getting lost in the middle of this foreign forest. My mind is already lost in this cyclone of confusion, and I guess that’s one of the reasons why I’m going in panic mode. Ambrose went the other way. I’m pretty certain that he knows where he’s heading to but what about me? I am new here.
The sky continued coughing rumbles, and the rain didn’t seem to show any signs of stopping. I took off my suit and used it to cover my head from the rain. Thankfully this isn’t a very dense forest that I can clearly see where I am heading to. I instantly recognized this one giant boulder that we passed by earlier, which meant I was taking the right path. I followed the trail, and after walking for about twenty m
AUGUSTThe night carried on with me, unable to keep Ambrose out of my head. I tried to convince myself that it was just a casual kiss and there was nothing more to it. I kept on telling myself that Ambrose just got carried away by the moment and that he didn't mean to do what he did. I even said to myself that he hated me the most and that he'd continue making my life a living hell. But then there's also this small part of me hoping there's something from that kiss. It was instead a tiny seed of delusion considering the fact that I haven't seen any signs of Ambrose possibly liking a guy. I even remembered him bullying Jessie, and that alone gave me the notion that he might be homophobic.I brought my wet uniform to the laundry and thought this might distract me from thinking about Ambrose. I don't know how much this uniform costs. I'm sure it's a bit expensive because of the material that it's made of, but even
AMBROSEI became very much aware of what I just did, and the gloomy feeling of horror and confusion dawned upon me. Maybe I can call myself lucky that no one witnessed me kissing August. And it wasn’t just a kiss. It was a French kiss involving the tongue and basically the whole mouth. I didn’t know what to do right after I was pulled towards reality, and I’m pretty much sure August is confused too. I got scared that I just had to run away.The skies continued with the heavy downpour as I kept on running. I’ve been living here in Mary Heights for the past seventeen years of my existence, and I’m very much familiar with these parts of the woods. There are times that I spend my weekends just walking around the woods and accidentally discovering hidden sceneries such as small caves, abandoned cabins and animal nests. It became a hobby of mine since I don’t have many friends that
AUGUSTI’m not even surprised about the fact that I am having a fever today. Yesterday was definitely a rough and muddy experience that I would probably remember for the rest of my life. It is more of a rollercoaster ride if I’m going to try and describe it. The day wasn’t that much exciting just like how when the ride starts at a slower pace without the thrill until it eventually reaches the first slope and that’s when everything starts to become exciting and horrifying at the same time. The first slope was when Ambrose and his friends all cornered me at the parking lot and from there on, it was a bumpy ride.I don’t even know who won that duel but I am leaning towards the fact that it was a draw. Ambrose and I had our fair share of punches rolled. Despite of that, Ambrose was really born to do this angsty and violent stuff. He knew what he was doing and he’s really strong packing some painful punches and his brute force is de
AUGUSTMonday came and I didn’t know I was already getting anxious until I woke up a bit early this morning and I got nothing from Rachel. I shouldn’t be worried about not getting a text message from her just because of the fact that we aren’t a thing but I know this was supposed to send me a message of some sort. Not getting a message is still a message after all. It has been Rachel’s daily routine to check on me which is so thoughtful of her, she always sends a good morning text and updates me on whatever the fuck she’s doing. I had never dated anyone before but if I was being keen on her actions, I would’ve concluded that she’s already acting like my girlfriend. She started doing that ever since we started hanging out together and I’m honestly shocked by it. Perhaps it’s because of the fact that she’s way too popular that I forgot she’s still very much a normal human being. She&rs
AUGUST“August?! You didn’t tell me you were coming,” Mary spat as she rushed her way out of the door. She seemed quite surprised at my sudden appearance, and honestly, I would be too.“Yeah, I was just about to pass by when I remembered we haven’t actually talked to each other in a while.” I went on.Mary had already grown on me in the short time that we hanged out. That’s not surprising considering the fact that we share something in common. She doesn’t know that I’m gay, but I know that she likes girls too, and that’s enough for us to have an unspoken understanding of each other. I have this certainty in me that our friendship will still grow to a budding flower. We just had to take things separate
AUGUSTAmbrose Haylock, out of nowhere, showed up right at the time that I wasn’t expecting his appearance. I don’t know if time stopped from ticking or I was just frozen. Either way, I was just staring at Ambrose without moving any muscle at all. I couldn’t help myself but shudder inside that we had to meet each other inside this comfort room of all the possible places. We could’ve bumped into each other in the hallway or outside the school grounds.I felt tremors in my chest. Ambrose has made me recognize fear in all of its horrible glory, but this is not it. It doesn’t feel like it. It is wild, but I’m certain that I wasn’t feeling afraid at all. My chest continued to beat, and I wasn’t so sure about what to do.Ambrose looked quite surprised to see me too. The expression painted on his face appeared as if he had seen a ghost, which alone made things unexpectedly interesting. I
AMBROSEI hated everything about the weekends. Both Saturdays and Sundays used to be fun when I was younger, and I had my parents living with me. They did not care about what I did, but they sure bought every toy that I wanted, and it got me entertained and distracted from what was happening around me. All of my toys, the transformer robots, the spider-man and batman figures, the slingshots, and the toy guns, all kept me in good company, and I never felt alone. Now it seems that both days fall under the category of my loneliest day. I cannot count all the weekends these past few years that have made me sadder and angrier.I hated the fact that I had to live in this big ass house in solitary and feel bad about myself. I hated that the only noise that I was hearing were the birds chirping, the branches and leaves rustling, and basically myself. I wanted to convince myself that loneliness doesn’t bother me, but it does. Even the silenc
AMBROSEThe wind whipped off intensely as I stepped on the gas. The morning breeze combed my body as I covered the road. I'm more than psyched to see people again, even though I wouldn't give a crap about anyone. There's nothing for me to expect this Monday, as far I know, except for the thing that I had with August. That was a grave mistake, and I was so stupid that I got carried away by a fucking kiss. I guess I was quite a lucky person that no one witnessed that gay shit that I did. If someone had seen it, I wouldn't even be this excited to enter school. Everybody would probably make me their laughing stock, and the few friends that I have will surely stay away from me. It is crazy that I'm not feeling the sense of fear of losing anyone. This was definitely because I'm already used to being the island that I am.First and foremost, I'm not gay or anything. I know kissing August was the gayest shit I've done throughout my whole life, bu