AMBROSE
Driving out of town was the first thing that came out of my mouth. I guess that’s because I’ve been wanting to go on a ride to the next town and back with the person that I like. I have tried riding out of town before and although it’s quite an adventure, it still felt lonely when you’re on your own. Getting out of town doesn’t sound much of a romantic date that I could offer, unlike Rachel and all her power, but the feeling of having someone you like just grabbing ahold of your waist as you cover tracks was one of the best feeling ever. That feeling when combined with the few beautiful stops that we might stumble through would be considered as romantic to me. I’m sure August would feel that same feeling too once we get out of this town.
“That sounds exciting,” August chirped but I noticed the short pause following his remark. “But I don’t thin
AMBROSE The day ended very much early and it had left me with nowhere else to go. I probably have a good five or six hours of spare time before going to that house party that August had mentioned last night. I don’t quite know how would I spend that much of free time when there’s basically nothing to do here in this suburban town. There’s nothing much except for the presence of breathtaking nature. I thought of going out to my secret spot at river and go swimming alone like I used to. I walked out of the room and the hallway was flooded with buzzing people. Everyone appeared to be hyperactive and the noise was just thunderous enough that it could crash the building. Most of them are excited for the weekend, that’s the only reason as to why the upstream energy. If this was on a Tuesday or a Wednesday, everyone’s still probably wearing their saggy faces. However, the lingering knowledge that it’s Friday makes their expression a lo
AMBROSE“Shaun! Shaun! Shaun!”Some of the spectators began cheering this name and I immediately knew Shaun’s the name of Irvin’s opponent. The fight began the moment the referee stepped out of the middle and I can clearly see the advantage that Shaun had over Irvin. The fact that he’s taller and buffer was already enough for me to put my coins on his head. I was just looking at both of them and I instantly know Irvin would lose this. They were both on their fighting stance with Irvin imitating a boxers’ stance while Shaun on the other hand was just standing in his place waiting for Irvin to strike first. Irvin might be brave and I have to commend him for that. Screaming like a kid, Irvin lunges towards Shaun hoping to tackle him but Shaun managed to stop him with both of his hands.The loud cheering continued as I stood with both of my hands crossed over my chest. Sha
AUGUSTI have not been the greatest throughout the succeeding days of my life and to be quite honest, I have never expected all of this things to happen, not in a million light-years or whatever time means. I wanted to cut myself a bit of a slack but it doesn’t seem to be fitting. It’s quite difficult to balance all of the things that are going around me and I’m utterly stunned that I’m still breathing and kicking and basically just sailing through all of them. I feel like I’m just a one-man troop that’s battling a whole battalion of predicament and I’m clearly being owned by all of them. I know for a fact that there soon will be a time, perhaps not today, maybe in the next few months, that everything would inevitably explode and I’m going to be that one pig caught in between.It’s definitely hard to live my life as a student who needs to keep his grades abo
AUGUSTOur last period had finally reeled to an end and I’m left in this surging wave of dilemma between going on a movie date with Rachel and just riding through town with Ambrose. I am cruelly torn in between who to choose from the two and the feeling wasn’t that great at all. I’m still sitting at my desk holding my phone with my mind trying to fight things off. Meanwhile, everyone’s already packing their stuff. Most of the people who have already packed their things in a snap have already bounced out of the room leaving the few sluggish people behind.“My mama told me when I was young,” I stared at my phone for a while and I suddenly heard Jessie began singing in a random display of his flamboyance. He trudged his way towards the center front of the room and looking right at him, he was seemingly living a certain fantasy. He was now standing right in front of the room prep
AUGUSTI’m really fucking this up. I’m given the choice between just being my gay self and be gay with Ambrose or continuing to play this straight dude and perhaps be straight with Rachel.I didn’t have much time to think about my decisions that I ended up choosing the movie date with Rachel without actually choosing it. I wanted to be with Ambrose today, I won’t even deny that. There are a lot of things that I need to reassure about him. We haven’t gone out this week and I’m sure he’s been dying in jealousy to hold me throughout the days. I’m not trying to be the delusional person here and just assume that Ambrose’s getting jealous but If I was standing in his shoes I’d be squirming in envy. I feel like I can’t even limit my flirting with Rachel whenever he’s just around the room. Rachel’s just aggressive to me and I can’t even
AUGUST“Fuck.” I heard Rachel muttered under her breath and it was cutting deeper than how I’ve known her. I’ve heard her curse several times and I thought they’re all just a typical curse except this ones hitting a little harder almost like a curse out of frustration.“We can’t do this here.” I trailed shaking my head in disapproval of her lustful actions. I just have to say my thoughts out loud or else I might not have another chance.“I know. I’m really sorry, babe. I got carried away.” Rachel voiced out and I can sense the feeling of embarrassment and disappointment already disemboweling her.She fixed her hair in swift defeat and leaned back against the backrest as she tried her best to shrug away the humiliating thought of what she had just done to me. The air became cold and awkward that I have no idea how to react first and
AUGUSTI have already made plans with Rachel and her clique earlier and it hurts to think that I have to reject Ambrose’s offer for the second time in a row. Being torn in a dilemma over Ambrose and Rachel was the hardest thing that I felt today and I thought that was the end of the day but here I am, once again, making this fucked up decisions. I really want to hang out with Ambrose, given the fact that we haven’t hanged out since the beginning of this week, but fate seems to be working against my favor this time around. I know I still have the wide open choice to just ditch that house party that Victoria had organized for tomorrow but it will, without a doubt, hurt my relationship with the group.“You’re really into house parties now, eh?” Ambrose asked and I can’t help but feel like he’s very much disappointed at me. He’s been trying to make things work for the
AUGUSTJust like everyone else, I am feeling the essence of a Friday and it has been this sort of excitement mixed with a rush of relief. Everyone at school was looking much happier and much galvanized that another week has finally come to its eventual end. I’m sure most of these people have already made their plans after class, and just like most of them, I’m more than eager for the day to just end in a snap.Rachel parked her truck and before we know it, we were already walking towards the school building. I’m still quite surprised that everyone’s looking at us with the thought that we are still the power couple when it’s already been over two months since we announced that we are dating. I know two months was still just a short amount of time but for me, it feels like I’ve been dating this popular girl for the past year. I feel like we’ve been together for the longes