"Come on Caza.Marami ng nagkamaling babae dahil lang hindi nila nilinaw ang mga lalaking 'yon.Don't be one of them""Don't talk as if that was intentional.Alam mong maraming babae na natatakot din naman na magtanong.Because you know maaaring iba na ang isipin ng lalaki kapag nagtanong sila.What if it was all just a friendship and not anything that you can think of""Krystal. .."Ada sighed."She better ask now or else --kailan pa?Dati 'yong School ngayon mga expensive bags?Pwede ka ng matanong ng 'Ansel ano ba 'to?Para saan?May nararamdaman ka ba para sa'kin.Mga gano'n?" Krystal and i both groaned.Gumagalaw ang mga daliri ko sa computer at inaasikaso ang mga nakuhanang mga litrato na ilalagay sa School Newspaper."That is just so gross!"Krystal groan again in disgust and i nodded my head while i grimaced at her words as well. Kanina pa sila nagpapalitan ng mga salita sa ung anong dapat kong gawin.Naging busy kasi kami kahit na sa pinaka-last na School contest,ako sa pagkuha ng pictures
My heart jump at that but maybe it didn't show in my face.Even my father still didn't show me a little bit of my mom.Maybe they were trying to let me rest dahil hindi ko naramdaman ang kahit na anong restrictions nila sa akin magmula noong nalaman ko ang tungkol sa pagkatao ko .Ansel look so calm.His expression was kind of the same,kahit ang pagtitig sa kanya ay ganoon pa'rin naman pero nakikita ko na ang alanganin sa mukha niya dahil sa bagal ng pagsagot ko."If that's already okay with you.I can—tour you with some other places"he stared at my expression. That is a good place to go to kaya lang nakikita ko na ang malapit na paglubog ng araw ay hindi nakabawas ang mga natitirang liwanag para makita ko si Ansel bilang anghel.That is too much i guess,but I'm glad that he suggest that pero . .. wala pa nga sa bahay ang mga kasama ko—nangunot ang noo ko ng marealize kong may trabaho pa nga pala siya."Are you not busy?"naitanong ko na lang.Nasa kompanya pa sila ng mga ganitong oras hindi b
My heart jump at that but maybe it didn't show in my face.Even my father still didn't show me a little bit of my mom.Maybe they were trying to let me rest dahil hindi ko naramdaman ang kahit na anong restrictions nila sa akin magmula noong nalaman ko ang tungkol sa pagkatao ko .Ansel look so calm.His expression was kind of the same,kahit ang pagtitig sa kanya ay ganoon pa'rin naman pero nakikita ko na ang alanganin sa mukha niya dahil sa bagal ng pagsagot ko."If that's already okay with you.I can—tour you with some other places"he stared at my expression. That is a good place to go to kaya lang nakikita ko na ang malapit na paglubog ng araw ay hindi nakabawas ang mga natitirang liwanag para makita ko si Ansel bilang anghel.That is too much i guess,but I'm glad that he suggest that pero . .. wala pa nga sa bahay ang mga kasama ko—nangunot ang noo ko ng marealize kong may trabaho pa nga pala siya."Are you not busy?"naitanong ko na lang.Nasa kompanya pa sila ng mga ganitong oras hindi
'I'm still in the meeting though'Napangiti ako sa kakulitan ni Ansel.I look at myself infront of the full body mirror i received from none other than Ada.Yep,tapos na ang pasko na siyang unang pasko ko.We celebrate with the maids and it was an amazing Christmas for me.They all gave me a gift and I don't mean even the maids though they received something from me and from my family as a thanks for always taking care of us.I received gifts from my friends,from my family and from Aunt Letty and Ansel.Umpisa na ng last grading ,at ito ang unang pasok namin sa school.When we had the long awaited overnight sa bahay nila Krystal ,Ada insist of buying a new pair of uniform.Medyo nagtagal kami sa ganoong usapan because ilang months na lang ang pasukan hindi na namin kailangan pa ng bagong uniform pero sa huli wala din naman kaming nagawa ni Krystal kung hindi ang sumunod sa kanya.Sa full length body mirror tinignan ko ang magandang fit ng school uniform na suot ko.Ada insist on getting me on
Tumawa ako sa sinabi ni Ansel.I reach out for something just to avoid the sudden jitter i have felt at his comment.Is it necessary for me to hear that?Tuluyan ko na lang na ibinaba ang suklay at kinuha na nga ang bag na nasa ibabaw lang ng kama para lang kahit papano maalis ang isip ko sa sinabi niya.My phone tilted up a little and made my face half on the screen it made me comfortable for a moment because i have the time to catch myself. When the silence gets a little bit long pinili na niyang magsalita."When did you get a haircut?"sinukbit ko ang bag ko at naglakad palabas ng kwarto.Nanatili na sa tapat ng mukha ko ang cellphone dahil nagkaroon na kami ng ibang topic.I was diverted to once again ,my favorite topic for now.I told Ada and Krystal about my adventure at ngayon wala pa'rin kasawaan ang utak sa pagreplay no'n sa utak ko.Ang ending,i always.. . always made me smile."Sa New York , sinamahan ako ni Kuya.I have a lot of stories to share to you!"i told him smiling.Oo nga pal
Can someone just tell me something to make me snapped at myself.Sa tahimik at malamig na lobby ng kompanya ni Ansel pinili ng utak ang mahipnotismo sa sinabi niya.My brain keep thinking about that gray suit na naging paborito na'rin yata ng utak kong punahin ng punahin.I awkwardly smiled at him ."I'm not used hearing compliments"napatingin siya sa tumaas kong kamay para alisin ang naging pagtayo ng balahibo ko sa siko.Nagpakita ang ngiti ni Ansel at pakiramdam ko mas lalo akong nabingi ng buong paligid."The curls is really beautiful"puna niya pa.I nodded my head and look at our surroundings.The workers is watching us from here.Sino ba namang hindi kung ang isang ito ay dito talaga ako hinintay .I was actually expecting I'll arrive at his office at madadatnan ko nga siya doon pero hindi naman nangyari."Come on ,i think i have a lot of things to do"aya ko at nag-umpisa ng umabante.Pinilit ko ang sarili kong ignorahin ang mga tingin.This wasn't the usual thing that they see in the lob
"Can you promise me that Caza?"malumanay ang boses ni Ansel na pinakikiusapan ako.My heart is beating a slow but in its loudest beat.Naging mabigat ang tingin ko sa kanya at hindi ko alam na bigla-bigla na lang na gagaan ang loob ko sa sinabi niya."Caza?Can you promise me that?"napatango ako dahil sa matagal na pagtitig.He look at the folder on my hands and extended his."Pipirmahan ko ba 'yan?"i regain myself by snapping at what I'm holding."Yes—"i eyed his door."You guys were talking kaya naman bumalik na lang ulit ako" i clamped my lips together.That was a lie Azazel, narinig mo nga ang usapan nila.Maybe not the whole thing or the part where they exchange words but still you heard a part of it. Goodness sake! Ansel's eyes is still looking so serious that i feel like he knew that i just don't simply walk here as soon as i heard that they were talking,alam naman niya yata talaga na nakarinig ako ng kaunti. The whole office is freezing and it didn't help my nerves.Sa tingin ko rin
I look at him carefully ,really carefully.Sa ngayon may mga dumagdag ng emosyon niya na alam kong meron din pala siya.Ansel can be mean ,can be caring ,can be caring and cold at the same time .Kagaya na lang ng paghahangad ko sa labas ,dahil palagi na lang akong nasa loob.Maybe i missed things inside or may mga hindi lang na-explore ,kagaya ng park na pinagdalhan sa'kin ni Ada ,na noon ko lang din nalaman .I was so curious on what i will find out outside that i missed having inside.Nakakatawa na lang na maiisip ko ito in the middle of a conversation with at sa panahon at taon pa na ,na kung saan malapit na akong umalis."Do you see me, as someone bad right now?"his expression change once again and i don't know why my mind and eyes will clearly made some moments to capture it.Ngumiti ako at tinignan ang kamay naming magkahawak.Something i know that a couple should do was to hold hands ,kiss,hug--things like that.Hindi ko pa na-sesearch kung pwede lang ba sa magkaibigan ang ganitong gaw