Chapter 88

GABRIEL

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I was supposed to meet Harper that day but I didn't bother going. I made an excuse about feeling extra tired and I felt bad about it but I would feel worse if I went and then proceeded to be distracted the whole time. I was distracted. I had been ever since I saw Emily and Harry at the cafe. It had been days since but I couldn't help but think about the interaction and how it had made me feel.

Jealous. It had made me feel jealous and I needed to admit it, even though admitting it annoyed me. What was wrong with me? Why couldn't my heart just function normally, loving the people who loved me as normal people did? Why did it have to keep beating for someone it hated at the same time? Why couldn't it pick a side?

I was getting sick and tired of the back and forth, of loving and hating and loving again. I wished I could turn my feelings on and off as I pleased. I would turn on feelings of love for Harper and turn off all the feelings I had for Emily, even the ones of hate.

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