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New Year
It was the end of December, the end of the year, and I was waiting for Elliot outside for a couple of minutes. I had on a jacket and a scar and I was still cold standing outside feeling a bit bothered that Elliot wanted to go to the beach to see the fireworks show for the new years countdown. I got in the car right away when he pulled up and sighed feeling it warm inside.
“Cold?” He asked.
“Yes. I can’t stand this winter cold.” I tell him.
“Well, the heater is on so warm up before we go back outside.” He said as he started driving.
“You know it’s colder out there? It’s dark, we’re going to be by the ocean, and it’ll be pack.” I tell him or whining.
He smiled, “I have a blanket. It’ll be fine.” He replied back.
I shivered a bit as I looked outside. “So how was Christmas?” I asked him.
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