GUILT LEADS TO REGRET

Chapter 30

My worst enemy is my father. . . and my memory - Geoffrey.

GEOFFREY

I had taken an oath to destroy Eyare from receiving his birth right when I was but a young boy, shy of thirteen years.

Did I want to do it?

Let's be frank, I didn't have much of an option.

I was living a seriously repressed life by the man who fathered me. He forced me to do it. He said I would understand when I became a man.

Should he be blamed for it, yes, but I could have fought against the tide.

I could have fought against the spiritual pull.

I could have fought against the lure.

I could have fought, instead, I succumbed.

So it became my fault too.

I forgot all about it when I left the town to school in the city.

I was living the life, enjoying myself, finding a breath of fresh air away from my oppressive father. I became the very embodiment of what I didn't want to be --- irresponsible and carefree.

I womanized and broke the fragile hearts of women, just for the fun of it. I didn't know my fate had alre