Despite my loneliness, I still forced myself to prepare a dinner date when the night came, hoping that he'll celebrate with me on this special day.
After decorating the kitchen, I decided then to go upstairs to change my clothes. Somehow, I felt a little excitement as I look for a dress.
I chose a pinkish above the knee tube dress and carried it to the bathroom. I took a shower and fixed myself after. I put some more powder on my face and a little pigment of liptint on my lips before I moved quickly when I heard the engine of Valjerome's car.
I may feel so nervous, but I couldn't help to laugh, thinking that we still lasted this long despite the way he treated me.
I walked over to my window and watched him arrived. My remaining delight was erased instantly the moment he got out of his car with a woman hugging him. I bit my lip as they started kissing as if they were the only person around. I held my chest and tightly closed my eyes as my tears fell.
"H-Happy anniversary..." I whispered and hurriedly walk towards my bed.
I lied down and let my tears flowed. I cried over my pillow and silently asked myself why.
Why can't he love me back?
Why don’t he try loving me?
I remained in that situation until I decided to leave the room. I was walking silently on the hallway until I stopped at Valjerome's room. I smiled bitterly as I thought of the scene happening inside. Instead of staying in front of his door I continued walking until I made it downstairs. Even though the scattered staff didn't pay attention to me, I knew that their pity for me was there.
"Hija," there was sympathy in Manang's voice the moment she approached me.
I forced myself to smile. "Has he eaten?" I strained to stabilize my voice.
Manang shook her head slowly. "They immediately went to his room. He didn't even notice the surprise you prepared for him," she said. "Do you want me to call him and tell to go down?"
I shook my head quickly. "No. It was better that he didn't even see me because...I’ll still be embarrassed in the end," I sobbed.
Manang took a deep breath and then hugged me. "Just break up with him, dear," she whispered.
I slowly shook my head and bit my lower lip to suppress my tears.
I still can. I can still handle it.
I let go of Manang’s arms and smiled. "You can go to sleep. I'll take care of the kitchen. I'll just drink a little to make myself to bed.
She looked at me softly and caressed my face. "I am just here, hija."
I nodded slowly in understanding of what she said.
Like I said, I took care of cleaning the kitchen. I put the leftovers in the containers while I gave some of the foods to Valjerome’s men. After that I went to the mini bar counter of the house and poured myself a wine.
I started drinking as I let myself drowned on my own thoughts. I remembered the times we pretended to love each other in front of other people because that was the only memory, I could say, was happy throughout our togetherness. I was already on my third bottle of wine when I smelled Valjerome’s familiar scent. With my sleepy eyes, I turned to him as he sat in the high chair next to me.
"You should sleep. You've already drank a lot," he said coldly while staring at me.
I scoffed and laughed sarcastically. "As if you do care, Valjerome," I shook my head and then poured the wine into my glass.
"Enough, Jazzie," he said sternly while holding my hand to get the glass from me.
I stared at his hand and chuckled painfully. "Now you're holding me," I said in amazement and sadness before looking up at him.
My eyes began to tear up as I looked at his eyes. "Why? Why don't you just take me with you, Valjerome? Why do not have sex with me instead? I can also give you what they give you. I can fill your needs as a man so why not me?” I shouted resentfully and finally burst into tears.
He did not move from his position. He just let me cry and talk all by myself.
"I love you. I do love you! We are already married, but why do you have to treat me like this? Did I do something wrong to you? Have I sinned in order for you to punish me like this?" I tried to hit him in the chest but due to drunkenness, I just stoop low.
I cried hard to let him know my pain. He did not speak. Instead, he gently wrapped his hand around me in support.
"I'll bring you to your room," he said hoarsely as I felt him caressing my hair.
I didn't say a word and just quietly sobbed into his chest. We stayed like that for a few minutes until he carefully lifted me up. I leaned my head against his chest and closed my eyes as he started walking.
"Can you stay with me for tonight?" I murmured, still not opening my eyes.
I no longer expected him to grant my request. I knew he'll object, but I still want to try.
He didn't answer my question until I felt him tucking me in my bed. I didn't even try to open my eyes and just hugged my pillow sideways. Waiting to cry again once he left the room.
I held my breath as the other side of my bed sank. I slowly open my eyes and looked around when he spoke immediately.
"Just sleep, Jazzie. Do not ever dare to look back," he said lazily with his bedroom voice.
I blinked a few times as I properly laid back to my position.
"Rest now, Jazzie, or else I'll leave this fvcking room," he warned.
I instantly closed my eyes. Despite of the pain and frustration I have felt, I still couldn’t help but rejoice in the little time he had given me.
"Goodnight, hubby..." I whispered unconsciously before I finally fell into dreaming.
The next morning I woke up with a throbbing head and a broken heart as I saw an empty space beside me.
Yeah, right. Everything will always be the same.
"You are the only one I have seen who took a break from work who was not happy," Azy commented as the make-up artists fixing my hair and face.I rolled my eyes and did not bother to talk. Even if days have already passed, my chest pain still doesn’t go away every time I remember what had happened on Valjerome and I’s anniversary."By the way, you already know, don't you?" said Azy.My forehead knotted as I glanced at him¾waiting for him to continue.“You will be having a partner for today’s shoot,” he said."What?!" I exclaimed.His lips parted and put his hands on his waist. "Do not tell me again that you have not read my messages yet?!" he growled at me.I closed my eyes and then avoid my face from the artist’s brushes. I signaled them to step aside as I looked straight at Azy.
"N-Next," the photographer said hesitantly as he nervously smiled at me and Chaos.Who would not be scared if my husband, looking sharply at the man I am with as of the moment, was standing right next to him. I do not even know if this is still a photoshoot or a meditation because the room is filled with silence. You can only hear our movements and the sound of the camera shutter. They all seem to be feeling Valjerome’s dark aura surrounding. Even I, can not pose properly because of the nervousness every time he sees me.What? He was the one who decided to pursue the shoot rather than letting me date with this guy, but why is he looking at me like it was my fault."You are too stiffed," the guy beside me spoke as he wrapped one of his hands around my waist for our next pose.I gritted my teeth and glared at him. "Are you enjoying this?" I hissed lowly.He chuckled and got c
"Fvck!" a profanity was released by Valjerome the moment I pushed him and gave him a hard slap.I was about to leave his lap when he quickly grabbed me and restrained me in place."You will never get away from me," he said as his jaw tightened.I laughed sarcastically and glared at him. "Fvck.You," the corners of my eyes began to tear up so I avoided his gaze."Should we try?" he said coldly.I quickly turned my gaze back to him and looked to slap him again, but he immediately caught my hand in the air before it even landed on his cheek."I would not let you hurt me again, once is enough," he said emphatically.When I laughed and bit my lower lip. "It is unfair, do you know that?" I said hoarsely as I stared at him. "Because I am letting you hurt me over and over again," I added as a lone tear fell on my cheek.His ey
"Valjerome, let me go! What? Where are you taking me?" I forcefully grabbed my arm from his grasp. We just got out of the car and he immediately dragged me into the house. I could feel his grip based on his firm grip on me. He pushed me slightly up the stairs and pointed upwards. "Go to your room!" his voice echoed all over the house. I could feel the fear of his assistants and staff. Who doesn't? This is the first time he has been angry like this. "What is your problem?!" "I said fvcking go to your room, Jazzie! Don't test my patience!" I scoffed and laughed sarcastically. "Wow, you're the one who really said that. Do you think my head is getting cold from what you're doing ?!" I pointed at his chest. "You're acting like a jealous husband even though the truth is you don't care about me! Are you this ruthless, Valjerome? You're making me dependent!" I saw his jaw clenched. We both gasped for breath from screaming while not taking our eyes off each other. A few seconds later, h
I kept blinking as I stared at the ceiling. I could not believe Valjerome is lying next to me now, most of all I never thought I would wake up in his arms.He's freakin 'hugging me.I have held my breath as I felt Valjerome's arm tightened and drew me even closer to his body."You wake up early," he said hoarsely as he pressed his face against my neck.I feel like my heart will move out of my chest with the force of its beating. I cleared my throat and tried to speak with my quivering lips."It’s morning already, Val," I softly said.He just hummed and nodded against my neck. I could even feel him sniffing."Are you still sore?" he asked.My face automatically heated up as I remembered what we did last night."Val!" I shouted when his hand cupped my womanhood.I
"Good morning, Señior," Valjerome's staff politely greeted him as soon as we entered the company.I saw how their eyes analyze my being when they looked at me, examining my presence with their boss as if it is like seemingly strange. There are also others who simply murmured perhaps they saw the issue about us in the news.Valjerome didn't bother to greet back. He just continued walking like he heard nothing from everyone. I quietly followed while Jaime and some of his staff were behind us.I faked a smile and looked at where I am walking to. I was hoping in a few seconds. I was hoping that he would officially introduce me here in the company as his wife.Who am I fooling with?I am about to think that he was just jealous yesterday that’s why he announced our relationship. But I knew I would only make myself expect for nothing, he only did that to annoy Chao
"M-Mr. Montevardo, can you please...center Ms. Zamora?" hesitantly and apprehensively said by the photographer."Mrs.," Valjerome whispered emphatically and did the other way around.He pulled me closer to his body. I unconsciously sighed for him to look at me."Val, this is a triple shoot. Our pose for this is I should be in between you and Chaos, not only by your side," I simply murmured.I felt Valjerome's grip tightened on my hip. He slightly bent over to my ear to whisper."I will kill him before he touches you," he grinned.I shrove unbelievably. I don’t know if I should be afraid of what he does or rejoice to the attention he is giving me. And because I’m totally stupid, I prefer to do the second.Maybe it's not wrong to expect, right?"This shoot won't end, Val. Only just for now.
It was already twelve o'clock midnight but Valjerome hasn’t returned home yet. He left after the commotion earlier in the living room. He always gets angry but this was the first time he acted like this so I couldn't help but worry for him.For countless times, I can’t be comfortable with my position on the bed. I sighed as I stared at the ceiling, not knowing if it was because I was worried that I couldn't sleep or because I got too used to being next to him.For more than a month that the two of us have been close, he has been sleeping in my room. Even though I wanted to ask him, I just ignored it and be happy with what he was doing.Maybe he's trying to fix our marriage, but he doesn't have the guts to tell me.When I can’t fall asleep, I decided to get up and go to the kitchen for a drink."Hmmm…what do we have here?" I whispered as I looked