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35|Retake
~Zia~
The words he mumbled hang heavily between us. It’s as though someone had punched me in the gut, forcing out all the air from my lungs.
“W-what?” the glass I’m holding almost slipped from my grasp.
Xavier shook his head. From the reticent light, all I could make out was the absence of life and hope in his cold facade. I’m used to Xavier’s wall always surrounding him, but this is some other kind of isolation. It’s coiled with anger and loathing directed at no one but himself.
I don’t know what he meant, but I won’t let this one go. With my free hand pressing on the door frame - keeping my balance - I turned and faced him fully.
“Xavier, what do you mean?” He let out a breath, swaying his head in resignation, downing
Castiel*Jok (pronounced as Joke) is another variant of rice congee which has a thicker consistency - it is quite similar to the Chinese style of congee. ~ *sigh* I'd like to see Thailand someday. ~ Just a thought, where are you guys from? I'm from PH btw. ;)
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