THIRTY TWO

My body freezes as I watch him watch me. Emma is laughing behind him. I think I hear her call my name and waves at me. I kinda do the same but Simon doesn't pay attention because he's way too focused on me. It's not right. He should be looking at Emma not at me. Because the way his gaze fixed is always the way I want Cooper to do. Like I think Simon wants to run up to me and give me a tight longing hug or maybe a kiss. I shouldn't be thinking any of this or even him.

It's wrong. So wrong.

I take a deep deep breathe and begin making my way upstairs to where Cooper always stays. He's gone in his first bevause he's mad. He's mad at me for not telling him that I'm going to New York. It was just one week but I feel like I did a crime here. I needed to take care of my daughter. Every time I remember her sweet smile I just feel relieved.

I want to look back at Simon to see if he's still watching me but I'm scared I won't be happy to see what he will be doing with Emma in that pool. So I st