Chapter 41: I'm a monster

AMERICA DAVIES

The house had never felt emptier than it was today, no sound of the coffee machine producing fresh coffee or the ding of the microwave when the meal was ready. Not even a single thing was out of place.

It felt like I had lost a big part of me which I would never be able to regain because of my carelessness.

Whenever I was home alone, I would feel mostly a sense of overwhelming peace and happiness. The stress of everyday life would melt away and all of a sudden life would feel so so good.

Being alone meant I was literally free to do whatever I wanted, however I wanted, whenever I wanted. The sound of pure peace was not something daily life would normally allow you to experience.

But this time around, I felt lonely. It wasn't solitude but loneliness.

As I laid on the couch where Jacob found as a fond habit to sleep on every afternoon, the thought of me never being able to see him and fix what I had done consumed me whole and then depression kicked in.

All the emotions