Aaron
As a person you know when you have found something that is absolute. I thought Alexis was going to call me a freak for stalking her ; but she didn't, I thought she wasn't going to give me a shot but she did and I don't want to mess things up. For the first time in a long time Dave and I are on the same page. Before the main event he came clean about his abuse, both at school and when he was staying in CapeTown. He also asked me if he could change schools and I said yes.
The wedding was amazing. I kind of went back to the day I said ; I do to Laura and the pain that came with saying; I will give you a divorce. I thought that was it for me that I was doomed to have failed relationships... until Lexi happened on a day I had given up all hope. The emergency landing was a blessing in disguise. I saw what she did for Dave and I will say it again I don't want to mess things up. I knew she had switched h
AlexisI try to remember a time when my life flashed before my eyes ... Its happened a couple of times; but I come out alive every time it happens. I do know that I am alive on purpose and that whatever the reason is I am so grateful. When faced with danger ; your you are programmed as a human being to either run , fight or freeze . I didn't see the crash coming ... therefore my response time was no response at all .I had just finished watching the video Mary sent and I didn't respond . What I did however was schedule a message to go out Sunday Morning to Aaron. In the long text I told him how I truly felt and that the morning we got frisky , I had my mind made up already . I also apologized for not keeping my promise. The promise I made him twice because he needed to be sure that I wasn't going to bail. The night before Tina's wedding I felt a rare feeling. The same feeling I had felt with Simon but it faded after
AaronThis by far has been the longest month and emotionally I am trying to cope but truth be told I can't. I pretend to be okay for David but as soon as the lights go off . I cry. I blame myself for Lexi bein in hospital . I can work from anywhere ; so for the past four weeks I've been working from the private room Alexis was in. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor. He lost control of his car and the weather was also to blame. My routine had changed but as long as I could be here when Lexi wakes up I will have no regrets .I wake up; get ready for work and make breakfast for David that's if Mary isn't up before me we eat together as a family, Mary leaves for work before I do, I drop Dave at his new school , and make my way to the hospital. Mary picks Dave up and I go home for dinner later. Carlo Pirelli who happened to be involved in the accident too was also a regular visitor
AlexisThere is a moment between sleeping and waking up ... the moment you take a deep breath ;come out of your REM state of mind , and open your eyes . I call that moment ; the breath of life. It is a pivotal moment when you realize that, you've made it through the night and you have lived to see another day... And then you breathe out. I call that a moment of thankfulness. Then there is a moment when all your switches jack up , and after being out of it for a while even if it was a couple of hours you consider yourself lucky .If you wake up next to someone you love to Pluto and back; when you wake up knowing that you have someone out there who cares that you are alive , or wake up knowing you will overcome whatever obstacles you face because you believe that everything is working for you and not against you... you are blessed.I have always had the fear of waking up and no one being there. I've lived alone for a while now so
AaronI miss her. I miss Lexi so much. I was told by Brent that ;she woke up the day I went back to the office. I tried to call her but her phone was disconnected. I hadn't been to my penthouse loft for the whole week . I wanted to stay at the estate because it was closer to work. I was going back to the loft this evening. It was our usual family dinner night. I wanted to go out for a change with both Mary and Dave, so I made a reservation for us at an Italian restaurant by the hill. When I arrived at the loft I touched base with Dave, got cleaned up and Mary drove us to the restaurant. Once we were seated we ordered our food, and started to talk ."So Dave how was your week?"" Dad it was fine. ""Okay. ""Aunty Mary tell dad what you did ... or I will."Something was up. Mary looked guilty. Something in me wondered what did she do. I loo
Alexis#song Max -Lights lowAlexisDreaming is good . What's even better is remembering what you dreamt during the night in the morning. .. However there comes a time when you need to wake up and stop dreaming. The question I always ask is; Why should we stop dreaming ? I have a tendency to answer my own questions while I talk and try and make sense of whatever the hell got me curious . You see dreams in a way are like reality .What you do consciously affects you at a subconscious level. As much as dreams are your brains way of escaping reality ...dreaming is your subconscious's way of making sense of your true nature ; about how you feel, what you really think of someone , and what scares you. You'd be surprised as to the levels you can ascend to when your mind is quiet. Dreaming in any form is important. It helps you unlock your imagination , and reconnect with the kid inside of you. The kid that believed that t
#Song- Miguel ft Janelle Monae - Prime time* smut content ahead.*🚨AaronLast night was the best night of my life. I love Lexi so much. At a point where I thought Mary had messed things up for me by telling her that I didn't love her, Alexis told me; she wanted me to explain myself, and it was unlike me to just send someone to tell her how I felt. We had a really amazing make up and catch up session, that lasted till this morning .I am a heavy sleeper and last night after Dave called me to say ;goodnight , I forgot to switch my alarm on . I wasn't going into work today in fact I was due back on Monday but I didn't tell Lexi. I was slowly coming around and my baby love wasn't in my arms but I could feel a weird sensation which felt familiar down south.The last time I felt that was on my wedding night and none of the women I was with dared to go down, because I had a nasty scar from the day I
#Song - Leela James - fall for youAlexisAaron looked at me with a sad face and a flash of sadness passed through his eyes. He let go of me and ran upstairs" Wow ... I cannot believe you ."I run after him and he was looking for something in his jacket." Aaron what are you looking for ?""The box. "" which one.""You only want me for sex . That's it.""You are over reacting and no I don't. "" I want to make you mine but you don't want us to have kids."" I didn't say that . What's gotten into you?"Aaron started breathing rapidly and it was a clear indication I triggered something." You are already planning on leaving me. Everyone I've loved just walks out on me or gets taken away . I'm already losing you."Aaron sat on the bed and started taking deep breaths. He also covered his face ." Aaron you didn't let me finish downsta
#song Craig Lucas - Hearts ExposedAaronI haven't felt like this in a long time. I had lost all hope in love; the kind of life that ignites your soul with passion , fire, and flame . Being together with Lexi without any interruptions, has been like heaven . Strangely enough it feels so totally new. I am falling in love again and this time it's different. We both speak the same love language; she is responsive, doesn't bite my head off and we are both very giving.I paid her back in full for waking me up with awesome head this morning.It was already twelve thirty in the afternoon and she was still knocked out cold. I am addicted to Alexis and I am not getting off her anytime soon... except for when I also need my morning dose of her. She looks so peaceful like an angel. I didn't want the moment I was in to end, I wanted to bottle it up and keep it forever. I leaned down to kiss her foreh