Alexis✔
There is something comforting about surety … Knowing that someone will come through for you no matter what; having a friend who always has your back , having a shoulder or shoulders to cry on , Knowing that if you’re in trouble there is nothing that the person you trust wouldn’t do for you , and the surety of knowing no matter how many times you fight the person you love … They will always come back because your know deep down in your heart that , home is wherever they are.
I had a fight with Aaron . It wasn’t because he found out he was a Massa , but he was pissed off that I hadn’t told him about Carl, and his face showed it . I surprisingly had a call from my favorite person yesterday. He looked so happy and he was worried. He called me mom which made me smile .
I went to sleep and woke up a bit better the next morning. I was still hurt. I didn’t even fe
AaronI need help. I admit that I need help. I messed up so badly and Alexis did not deserve to be at the bottom end of my rant. She didn’t tell Caleb or else I would be at the bottom end of another one of his infamous tongue lashings. He can be brutal ; I’ve seen it first hand and I was surprised that he kept his cool when he saw Nathan Simon. I woke up early this morning to decorate the dining room; bake and make breakfast for Mary and David. By the time I was done it was well after twelve in the afternoon. I had to go fetch Ali and both Mary and Dave were not up so I left a note and ran out. I had to settle the medical aid bill when I arrived at the hospital for Dave and Mary. When I wanted to pay for Alexis’s too the kind lady shook her head and said; it was settled this morning by Brent. When I entered her room Brent was; sitting on the Bed ,on the phone , asking questions . When I looked at him his eyes went wide and he cut
#Song : Black Coffee ft Msaki -wish you were hereAlexis✔As a kid; I was always taught to question the very thing that is the norm. There is a method to how things are done , however for every act there is a counteract. Rules are put in place for a reason; to maintain order , to instill some sort of decorum , and to make sure things run according to plan . Sometimes things don’t go according to plan.As you grow up ; you come to the realization that, rules can be flexible to a certain extent until they have to be broken. What usually follows a counter act is either regret or in some cases an awakening of some sort. When you have an exception to every rule that you’ve ever made ; it can sometimes leave you vulnerable, broken and to an extent in jeopardy of losing yourself. This morning I woke up; I was thankful that I was alive and that I made it through the night. When I saw my reflection in th
AaronNo one is perfect... No one can ever be perfect, but the world expects us to be. When people give their opinion on something it is usually given from their own point of view and how they view the world. If you don't have a strong sense of self or an anchor of truth; you will constantly live in assumption and expectation . When people assume something , they expect you to live up to their expectations. The world says perform because life is an act, however the ones you love and hold dear say ; live ... You need to stop , stop for a moment and just breathe . Living happens when you stop playing roles that don't serve you to your highest good . When the final curtain call comes and when all is said and done what's left?" The sobering fact that you are lonely and you have no one ,absolutely no one to share your success with. I found that out the hard way... Even when I had someone they were not fully there.For
AlexisMan downIt happened so fast. It happened so fast that; I didn’t have time to recognize that I was caught in a cross fire between the guys that Carlo and Aaron were shooting at. All I saw was smoke and Carl swearing. It wasn’t until I heard a loud thud on the floor that my heart stopped. Security had come through and a couple of other guys who had the same ring as Carlo . As soon as the smoke cleared Carl bent down to pick me up and give me a hug.“ Hey honey are you okay?”I nodded and looked for Aaron.“Aaron Carl where is Aaron?”I pulled back and looked at the kitchen island . I couldn’t see him .“Aaron!”Carl let go of me and ran to where Aaron was. My heart was already beating fast but it broke when I saw Aaron lying on the floor with a
44AlexisFeelsFear is the enemy of courage. Courage is what we have, when we look fear in the face and tell it to go to hell and stay there because life is calling. When life calls we answer ; however when life happens we react. How we react can determine the outcome of the situation. Given what was 'going on I couldn’t lose it and become a drama queen. Drama has its benefits when you want to make a statement ,and when you do make the statement make sure you don’t trip and fall on your face… it happens to the best of us when we least expect. Courage and kindness are not really rare traits. They are embedded in us ; we just need to flick the switch. What courage does is give us the power to overcome and with that comes understanding. Through understanding you learn to see a situation for what it is and take a gentle approach in helping someone. Kindness has never lost a battle or war. Coupled with hum
AaronThree weeks laterMary relapsed again. I blame myself for that happening. Ever since the shooting I have been recovering very well and I am healing.Christmas was different this year though. Mary was okay until she lost it at Cleo for no apparent reason. Sarah was also shocked and as I suspected she gave Lexi hell in Cape Town. Lexi had been away and I hadn’t seen her in a long time a month to be exact and May went as far as blocking her on all accounts. Carl and the Perelli bunch joined us for the Christmas lunch.Alexis was six months pregnant and what hurt the most was missing out on a lot of things. The shooting wasn’t her fault .When I called CT he told me; She was out and she didn’t want to talk to me about anything. I knew that he bought a house just down the road and I had the innate feeling that Lexi was around. Our connection was and is always strong .
AlexisThe toughest conversations are the ones we’ve never had with our heart. Conversations with heart are always honest; pure, real and non pretentious. It is a non judgmental zone where you can bare all without any fear… The heart always knows the truth no matter what condition it is in; your heart will always lead you to the right answer . Your heart will always lead you home.I have had moments when I’ve doubted the very love I believed in.The day Simon Nathan broke my heart was one of them, the other was the day I lost Ben, and now… Now it’s whether or not I love Aaron. For the longest of times I have struggled with letting anyone in or talk about how I really felt about a situation. When I got together with Aaron over the time we were together, I had lost a part of myself. In my head I foolishly believed that true I had to sacrifice a part of myself to be with him. Tr
AaronAlexis is really unpredictable. Her unpredictability can be both exciting and unsettling at times, but it makes sense at the end of the day.When I entered the house Alexis was walking around barefoot in my kitchen looking serious. She got the hint earlier that I wanted her in our home. When she recognized my presence ; she smiled and blew a kiss at me , and for a moment my heart skipped a beat and fell in love again. It was already mid afternoon and I hadn’t eaten so; so I headed to the kitchen to go make lunch for us both.I didn’t have much in the fridge but I had enough to whip up a meal. Usually I would ask Dave what he wanted , and he would order it in. I cooked for him every now and then but, I could tell she missed Lexi as much as I did. She planned meals and she made sure we all ate as a family with Mary included. She took a seat on the comfy stools in front of the counter and loo