My mother loves carnivals. She loves getting on all of the rides. So when the carnival came to town I had to take her out. We deserve a mother-daughter date. I've been spending so much time with Oliver, I wanted to make time for her. I'm glad we came, it's a great night to get on the Ferris wheel and watch the city light up at night.
And she's excited too. I'm waiting for her to come back from the bathroom so we can get on our next ride. We are going to get our money's worth tonight. We are not leaving here until we get on every ride."Hi," Someone says behind me. My first thought is to not turn around, I'm so used to being ignored that I always think no one ever wants to talk to me. Especially in a public place like this. That said I turn around anyway. I'm curious to find out who the person is talking to.
"Oh shit," I say when my eyes collide with Marlene. She's the last person I thought would be behind me right now.How was the carnival?Patient OFive minutes later there's no reply. That's very unlike Ry. She normally replies to my texts immediately. I stare at my phone screen wondering what's going on. I open the text thread and I can see that she saw my message but she hadn't replied.I guess you're tired from all of the activityWe'll talk tomorrowI love youPatient O
10 am the next morningIt's been 7 hours since Ry and I last texted. I tried calling her multiple times multiple times but she didn't answer. I haven't left my room since. I'm frozen, I can't move. I need her to talk to me. I can't believe this is happening right now.Everything was going amazing. I hate it when we fight.I especially hate it when she gives me the silent treatment.I didn't get a wink of sleep. I really should have listened to Jameson. He warned me and I didn't take him seriously. I was so happy with Ryo that I didn't think this would happen.We were in a very good place yesterday and now we're here. I feel like I went to work and
A while laterRyo asked to meet me at the city garden. I look around at the beautiful scenery. I'm at the entrance waiting for her to show up. I have a few minutes to spare before she gets here, She said to meet at 12:30 but I showed up at 12:15. I couldn't wait another minute in my room. I had to get out and find something to do before my head exploded with what-ifs.I stare at the roses hanging on the arc at the entrance. They look so vibrant and alive.How did I not know that there's something like this in our city? This is incredible.I find this place beautiful but it makes me sad. I wish we didn't come here today, while we're fighting. I wish this was one of our incredible dates. It's going to hurt really badl
"This feels good," I say wrapping my arms around Oliver. We're lying on the garden lawns looking up at the sky. I'm straddling him and his lips are placed softly on my neck. "I love this so much," I add and he kisses me softly. I close my eyes enjoying the feeling."I love this too." He says and I can feel his hand go up the inside of my thigh. I gasp softly and hold on tighter to him. I almost didn't wear a dress this morning but sitting here right now, I think I made the right decision. I love that he has easy access to everything."I don't think that's a good idea," I say my breath getting heavy. He is lightly brushing my thighs, causing a ripple of desire to shoot through my veins. I'm saying one thing with my mouth but my body is saying something else."Why not?" He says whispering
"I can't remember the last time we did this," Kelly says getting into my bed. I scooch over making more room for her even though I don't need to. I have a big bed and the two of us can fit comfortably. I'm moving over because I know she loves to have a lot of space. She's what I like to call a start-fish sleeper. She spreads her limbs as wide as possible for her to be comfortable."I know, life has kind of taken over," I say and she smiles lying on her side so she can look at me, '"You mean Oliver took over." She says wiggling her brows at me. "You don't have any time for me since he's come into the picture." She says frowning at me."I know I know I have more time for us," I say feeling guilty. She's right, this relationship has taken a lot of my time. I live with my mother in the same house and I barely see her."Oh Ry, I'm kidding. I love that you have Oliver keeping you busy. I love that you finally have a guy that
"Marlene just walked in," Kelly says looking toward the entrance behind me. "She's looking at me, she's walking towards us." She adds and I take a sip of my coffee. I close my eyes annoyed at this Maelene dynamic. Can't I take my best friend out to breakfast without catching drama from her?I woke up this morning determined to have a great day with Kelly. I planned out today perfectly. Have an amazing sleepover, that's done. Follow up with an epic breakfast, that's in progress. Maybe catch a movie and end the day with a late lunch. Nowhere in my plan was Marlene and her obsession with Oliver included.I hear her shoes approach me and let out a long breath as I put my cup down. Kelly raises her brow at me in question as Marlene gets closer. She takes a sip of her coffee and she sits back."Ryo, we need to stop bumping into each other like this." She says coming to stand in front of me. I sit back in my chair so I can look her in her eyes.
"Thank you for today," Kelly says smiling next to me. She stares at the magnificent sunset in front of us as the Ferris wheel slowly turns around. "Thank you for coming," I say smiling too. This feels so calming. I couldn't imagine a better way to end our Saturday. "I'm glad I did. Or else I wouldn't have seen that epic stare-down with Marlene." She says looking at me. She winks and then she starts laughing. "Stop, it's not that funny," I say nudging her with my elbow. She continues laughing and I stare at her. She's enjoying this disaster of a situation I'm in a little too much. I need her to take this seriously. "Yes, it is that funny. She was shaken. She couldn't believe you shut her down like that. I couldn't believe it too. That was iconic." She says her voice getting louder. "I wish I saw it the way you see it. I just see my doom at the end of the road." I say and she rolls her eyes at me. Finally, she stopped laughing. " If you let her bully you, you'll have a hard time
Monday at school:Ryo is hiding in a bathroom stall."Where in the hell did she find that picture of me," I say staring at the screen on my phone. I screen in my head trying not to cry. I stare at the screenshot and tears fill up my eyes. I stare at my 10-year-old face staring back at me and I want to die.The picture was taken a long time ago at a kid's camp. I was young, uncoordinated and a little dirty. But who cares I was a kid. I was still trying to figure out what works for me, what looks good and what doesn't.Who wasn't at that time?I look at the picture again and I start to cry. The whole school has been passing this picture of me around. They started laughing when I walked onto the school grounds. They were pointing and whispering who knows what. And then Kelly sent it to me. I couldn't believe what I was seeing.I thought this picture didn't exist anymore. I thought it was erased from the face of the earth. But here it is today haunting me.My hair in the picture is a mess