A Worthless Mother

Pandora looked away from Lana to Benjamin. She didn't remember hearing about a sister.

"She was stillborn," Lana clarified, making her gasp.

"I'm sorry," she said quickly and she gave Pandora a gentle smile.

"When Ben was in here, I couldn't handle it to say that he forgot to breathe ten times a day, so I started calling it blips."

Pandora nodded at her in understanding. "It does sound much better, just this is all new, I feel..."

"Clueless? Like you're being judged for not knowing the right way to do things, or what to do?" Pandora nodded again because that was exactly how she was feeling. "I felt like that, too. I know it seems overwhelming, and that there is so much to learn with the boys being in the NICU. But, Pandora, I have faith that you can and will learn and be fine," Lana kissed her head before standing up.

"I think I'll leave you two with your boys. I need coffee– do either of you need anything?" Pandora shook her head and Lana smiled again before turning and walking