"What would Bella want to say if this was your last day alive?"“I want to be a good child beyond expectations. I make sure to always study hard, be kind, and independent, to take care of Jennie. Anything that can make Mom be pleased, I'll do. But all this time I felt so lonely, I felt I had no place to share.”“I hate empty houses, without anyone present to greet me when I return. On that lonely day, I began to hope for a normal life, wanting to be an ordinary child like others. Not an extraordinary child for Mom to be proud of and Dad to turn look to me. But since I promised Mother, I can't do that. I'm stuck with my promise to Mom."“I'm sorry for not being able to live up to Mother's expectations. I'm sorry that I disappointed you and made you feel hurt by all the things I've done. I'm sorry I didn't take good care of Jennie. I'm sorry for being born like this if that's the reason why Mom and Dad separated because of my existence. I'm sorry, Mom..."“On that
Jennie came closer to occupy where Mom was sitting earlier. Jennie also wanted to say something to Bella, which she probably should have said a long time ago."I'm sorry Sis...""What for?" Bella couldn't remember Jennie doing something that deserved to be forgiven.“To make you always burdened with a sense of responsibility towards me.”"No Jenny, it's not like that..""I know.. But let me say it." Jennie looks very serious right now."For me, no one is important, all the same. Father, Mother, you are equally important to me. I can't choose which one of you is most important and which is not. If there is someone who makes me choose then that person is the bad one.”What was the meaning of what Jennie was trying to convey to Bella. For a moment Bella felt that she was being gently offended by Jennie's words. Because for Bella the most important thing in her life is Mother.“But if you have someone very important, no one has the right to forbid yo
Bella has been very busy lately. After Dad came, now her classmates. She did not expect that they would come to visit. Bella was very happy but it didn't have to be like this either.Bella felt that her patient room was louder than the other rooms. She was afraid to disturb the peace of the other patients. Really wished her friends could calm down. She had told but was outnumbered in the voice. Bella could feel in an instant her patient room had turned into their classroom."Isn't the number of people visiting limited? Then how come there are so many people in my nursing room?” Her classmates did not listen to Bella's words at all. Bella's patient room had been rummaged. They act as if this is a study tour, a visit to the hospital. Due to unfavorable circumstances, Bella sent Jennie home early. Jennie can go back to the hospital again later that night with Mom. After Jennie left, Bella's close friends immediately attacked Bella with private conversations."Bell
Alec walked over, then sat down on the side of Bella's patient bed. Events that felt very familiar to her. Don't know how many people have sat like this beside her and she just sat helplessly on the patient's bed.Alec hands Bella a book of ancient literature. What she really wanted to read the book in the past, but because it was an old book it was very difficult to find. Bella wanted to read it so much that she went to the library in another area which was quite far away and looked at a used bookstore."Where did you get this book from?" After all, it was a story from a long time ago, at the start of their second year of school.“From a senior, I knew in training.”Actually, Alec wanted to give the book to Bella as soon as he came back from training but the timing wasn't right and things happened. So all this time Alec has kept it and only now can give it to her.To be honest, Bella had read and had a similar one at home, but she didn't tell. Even though i
Bella wanted to believe that feeling still lingered in Alec's heart. She will be very grateful that his love is still the same till this moment. Bella wants him to always be by her side, helping and looking after her. Can Bella treat Alec's wound that she has made herself? Is there still a second chance for her?The touch of Alec that she had longed for. Bella's eyes could not help the gaze of the eyes in front of her. Bella could see the seriousness in Alec's eyes, making her unable to take her eyes off Alec's gaze."From now on say what you feel, you think. You are not alone, don't think like that. I'll listen to it if you want it. I will be by your side like now.”Bella resignedly fell into Alec's arms, the tears flowed again. "Thank you, Alec. I will try, this time for sure.”Bella couldn't control this feeling. Alec who was by her side, holding her hand, really felt real. Bella didn't want to lose the grip of this warm hand again."I can't go on without
Bella was almost two weeks here, the atmosphere and the scenery around the hospital were familiar to her now. Unexpectedly Bella could feel lost like this. Even so but sorry Bella didn't want to be here any longer.All her things have been cleaned up, and now she waiting for Mother to come to pick them up. Auntie was conversing with the patient in the next room, she was close and familiar with the other patients here. While accompanying Bella, in her free time Aunt to does whatever she wants so doesn't feel bored all day looking after Bella and stays in the hospital. Bella was happy to see that but couldn't get along like Aunt, because they were different people.Bella just realized someone was watching her. The door of her bedroom was indeed open. That person as soon as realized that Bella was staring looking in the direction, the little face was hiding behind the outer wall of the room. Avoided Bella, probably afraid of being scolded for being caught peeking.Bell
On the way back to the house, Bella remembered her conversation with Dr. Hardy. Doctor Hardy told her a little story about Ricky. Bella didn't ask but also didn't mind listening because at least she was curious about the child. With the look in his eyes, Bella felt something. But still don't know what happened to the little boyRicky is a long-time patient at the hospital. Three years ago Ricky was brought to this hospital as an emergency patient due to a traffic accident. Ricky's parents died instantly in an accident.Now Ricky lives with a distant relative who adopted him as a guardian. A husband and wife who are kind and care to him. Ricky is easy to approach but hard to understand. Due to an accident and the loss of his parents at such a small age, Ricky was shocked and traumatized. Emotions are unstable.Sometimes Ricky cries loudly, throws a tantrum, or has seizures for no apparent reason. The situation was enough to bother the people around him. Every day the
This weekend, Jennie reported that Dad would visit the house. Dad told Jennie specifically that he wanted to meet and talk to Mom and Bella separately. Jennie immediately broke the news to Mom and Bella so they could spare each other's time.When Father came, Mother had been waiting since morning. The two of them were talking in Mom's study, Bella and Jennie were still waiting in another room. Personally, Bella felt restless in the wait. She was worried that Mom and Dad would argue as they had always done. On the other side of Mom's study, Dad started the conversation without wasting time."Jennie told me about what happened to Bella, what she's going through, and her health.""I'm going to tell Bella everything about what happened in the past and the misunderstanding between us.""I think it's for the best in this situation." Father seemed very sure of the decision."Whatever happened to our relationship and the reason behind this separation, our children s