Best Fuck You Had

I’ve been the least popular girl in college for as long as I can remember. People think I’m weird just because I’m a little overweight, and wear braces. Yes, I stutter sometimes but only when I’m nervous and because I’m socially awkward. I wasn’t always like that; I did have friends when I was in primary school. But they turned against me, humiliating me in front of the whole school, making me a laughingstock.

Since then, I’ve never had any friends, no boyfriends, no other human interactions other than my parents, who I usually avoided speaking to about these problems. I couldn’t tell them what happened to me or why I didn’t bring home any friends from school.

Since I never had friends, I obviously never had a boyfriend either. I’ve been so alone, crying myself to sleep every night. Even if someone new accidentally came up to talk to me, I would drive them away with my awkwardness.

Everything felt so unreal sometimes. I felt like giving up a million times, having suicidal thoughts