26

Rosella

Losing faith.

Did you mean what you said? Show me that you mean it.

Everything happens for a reason. Wish we could leave it in the past. But I had always bounced back like a ping pong. Everytime, everywhere, I yearned for his attention after my first love.

He was like a drug for my pain.

Even if he abused me, I still felt loved. I felt the heat, the rhythm of my heart. But it had soon died. His warm hugs gave me a sense of safety. He was my first in everything. My v-card belonged to him and I was happy to give him the happiness he deserved. The secret I never talked about. My friends thought I was a virgin, but I simply wasn't.

His words which were sugar-coated gave me a ray of hope. A hope where I could be myself.

Me and him were the couple people were envious about. They tried to make me the bad guy every damn fucking time, instead I stayed strong, not caring about the people who degraded me and titled me as a bitch. I was glad to be a bitch, slut or even a whore just for hi