The fire crackles as it burns, the flames high and the pack circled around it. They mourn the man they've come to see as family, not understanding why I would brutally murder him, my own blood. They didn't understand, and they didn't need to.One by one, everyone leaves and goes inside. Everyone except myself, Jackson, and Zed."How long does it take to fully burn?" Jackson questions."A while." I state emotionless."I want to make sure he's not coming back." Zed mutters icily.Once upon a time I would have comforted him, but after everything we've both said and done, I couldn't. Zed was tricked, used, manipulated and betrayed by the one person that should only have ever loved him. Everyone knows what Kage did to me, I walked the path willingly, but he put it there, laying down every brick and stone.I didn't comfort Zed, I didn't even spare him a glance as I stand like a statue, watching the flames and ignoring the stench of a burning body.***The fire was almost out, a few final
"Alpha Kalli!" The familiar little girl calls my name with excitement."Tell her I'm busy." I mutter to Lori, heading off into the woods away from the child before she can reach me.Hearing Lori tell the pup to that I've got work to do, I shift into my wolf and head off to my place of peace. It's become the only place that I don't feel angry, or the need to kill. It makes me sad, but I feel more myself with my pups than I do anywhere else.Hardin is still healing, I've barely seen him for the last two weeks due to him working with physical therapists and doctors to help him heal quickly, and safely. Whenever we're in the same room, we just clash and I know that it's my fault for pushing him away, even if I'm not happy with how things are.It's better this way, he'll never have to know about me killing our pups. The pack know better than to open their mouths, I'm not exactly known for being gentle anymore.After a while of watching the sun, I head back to the house. But today, somethin
~ Hardin's POV ~"Being angry with her won't help, it'll only push her further away." Zed sighs, handing me a fresh t-shirt."Since when do you care about my mate?" I glare, yanking the shirt over my head.Zed exhales heavily, glancing away. "Kage was using multiple wolves with high status in the packs, he figured since Kalli was Alpha Female someone would eventually mention her. It was a lie from the beginning, and Kalli...she got it worse."Zed has always been honest with me, given he's been my friend longer than he's been my beta, I know him better than anyone. Something about the way he says Kalli got it worse, makes my gut wrench."Worse how?" I grit out. The fact that I took my frustration and anger out on my mate of all people, riddles me with guilt. I can feel the pain she's in, the agony that haunts her day and night. Not knowing why, or how, or even if I can fix it, is beyond irritating.It seems the pack that once pushed her out, now know more about her than I do."Kalli is
Hands grab me again, but this time I physically couldn't escape no matter how much pain I inflict on the wolf holding me. At some point the pack head off elsewhere, leaving Hardin, Zed, Lori, Jackson, Beck and the man gripping me. "Are you going to lock me up until I'm sane?" I spit at Hardin, glaring at him icily."I was wrong to say the things I said, and I'm sorry." Hardin responds calmly, sincerely.I stare for a short second, before turning my head away. I didn't want to hear his apology, or anyone else's, because deep down they have nothing to apologise for. I did this, I made sure I wouldn't feel the pain, I made certain that they no longer loved me.Why can't he just give in like they did?"You are not to blame for what happened, you were protecting them...you couldn't of known what would happen." Hardin says firmly."I don't hate you, I will never hate you, do you understand? I love you, and I'm here for you." Hardin comes closer.Don't listen."How?" I whisper."How can you
"I don't want my daughter in a pack that is teaching her no mercy." The lady tells me with anger."I understand that-"She scoffs, interrupting me. "Do you? Because my daughter said that you punched her last week during training."Stay calm.My face screws up in confusion. "Punched her? I d-""And let me tell you something, lay your hands on my daughter again and I will go to the elders. Don't think I won't, I'll have your ass thrown out faster than a goddamn rogue." She cuts me off again, and I felt myself become infuriated with her.Stay calm. I tell myself."I-""Are you going to change the way your teaching them? Or should I speak to the real Alpha, wherever the hell he is-"In a flash I grip the woman's face, my hand smothering her mouth and my fingers digging hard into her cheeks. Blood boiling, I couldn't stop myself from snapping."SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I bellow menacingly.The woman literally squeaks in fright, eyes wide as she stares at me."Keep talking and I'm going to rip yo
It had been a whole week since the Elders got in touch, and I don't think Hardin or I have slept properly since. Everyday Hardin is gaining more and more strength back in his legs and back, but balances that, the pack, the training, the paperwork, and my therapy sessions...plus a baby that is arriving today.How are we going to cope with all of that? What if this is a mistake?What if I hurt it? Or don't know what it wants?"Nappies, wipes, bibs, clothes, vests...mitts, bottles..." I list the items as I place them on the bed, for what feels like the hundredth time this week.What if I'm missing something?"Try and relax, everything is going to be fine." Hardin takes my hands, leading me away from the stressful baby items."What if it's not? What if we're making a mistake?" I breathe, my heart pounding. The Elders will be here any minute.Hardin stares into my eyes, those silver orbs instantly stealing my attention. He gently takes my face in his hands, ensuring he has my complete atte
The days fly with Mila around, I felt comfort and peace, like part of me had begun to heal. It was nice hearing little giggles, and seeing her smile, and make a mess with her food. I loved it, but Hardin didn't. He hated the mess, her smiles irritated him, and her giggles just pissed him off. I wasn't sure why he disliked her so much, if it was because she's a baby, a rogue, or just because we lost ours.With time, all good things come to an end.Mila wouldn't stop crying, and no matter what I did she didn't want it. Food, bum change, a bath, toys, attention, I even took her to the pack doctor because I thought something was really wrong with her. Until I realised that the one thing she wanted, needed...I took from her.Her mother.That feeling, knowing she still cries for a woman she probably doesn't even remember, it breaks my heart. Suddenly her cries made me sad, and her laughter broke my heart, her smile just reminding that she isn't mine. That I will never see my own pups at thi
Months go by, slowly I began to feel better, like my mind isn't cluttered and scrambled. I never would have thought that therapy would help me feel like myself again, even if it is a slightly different version. I'm stable, and my emotions are balanced and I finally understand how to express each one, and acknowledge them. That was one of my problems, not being able to feel anything except love, pain and anger, and it wasn't healthy. Part of the reason is due to how I was raised, Kaleb says that being controlled by my parents allowed me no personal growth, they stopped me from doing far more than live my life.I feel different, even if I know therapy isn't done, I'm happy, more than happy actually. Because I know how far I've come, in the six months since I walked in here a broken, fragile bomb of emotions."Remember, two weeks from today." Kaleb says."The seventh of January, I know." I smile, giving him a hug despite the fact that he's my therapist."You have my number to call if yo