Trapped in a deep hole

I jammed my lips together the moment I realized what I had done. Did I just lie to him? why would I lie him? how could I lie to him like that? I must have been stupid, but I panicked.

I still hadn’t told him who Nate was to me earlier before our marriage and I was terrified to. What if he saw me differently because I left his brother for him? We both found out about the condition of our marriage and how terrible we had been manipulated, true. But I was super scared, so scared, I was not willing to lose Jordan.

“Hmmm” he hummed behind me.

“I thought he was here.”

“Yes…” I blurted out and hated myself the next minute.

“Genesis…” he called out and made me turn around so I could look at him, which was hard. How could I look at those eyes of his and still lie?

“What is it?”

“nothing” I entered, too quickly. He frowned and stared at me curiously with those brown eyes of his that I thought would bore a hole inside me. Maybe I should tell him, but what would happen after that?

“Why are you so