Colton’s POV:Worry that’s all I feel in this moment I’m worried because we’ve never had to face something so terrifying that’s completely out of my hands to be able to control the outcome. Nothing like life coming and slapping some humbleness in you. I’m hurting and not just for myself for her, I’ve always been able to protect her if thing for wrong how will I help her through something I’m not even sure I can make it through? Head to the sky I’m humble praying please keep us covered!Alexa’s POV:Laying on an operating table I can’t stop crying “I didn’t want this for you little one”. Head to the sky praying please keep us covered. Just as the doctor walks in and says alright people I know this isn’t what we planned for, but we are here now let’s gets through this all healthy and alive!I couldn’t agree more Doctor I hear my husband say the next thing I feel is the local kicking in separators going up and the doctor saying alright let’s began! I smell burning flesh not a pleasant sm
Alexa’s POV: Let me introduce you to our princess weighing two pounds we named her Audrey which means strong and she is, I took her first experience in the world and gave it a powerful meaning so Audrey which means strong is her first name and Camilla which means fighter is her middle name my STRONG FIGHTER Audrey Camilla Smith welcome to the world baby girl to the moon and beyond.I’ve been in the hospital for a week now and I’m finally ready to head home, however I don’t feel as excited to be going home and I know it’s because I have to leave Audrey behind for now, but she will get strong and soon be home where she belongs.As Colton pulls into the driveway the door opens and out runs three little ones who are beyond excited to have us home finally. “Mom where’s the baby” my little Jace asks he would be the one to notice that the baby isn’t here with me I release a long sigh and say come on inside everyone let’s have a talk. Once I’m seated inside with the help of Colton due to th
Alexa’s POV:Two months later, yes I said two whole months so I’m turn I guess you can say two months and three weeks this place has been my second home. I know every nurses name on every shift who’s working on what day I’ve even made a couple of friends who I’m sure will be around for a long time. It’s amazing what you will bond over in the NICU. I’m so excited a car seat test is the only thing standing in between us officially being able to take our Angel home.So currently we’re at 6 1/2 ILB’S and 4 ounces down I’m so proud of her she is really my little twin I can’t believe it. She is however on a special milk to control the acid reflux but other than that she is as healthy as a horse. …………..A few hours later………………….We’re headed home with our Angel safely in her car seat with no breathing issues happiness is an understatement of my emotional state right now.As we pull up I notice my brothers car my parents and a few friends as well. So much for a relaxing evening with the famil
Alexa’s POV:Another week goes by pretty smoothly motherhood this time around I have to say I’m a little more prepared for from the sleepless nights to immediately putting Audrey on a sleep schedule, and from the wanting to pull my hair out to waking up every morning styling my hair. I have successfully gone from the stressed out new mom look to the hot mom of four. “Two pats on the back”! I can honestly say I’m enjoying it a lot more this time around. Audrey is now almost taking a whole six ounce bottle without any issue’s and hardly throwing up anymore. She has her upcoming two week check up I can’t wait to see what she weighs now, she has gotten significantly heavier and I couldn’t be more happier than I am right now. She was born the smallest, but she is turning out to be my most healthiest baby yet!So I’m guessing this is what everyone is saying when they say the best moment in motherhood is right at the beginning, they just failed to mention it only comes the third time around
Alexa’s POV:I’m pacing around the halls like a crazy person jumping up at every door sound with the hopes of hearing some good news I’m really excited about becoming an aunt and God Mother a roll I intend to honor very seriously. About four hours later I hear it faint but I can hear it the sound of baby cries, but wait………why, why all the doctors rushing to her room if the baby is crying and……………..Robby a nurse just not so nicely escorted him out of the room! My legs move before I know what’s happening. Robby what’s wrong, how’s Cass? All he does is looks at me with a grief stricken face and tear filled eyes and shaking is head in the negative repeatedly say “but she was fine”! I ask again Robby what happened to Cass!! That’s when he snaps out of it and really vegans to cry and drop to the floor. I assume the worst and can’t help but to do the same and I do I cry until there is nothing left in me to cry. I pull myself together and call my husband to inform him and also my parents and
Alexa’s POV:Dam it Cass it’s been a whole year and argh!! Happy Birthday by the way! Bella she is your twin by the way just shy of her first birthday with your personality on a thousand lol. God I miss hearing you laugh your laugh would get me through anything in this world so you can imagine when I say that this past year has been HELL! I’ve really been needing someone to talk to so bad lately, Audrey is growing every day and I know you want to know if her and Bella are best friends as we predicted and the answer to that question is YES! Robby took to parenthood like a pro much better than I thought he would it was a little rough in the beginning but he finally got the hang of it, so you’d be proud! Oh and the twins are turning 9 next month they really wish you could’ve been here for that one. And Jacey always asks about you and it still breaks my heart every time. Ugh I miss getting a snarky reply to my cheesy comments I keep making them hoping you would reply but every time I come
Alexa’s POV:Two more months have gone by the twins are officially nine now Conner is the smartest six year old I know and my baby girl Audrey is just about to turn three in a week her and Bella are inseparable when they are around each other. “Hey Cass how are you feeling today”? I know trick question your back must hurt from being on it all the time! “That’s what she said”! “Hey girlie” OH MY GOD you’re woke I scream so in rushes Robby with Bella not to far behind “what did you say”? “She said oh my God you’re woke”? If I’m not mistaken Cass says! And that’s all it took for Robby to call for the doctor who he has been paying to do care on Cass for the past almost three years! How long have I been out? Asks Cassie oh about three and a half years! She looks at me like she couldn’t believe it and asks for her daughter who only then comes from behind her daddy’s legs as if she’s afraid of Cass. It’s ok baby it’s mommy Robby informs Bella only then did she run into Cassie’s awaiting arms
Alexa’s POV: ………….Another three years later!……………..Yes time sure does fly I have the twins grade school graduation coming up and I couldn’t be more prouder. Jace is valedictorian and Jacey finished with straight A’s, like I said couldn’t be more proud so today is the day they get to do whatever it they want to do. Jace choose VR simulator at the arcade with his dad he’s officially to cool to be seen with mom in public ahhh my poor heart! And Jacey choose to go to American girl world with her three best friends oh and I get to play chauffeur to the five of them yay me! Note the sarcasm people! I’m so not looking forward to being ignored until it’s time to pay for everything. She also is to cool to be seen with mom. To be twelve and clueless again! And my Conner is now nine years old spitting image of Jace and Colton they should have been the twins because the force is strong with those three! And my dear sweet last but certainly not least Audrey is now six and better than ever no spe