CAMILLA ~•~ I kid you not when I say I would have grabbed her wrists and flung her halfway across the room, not minding the fact that she was taller and from the looks of it, fairly older than I was. I personally did not understand what gave her the audacity to threaten me because of a mere man. Okay, maybe mister Ivan was not just any man, but it did not change anything. It was women like her that made me sick to my stomach and made these men think they could do whatever they wanted just because they looked like mythical Greek gods and held a quarter of the world in their bank accounts. First of all, it was very wrong of her to assume that I was in love with mister Ivan, that was nothing short of a cruel joke. Secondly, her hands were on my face! Who the hell did she think she was to touch me like that? And lastly, a threat? The only person who would regret anything would be her if she did not get her sorry sight out of my face in five…four…three…I counted the seconds in my head
IVAN~•~ I did not know why I kissed her. I could not give myself a suitable answer, not even when I parted my lips and eased my tongue into her mouth, not when I wrapped my right arm around her waist and pulled her from the door, bringing her closer to myself. At that moment, nothing made sense. What was worse? I was perfectly content with it. Here, with her in my arms, I felt as though nothing could go wrong. I was not scared of the entire world anymore. I did not see reasons to end my life, I did not want reasons to die, I did not want the whole world to leave me alone. I only wanted to be right there, in her arms, with her.When I found her in the kitchen, with Elina so close to her face, I knew I had to drag her out of the situation. Elina was not as calm or as nice as she looked on the surface, I knew because I had known her for almost half my life. She could be a sweet soul, gentle as a dove, loving and friendly. But, when you stood between her and the things she wanted, s
CAMILLA ~•~ I pulled away from him in that instant. His scent was strong all over me, my heart was racing. I could barely hear the California breeze blow past his window, into the room, not when all my ears could pick up was the sound of my heart hammering against my chest. His taste lingered on my lips, the places he touched me burned with desire for him. I did not want to stop. I wanted to wrap my arms around his neck and deepen his kiss, I wanted to take one step further and pull his joggers down from his waist. I wanted to touch him all over his naked skin, feel the warmth of his soft flesh against mine. But I could not do any of that, not when I had to be wary of the working relationship between us. I had crossed so many lines with him already, crossing another one would be plunging myself into destruction. I regretted breaking the kiss immediately I did. But, I knew I would regret losing my license more if anything ever went wrong - which was bound to happen, if I continue
CAMILLA~•~ I struggled with the lock of my door, before I finally managed to pull the door open. I stood at the entrance of my room, my eyes peered into his room. Antonio stood at the foot of his door. I could not see the look of horror on his face because he had his back turned to me, but I could see the beads of sweat roll down his neck, and form a pool at his collar, soaking the white shirt.I took one step forward, but came to an abrupt halt when I heard the sound of glass shattering again. Mister Ivan was breaking something, but I could not quite tell what it was. I pushed my fear to the back of my mind and stepped forward, urging Antonio to make way for me. He held my hand and pulled me backwards, I threw him a stony glare. "Are you blind?! Can you not see that he is out of his goddamn mind?!" Antonio yelled at me, while dramatizing every word that came out of his mouth. But, I did not reply him. I tried to break away from his hold, but he pulled me back once more. "You
IVAN ~•~ After my depressing manic episodes, always came the headache that threatened to split my head into two. I did not know how I had fallen asleep, I only knew that the cold air from my air-conditioner caused me to draw my duvet up to my chest in reflex. I was tired, so tired that I could sleep in bed for only God knows how long. I did not want my mind to wander back to the events that had resulted in my…tantrum, that was the word I liked to use. My eyelids had barely parted, I knew it would be painful to open my eyes. I stretched my hand to the side of my bed, just to inform whoever was by my side that I was awake. Antonio was always seated by my side. Immediately I woke up, he would place a damp towel on my head, check my temperature and administer my medication. I had not expected to see him this time, because the person I wanted close to me was Camilla. My right hand touched the right end of my bed, but nobody squeezed it gently. I fought hard to part my eyelids, despite
IVAN~•~I did not know when I opened my arms and pulled Tina into my body. I carried her and placed her against my chest, I noticed how firm her small hands wrapped themselves around my neck. She pressed her head into my right shoulder and I felt my shirt dampen with her tears. I could not stop mine from falling, no matter how hard I tried.My tears welled up in my eyes and ran down my face freely. I was holding the one person I had dreamt of holding all my life. She was here now, with me. "I missed you so much daddy." Her voice was muffled against my neck. I sniffed back my tears, but it did not stop them from stubbornly running down my cheeks. I missed her too, I missed her so much, too much, she had absolutely no idea. "I always asked mummy when you would come see us. She always said you would come one day, but you never did. I was sad, I thought you didn't love me and mummy anymore. I thought that…" She sniffed and pulled her head up from my shoulder. She was looking at me now,
CAMILLA~•~I lay on my bed, Lana Del Rey blasted from the speakers of my mp3 player. I wanted to just lie down and close my eyes, drift off to another world entirely, but I knew I was here on a job. So, I had to focus, pick up my laptop and reach out to my community of psychotherapists. I did not give them the identity of my client, of course, but I did let them know the current situation. The man had been taking antidepressants for only God knows how long, I wanted to see how I could correct and flush his system of the effect. It would not be an easy thing to do, I knew that. Most of the people who replied to my comment let me know that I now had a lot of work on my hands. They let me know the importance of informing his family and changing the course of his medication immediately. But, there was a problem. Mister Ivan did not have a family besides Antonio and Ian. I did not think I could trust either the first or second man with my discovery. One of them might be responsible for
IVAN~•~ "You're going to stay here Camilla, because I need you. And you promised you would not leave." It was hard to hear myself speak, to believe that I had admitted to wanting…no, needing someone. I did not know what was slowly becoming of me, and I could not tell if I liked it. Her lazy brown eyes flickered up at me, I caught the smile within them, even though she would not let me see her lips thin into a smile. For a moment, when I had seen her rush back to pack her clothes, my heart skipped several beats. The thought that she was going to leave, that no one was going to hold me during my manic episodes, that no one was going to comfort me or want to listen to the things I had to say, everything terrified me. She gazed up at me, I was several inches taller than her, and I did not think anything was wrong with the way I enjoyed looking down at her, she was so small compared to me, I wanted to pull her into my arms and squeeze her, just the same way I would squeeze Tina. Finall