Monsters are very much alive

I'm pacing around our room while Moi sits watching me. My feet always ends up returning to one place. The window. I'm nervous maybe a little bit weary. I don't know why I'm on edge this much, I'm never like this. Well I'm never hunted by animals or men either so I guess my anxiety only compensated for what I feel.

Chewing away at my last finger, I make my way towards the door. I'm making another bad - okay horrible decision but mistakes were made to be made and well I know me better than anyone else. There's no way I'd be able to sleep through the night.

"Wait, Halie, " Moi stands folding her arms staring at me apprehensively. "Do I wanna know what you're up to?"

"Maybe not. "

"I don't know anything, " She says walking over to the bed. "You don't need me to tell you this is a bad idea do you? "

"Not really, " I sigh opening the door. "My mind is fuzzing Moi. They're out there and we're here and I know he says it's good, but ugh!" I hold my head. "I promise I won't be reckless. "