Bombshell

(Avery’s Thoughts)

“Hey, you’ve been crying since you and Seid talked but you never answer any of my questions,” I hear Dee comforting me while he’s driving back to his penthouse.

But words can’t just escape my mouth. All I feel right now is heartache, pain, sadness, and guilt, a mixed emotion of thoughts,

“I wished I had known.”

“He should have told me.”

“I wish I would have been more understanding.”

But on the other note, this is how my mind goes,

“I loved him for 10 fucking years, I was loyal, and yet he was a cheater.”

“He was a liar.”

“He deserved what happened to him.”

My brain feels like exploding and I feel suffocated, I think I’m having a panic attack. So I whisper to Dee, “S-stop the car, Dee.”

“Why, are you hurt or something?” he asks with full concern towards me.

I can’t even bring myself to tell him, and because of frustration, I raise my voice, “Stop the fucking car!”

All I ever want is to get out of that small moving box. I need to feel the air. My attack is limiti