When I First Saw You

(Dmitri’s Thoughts)

Finally, I woke up from that nightmare in the middle of the night. I thought I could let go of the past after lots of sessions with a shrink, and yet, here I am, still having nightmares.

I went to the kitchen and reached for my medicine in the secret storage that only I know. Once in a while, I still meet with my shrink in Germany.

I drink water and stare at the moonlight.

I sigh when flashes of scenes still appear in my mind. I rub my temples. Yes, I lied, so that no one would ask me what happened. And I was right, no one reminded me of what happened, no one even dared to ask. That’s how I lived my life for the past decade, full of secrets, full of lies.

And this has something to do with Avery, this is how our ill-fated relationship started.

People say everything is a coincidence. They strongly believe that everything is fated. Every circumstance happens for a reason, and it depends on how we act according to what life brings us.

But I am the living testimon