THIRTY

I parked the car in the lobby and before getting off I shed my tears because of the extreme pain I feel now. The pain of my will and pity for her for what I did last night.

I hope she will forgive me despite what I have done.

I hope she doesn't disappear from me forever.

I released all my tears remembering how happy we are back then.

I smile bitterly when I remember the past when she accepted my love. That was the happiest moment of my life. The moment that I can treasure forever. The way she looks at me back then while saying she loves me is full love and sincerity. Unlike now, she always looks at me like nothing.

It hurts me, but it doesn't care as long as I see her. I am still hoping that we can still reconcile and we can fix our marriage.

When I felt ok I walked quickly to the office. I want to make sure she's ok and she doesn't leave me again. Maybe because of what I did to her last night, she just disappeared again.

She might ru