Chapter 181

WHAT I ONCE THOUGHT would be a hell, a lifetime of chaos and misery, turns into something that I did not expect it to be. Dalawang taong nakakaraan, akala ko doon na nagtatapos ang buhay ko. I thought it would only revolve around blaming myself and grieving for Shanta’s death.

Pero akala ko lang pala lahat ng iyon. Because it turns out… there is more to it. There is more to life than staying in the dark for a longer time. Hindi panghabambuhay ang lungkot. Happiness chooses no person, no place nor right time. Tayo mismo ang pumipili niyon para sa sarili natin.

I walked out to the balcony and left the door open and the curtains flying. We just arrived from the thanksgiving party. Kachina’s inside, taking a hot shower habang ako, kakatapos lang. My hair is still damp. Sumandal ako sa barandilyang nasa harap ko. I gently wiped my hair with a clean towel while I stared below where the lit garden lays and our sleeping neighborhood.

Iniisip ko may itatahimik pa pala ang buhay ko. I though