When she is almost by the bed she pauses and I swallow. What is she going to do to me...
"Braze...my son. I've done a lot of bad things for a reason..or I make it seem like a reason."
What is she talking about? She closes her eyes for a couple of seconds and when she opens them I see the sadness and...regret? I've never seen her like this before. But I know that look. That's the look I have every time I see myself in the mirror. That look tells so much yet so little representing feelings that are buried, deeply hidden inside a box that's tucked away far in an unknown place. It's the look that says Don't help me because I don't want it even though I secretly do but if that happens the outcome is not gonna be good.
"Mum?" I shift uncomfortably and she takes a step forward.
She slowly puts her now trembling hand on the sleeves of her sweater pulling them up. I observe her totally confused until I gasp claspin
"Buttercup. Flower. Rose Sweetie. Angel. Love.." I hear someone whisper and gently nudge my shoulder. I start to slowly wake up and realise that my head is against something hard and something that's moving. Something that's breathing. I slowly glance upwards and see Brandon smile down at me and I realise I fell asleep on him."Thought you would never wake up you've been sleeping for a long time darling." He whispers and kisses my cheek slowly."Morning Brandon." I whisper back a little embarrassed. "Um how long?""Lets just say it was Sunday afternoon when you fell asleep and now it's Monday morning beautiful."I blush a bit at that and can't help but snuggle into the blankets a little and he chuckles pressing a kiss on my forehead before stroking my hair."So how was the movies my beautiful eyed angel? You fell asleep during the fourth."I blush a little at the nickname
"Panda. I think Jia killed the receptionist."I stare at him before I burst."PffffffffttttHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA" I double over laughing so much that it starts to hurt, tears welling up in eyes."WTF ASH?! HAHAHA WHERE DID THAT COME FROM? FUCKING RANDOM?! HAHAHAHA" I laugh and Ash looks offended."See I told you that you wouldn't believe me! I'm serious Braze stop freaking laughing!" He pouts and eventually I stop trying to breath. Now and then a small laugh escapes and Ash pouts even more."Ash listen. Trust me I appreciate everything you're doing for me and I think it's a miracle you still want me to be your friend. I'm really happy that you're trying so hard to help me, you have no idea but..we're not in some sort of adventure,crime, action, mystery what-not movie or serie. Things like this doesn't happen in real life, she commi
Brandon carries me through the hallway and normally I would have died in embarrassment at all the people that's staring at me but I'm too busy trying to calm my mind from all the questions and emotions that are increasing very time Brandon takes a step, getting closer to Sammy. What will her reaction be? We were literally driving the car. If I put myself in her position...did she even see us jump out of the car? What if she thinks we run her over? Omg what if she is blaming us? It was my fault but Ash doesn't deserve this! Why do I always drag Ash into everything? But he's so damn stubborn!"Braze darling?" I notice we've stopped outside of a room which I presume is Sammy. I look at Brandon in question. I'm dreading the moment I will see her but at the same time I'm desperate to make sure that she is okay."Braze I won't step foot into that room until I know that you're okay." He says determined and I swallow looking at the ope
"Mum. This is family and it needs to be discussed like a family. I think you should tell Alex and Jace." I plead."Absolutely not. Maybe it was a mistake to tell you.."Mum says. I don't know where this sudden annoyance come from but I just feel like we're all going in the same circle I didn't wanna tell you because it would have consequences. I didn't wanna tell you because I didn't wanna lose you. I didn't wanna make things worse.All of us. Jace, Alex, mum and me. We landed ourselves in the situation we are in because we failed to act appropriately. We chose to stay quiet and ignore. If Alex and Jace would've defended me against dad and mum would I still be close to them? If mum didn't listen to dad and instead did whatever she wanted and if she divorced him a long time ago would she still be hurt? And if I said something that night instead of staring out into space like an idiot, would there have been a
"Pssstttt... Bree!! Phhhh!!! Pharm! YOU MORON!!" My eyes spring open and I jolt in my bed startled and see Braze grinning over me."Hahhh finally that's more like it. Sorry I got bored." Ash says grinning and I look at him completely shocked and incredulous. "What? Did I scare you that badly baby boy?"I shake my head slowly."First of all don't ever do that again and second of all...I just didn't..you know...""What?""I just didn't expect for me to..still be referring to you in the present tense..." I continue still incredulous.Ash grins and chuckles"Yeah you all thought I would've been dead by now and yes Alexander was really fucking pissed. What was worse is that I couldn't prove it was you I was talking to because the number was unknown!""I'm so sorry Ash..what happened? Did you guys fight?" I ask. I knew that I would somehow screw
All I can feel is Brandon. Him pressing his hot lips against my jawline. Him caressing my chin and my hair. His body gently pressing against mine but not too much because of my ribs. How can a person be everywhere but at the same time not?We lie there making out on the hospital bed for I don't know how long and frankly, I don't care. All I can feel is Brandon placing hot kisses on my cheeks, my nose, teasing me by kissing the corner of my mouth."Brandon.." I surprise even myself that my voice turns all needy and I blush even more than I already am. I can feel him smile against my cheek before he captures my lips with his own. We lie there panting, kissing each other desperately and I curl my hands into his now destroyed hair. I used to think kissing would be the hardest thing ever but actually the hardest thing right now is to try to calm down my teenage body. He nibbles my lower lip and his tongue teases me even
Hodge paces the classroom before he pauses and looks at each and one of us. Apparently the school decided to make him both our history and biology teacher now because some people in this class are not doing very well in those two subjects and they saw how well we're doing in Hodge's classes so they messed up all our schedules.And well...Hodge and history..fuck."The Wave." He finally says. "Anyone heard of it? Well, it's gonna be a movie that you'll never forget. I'm surprised they haven't showed you this in middle school. My dear students, you're about to learn how Hitler became...Hitler."What the actual fuck? I glance at Ash that's now sitting beside me until Sammy comes back. It's been almost a month and she'll get discharged soon enough. Everything has been fine in the meantime, no sign of Aldertree and Mel, and the seniors are on a class trip to London so no ancounter with either Alex or Jia.
"We've been here for an hour Ash what the hell are you doing? We should get out. Now. We haven't found anything!" I plead anxiously. I keep on glancing at the door, my nerves on edge.Ash is currently sitting in front of some computers checking surveillance or something and by the looks of it he hasn't found anything."I'm not leaving until I can prove that I'm right Braze" he says, still concentrated on the several screens in front of him.I sigh frustrated. "Ash enough. You're gonna get us in trouble and your theory is absurd. Thank you, I mean it, but we can't go blaming everything on Jia as soon as something bad happens because we want to bring her down."Ash gives out a frustrated sound and start to scratch his hair. " i don't get it! Why can't I find anything?!"I sigh. " What are you even looking for?""Since the clip where the actual murder