M I K H A I LThe moment my teeth sank into Yana’s neck, I knew I messed up. Or something messed up. Because I don’t have the slightest clue why I did that and why it came to me to just do it.Yana gasps, but for some reason she doesn’t react negatively. As we both ride down our highs, she just starts to relax under me, holding up a hand to touch my face before eventually going limp.At first, I thought I might have done something bad to her. I check her neck for blood or for any bad marks, but there’s nothing there. Just smooth skin.She relaxes, and with that, she starts to breathe deeply and evenly. I realize then that she has fallen asleep.I roll over beside her, cradling her in my arms. I hate that the sweet moment between us is now tainted by whatever the hell I just did, and I hate that I have to worry about that instead of just basking in the moment and enjoying what just happened.I look at Yana’s face, and it’s so peaceful. It’s almost like she didn’t notice, or like it nev
M I K H A I L"What does that mean?" I ask, my gaze traveling from Uncle Amos to Evan, who both look like they want nothing to do with anything I'm going through. "What do I do?""It means that she will be your slave forever," Uncle Amos says after a beat. "It means that she is under your control, and she will bow to every single thing you do. Whether you like it or not."I know that he's not lying. I know that something like this has been done before, and that's why he knows and is telling me now.But the denial I feel in my veins is impossibly strong. Not only do I not believe it, I don't want to believe it. I simply refuse to recognize that I messed up Yana's life just by biting her in the neck.I hate it.I hate myself for it.I don't even want to begin to think of what I did, the extent of damage that I did."But it can't be that bad," I whisper. "Surely it can't be like that. Surely there has to be a way."Uncle Amos just looks at me sadly. "We will try, but we will have to see.
Y A N AI wake up with a jolt, and my heart beats inside my chest loudly, making me clutch it as though I’m holding on for dear life. I sit up, and when I look around I notice that I’m all alone, with the apartment dark and empty.Fear strikes my heart. Memories from the dream are still playing in my head.What the hell was that?I mean, I’m not dumb. I know that the whole thing was just a figment of my tired brain. Like . . . people that are monsters? People that eat other people? Sure, that might be a thing before or perhaps other people are still practicing it, but does that include Mikhail? I think not. It’s absurd and it’s dumb as hell.But why does it seem so real?Why can’t I let go of the feeling that it’s actually connected to all the things I’ve seen before?I shake my head, rubbing my eyes and forcing myself to snap out of it. That’s when I see the note at the nightstand saying that Lily is out for the night, and Jason is already sleeping.I can’t believe I slept for so lon
M I K H A I LMy blood freezes. "No. Don't do that."But all the dread and the warning in the world can't stop Kingsley from feeling the urge that I know too well: doing harm.Normally, it passes when I remind him that it's never a good thing to do, that it's something that would only get us in trouble and not lead to anything good. He would understand immediately and know that even though we have the most power, we are also the most vulnerable.Lycans have been dwindling for centuries. Our population just . . . refuses to grow the way it used to, the way it should. It's almost like the world itself wants us to be gone, which I know is something that scares us a lot.But finishing off Humans to get the upper hand is not what we're here for."Back off, Kingsley," I warn him as I feel his aggression starting to rise. “Do not do this.”“Why not?” he just asks, his voice almost crooning, almost like he wants to tease and taunt me. “Why not do the very thing that we are born to do?”With t
M I K H A I L My heart jumps in my chest. Immediately, the first thought that enters my mind is that one night where I met trouble the same way as now. I keep thinking to myself that at least this time, I will be prepared. I ready myself, prepared to attack in case the shadow comes any closer, but then the door behind me opens. I glance behind me, seeing Yana exiting into the balcony. “You shouldn’t be here,” I blurt out, causing her to look hurt, but when I look back at the space by the beach where the figure was standing, it was no longer there. I face Yana again. “I’m sorry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. . . .” “That’s alright,” she says in a fairly light tone, but I know that she’s hurt by what I said.”I just want to know if everything is okay.” “Yeah,” I say, then I shake my head. “Not really, no.” I expect her to tell me she will be leaving then and I would not blame her at all if she decides to do so, but to my surprise, she just winds up behind me and hugs me from t
Y A N A The next few days are wonderful, which are not expected at all. After the incident in Mikhail’s house, we became closer than ever. Every day for the past week, he dropped by the apartment to bring flowers and food for me and my friends, as well as the workers who are still trying to fix all the damages done to the apartment. But yesterday, it was time to go. “I really wish it didn’t have to be this way,” Deborah told me as she watched us load all of our stuff into the truck. “Is there no chance of you staying?” As she said that, she was also wiping some very fake, very dry tears from her heavily done eyes. I wanted to roll my eyes but I stopped myself. We all knew that the only reason she didn’t want me to leave was because she got some pretty fat checks from Mikhail, who was also there while we were preparing to move. Instead of walloping Deborah like I so badly wanted to, I just smiled at her and patted her back. “I don’t think there is a chance for that, but we might b
Y A N ANeedless to say, I forgot everything when Dad called my name. The sly, evil part of me wants to pretend like nothing happened and move on, but the more humanized part of me wants to wait and see.And when I notice the hopeful expression on Dad’s face, I immediately feel my humanized side winning by a landslide.A strong urge to hug him overtakes my body, but then I remember how Margot’s birthday went and the things he said to me. I especially can recall in great detail how he basically ignored everything I had to say and still ended up comparing me to Gwen despite me telling him that I didn’t like it, word by word.I can feel my face turning sour, and that makes Dad stop in his tracks, his face contorted with caution and confusion.I hate seeing the confusion on his face. It’s almost like he still doesn’t know what the hell he did wrong and that bothers me.Like, come on. I told him as clearly as I could that I hated it when he always compares me to Gwen. For the first time in
M I K H A I LThe first thing that strikes me is disbelief and denial. In my head, I was already discounting everything that happened here. I think to myself that hey, perhaps I’m just being weird and stupid about it, because the whole thing is strange already. I mean, the thing I’m experiencing at the moment is probably just paranoia.I look at Evan and he’s also sniffing the air, frowning with a thoughtful expression. Seeing this on his face makes my heart jump. Is he going to look up at me and tell me that he can indeed smell Yana and confirm my worst fears? Or is he just smelling something else that he’s still trying tp figure out.The denial in me is working too damn hard. As I stop in my tracks and look around, I keep thinking to myself that he won’t say anything. In fact, I’m silently begging him not to say anything.But of course my illusion shatters when our eyes meet and he just says, “Can you smell that?”I only nod, waiting for him to supply the rest of the information and