“You cannot tell your mind what to feel and not to feel when you are jealous. It is like a poison that will slowly kill you.”
~AnonymousI pull at the tissue and wipe my flowing tears, trying to somehow save my make-up, at least what's left of it.
I hear a soft knock in the door and I jump a little but remain silent. "Alex, I know you're in there, please open up."
I place my back against the bathroom door as though trying to hold him off, "Go away to your friend whom you were casually laughing with instead of your fiancée on your engagement party night."
"You're jealous" he points out and if I didn't know better I'd say he's amused at that.
"Fuck Rogue Von Quaint." I shoot back acidly.
There's silence on his end and I hear a low growl before he speaks up, "I've been waiting for you to do that for w
"The saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last."~Nicholas Sparks.Rogue and I make our way out of the bathroom together, his hand possessively holding onto the small of my waist as we walked back to the crowd of a waiting guest and pass them silently he guide me up the stairs. Once we are there, he lets go of my waist and takes a glass of wine and a knife from an awaiting waiter and hit the glass lightly but loud enough to get the attention of the rest guest in the hall. As he gets their attention he dropped the knife, the waiter walks away and takes hold of my waist before speaking."Good evening ladies and gentlemen friends and family I would like to welc
"I cannot imagine a life in your absence. You are like the breath of air that I need to live, the drop of water in a thirsty desert. I need you like a bird needs the skies to go higher."~Constantine JakeWe bid farewell to the guest and smiling widely as we shake hands with them."You haven't introduced us to your fiancé," Felix Zain says as he and Agatha walk hand in hand over to Rogue and me, he holds a disapproving look. "You hurt Agatha with what you did."My face drops in remorse, "My bad, I'm so sorry Felix, tonight has been a hectic night and earlier when we met, Rogue wasn't with me." I turn to Rogue, "Rogue meet Agatha and Felix Zain, and Mr and Mrs Zain, please meet my fiancé Rogue Von Quaint."Rogue stretches his hand out and shakes both Felix and Agatha, "It's so nice to meet both you and thank you for c
A Master is not someone who merely revels in the benefits that he reaps from the power and control that he wields over his sub. A Master is not just an automaton who emotionally doles out orders and watches with amusement as his minions perform his bidding.A Master is not a person who only relishes the benefits that his superior status entitles him.Certainly, all of these characteristics could and often do exist within a Master. He may be demanding and at times selfish. He may genuinely enjoy and even be aroused by the power that he has over a sub. He may be able to expertly control his emotions, issuing his commands and enforcing his discipline with stone-faced determination.But a true Master, a Master such as Matt, was so invested in his sub that he was actually in a way a slave himself. He was a slave to his love for me. He was a sl
"You may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment unless you trust enough."Frank Crane~My world, for now, is in total darkness. He then worked a crotch harness around my waist and used the harness to position the toy against my clit so that it gently rub against my entrance.He slowly begins to move the dildo up and down my clit, earning moans after moans from me.My hips buckle up as the feeling begins to settle in and increase and I begin to arch my core, trying to rub off more against the toy and although I can't see, I can feel Rogue's eyes on me, probably enjoying the show I'm putting on."You're so wet." He mutters, in a thick dark voice.My cheeks heat up in embarrassment and I stop moving my hips, regretting my actions of stopping, but feeling ashamed of how my needs have betrayed me to his eyes. I su
"I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together."~Lisa KleypasThis is the fourth wedding gown store I've been to in the last three hours and I am yet to see the gown that I want to wear on that day. Most of the gowns are either over the top or underwhelming. It was a day I didn't think I'll do another so I want it perfect. Havana is accompanying me and the wedding planner Nathan, partly because she wanted to be a supportive friend and maid of honour or because she wanted also know how to get a good wedding gown because the beautiful diamond ring on her finger
There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We’d be talking and everything would just fit right and I would think ‘it will be okay if it can just be like this forever’ but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.~Heart brokenIt's 10:42 p.m. here and we just wrapped up tomorrow's program schedule and now it's time to rest and recover from all the stress of the day because Nathan told me we would be waking as early as 5:30 a.m. and I needed as much rest as possible because of the long day ahead of me. He is right while many fo those in the wedding arrangement and organisations will get rest tomorrow, I won't so I'll need to get as much rest as I can.Take a quick shower before returning to bed to tuck myself in. I turn on my phone and I within few seconds of doing that Rogue starts calling.Can you be any mo
"We cultivate love when we allow our most vulnerable and powerful selves to be deeply seen and known, and when we honor the spiritual connection that grows from that offering with trust, respect, kindness and affection."~Brené brown.Flashback~I was about to sleep when I heard someone open my door and step in. I was immediately alarmed and I ran up from the bed terrified and turned on the lights and I saw Alvin in my room in nothing but his boxers. I had no idea what he was trying to archive, knowing his father's room wasn't so far away, but I knew it wasn't going to be good.He walked towards me, "Alexander, you're so beautiful. You know that right?" He says his voice raw and lustful.I stumbled backwards as he approached
Love is not something we give or get; it is something that we nurture and grow, a connection that can only be cultivated between two people when it exists within each one of them - we can only love others as much as we love ourselves.Brené Brown"Who told you that?" I ask, even though my brain has done the calculation and narrowing down, my heart refuses to accept and believe that.His eyes narrow at me, "I think both of us knows who it is that told me."I shake my head, trying to look as untouched as I can look, "I don't believe you."He gives a burst of wicked laughter, "Why not? 'Cause your fiance is so trustworthy? Do you even know who you're getting married to? The man you're carrying his child?"A part of me wants to listen to him and the other part knows that the truth he knows is going to break and crush me and if be