Sixty - four

I paced around the room, biting my thumb in frustration. Alex had been gone for an hour, I didn’t know about his whereabouts, and he was acting strange as well before he left.

“Where could he be?” I muttered to myself, feeling frustrated by the minute. It wasn’t like I could go look for him too, it was way too dangerous, and I’m not even sure if he’s safe right now.

Did I do something to piss him off? Was I perhaps being too clingy? I felt confused and hurt. Was I too desperate and starved for attention? Maybe I pushed him away with my clinginess. That had to be it, otherwise, there was no reason for him to leave like that.

All my insecurities began weighing down on me once again. Being with Lucian has made me disconnect from relationships emotionally, so I won’t be surprised if my inept behavior scared him away.

I glanced at the messy bed of ours, covered with clothes strewn around the covers and the floor. Maybe cleaning up will help take my min