Karina.I clenched my jaw, fixing my gaze on the window and nothing else. Even though I cradled Levi, an action that brought me happiness, the weight in my heart still hadn't waned. That was how it had been for the past week. I had spent most of my days avoiding Connor at every turn. Every opportunity I had to avoid him, I took with relish. From avoiding his gaze and outright passing by him like he was air, to hiding in his presence. I kept my for locked at every instance, whether I was inside or not. Everytime he dared try knocking on my door I kept silent. Every the tried to speak to me, I would glare at him until he was silent before making my getaway.He did say once that all I did was run. Wasn't he going to be happy to be proven right?I scoffed to myself at the thought. I was being too sarcastic and harsh and I knew it.I knew that I was also harsh that day and my instinctive drive to attack had gotten the best of me. My insults, no matter how true or not they were, hit him h
Karina.The sensation made me tense. Immediately steadying myself I looked down to find who had so suddenly bumped into me only to find a dash of blonde hair below.It wasn't a person, or a fully grown one at least. It was a child.“I'm sorry Ma'am.” She said, looking up to me with wide eyes before her hands flew to her face.I released my breath as relief washed over me. There wasn't any need to worry. The defensive feeling I was about to cool into soon dissipated.I suddenly felt a slight tug on my pants and looked down. I was so busy basking in relief that I had completely forgotten about the little girl's apology.“Miss? Are you hurt, miss?” She asked with wide almost translucent eyes. I could see the worry in them as though she truly thought colliding with me would hurt me more than her. A smile came unbidden onto my face and I couldn't help it. Crouching down I made sure to adjust Levi before I spoke.“I'm completely alright as I hope you are as well.” I said, passing her an a
59KarinaMy walk back home was silent as I processed his words.I had also insulted him, said hurtful words and was being inconsiderate to him.Yet he was being patient with me.I ground my teeth against each other, the familiar bittersweet feeling of guilt flowing in me along with something different.He was still Levi's father.I barely got out of my head to find the white door I was about to bump into. I arrived home earlier than I thought or maybe time simply flew by earlier.Entering the house I found the living room empty but heard noises and instantly knew where it was coming from. Placing Levi on one of the couches I moved towards the kitchens where just as I guessed, Connors mother was.“There's no need to help Dana.” She called out. Her back was towards me meaning that she hadn't seen me. “It's Karina.” I said. She instantly dropped what she was doing to face me. The surprise on her face instantly reverted to a gentle smile.“Hello there.” she greeted “Where’s my grandson?”
Karina.My mouth felt dry as I stared at him. Amidst the still darkness, it felt like we were locked in a standoff against each other.Why was he here? Was my first thought after seeing him. It took a few seconds for it to all click.He was coming to see me.I was completely frozen. No words could come out of my head, much less my lips. He looked at me with the same level of surprise. The silence grew between us.He was the first to break it by clearing his throat.“Hi.” he croaked out.A single word, yet it spurred me on to speak.“Hi,” I replied. Now, both our answers lay hanging in the air.The tension was awkward. Now that I was standing in front of him, I didn't know what to say. What did I start with?“What are you doing here?” he asked, making me blink. That was what I needed, an opening. An opportunity.“You weren't at dinner.” I sputtered out first to my own shock. My breath hitched the moment I said it, but my lips moved faster.“I came to check on you.” I finished, groaning
KarinaOnly the sound of our shared breaths filled the air alongside the slight chirping of insects. “I'm so sorry Connor .” He looked up but I shook my head to stop him before he could respond or misunderstand.“You've given your own apology, it's time for me to do the same.” I said.“I'm sorry about everything from days ago. I should have never said those words especially on things I knew nothing about. Im sorry for the way I've been treating you that I didn't understand everything you be been going through. I misunderstood your feelings. I'm sorry about what I asked you to do back then. I knew it was irrational immediately after I said it. I shouldn't even have said it.” “But most of all,” I sucked in a breath.“I'm sorry for the way I treated you weeks ago even if I thought it was for the best…back then.” I couldn't deny that u still held its notions now but I didn't want to say it.“I never acknowledged how much I hurt you. And keeping Levi away was even worse.”I had constant
KarinaA sense of contentment filled the air right after. We didn't bother staying and walked back to the house again in silence but this time the air felt lighter, just the slightest bit warmer.As we stepped inside the hallway I stopped in my tracks to turn to him.“Do you want to see Levi? Before you go I mean.” I offered. He looked taken aback by the offer but soon gave a sharp nod. With that I led him into my room, showing him the crib. He looked over it beside me. My nerves kicked in only a few seconds after. I just left him in my room like that? How mortifying.The other part of me outweighed the slight embarrassment I felt. It was a small price to pay for the olive branch that was extended today.“He really is a deep sleeper.” He finally murmured, making me look at him. My lights weren't on, meaning only the shadows and outside lights ghosted over his face. He was looking down like He was his whole world.Then his gaze shifted back to me and I swore I saw stars in his eyes.
KarinaI looked at the doming sight around me with my jaw dropped. It wasn't anything I hadn't seen before, nor could it be compared to the buildings in the cities, yet it looked so out of place among the other parts of the pack.“This is what I want to be a school area.” He said leading me inside.“I got the idea from the Red Eclipse pack to build something like this. It's more than halfway done but still needs some finishing touches.”“This is good progress for something that started Half a year ago.” I murmured sincerely. It was truly impressive work.Taking a step inside, I looked around the wide halls and unpainted walls while listening to him. Levi was relatively peaceful, barely squirming in my lap. He wasn't yet old enough to take in the sights.I let my feet wander further inside yet not too far from the entrance, completely mesmerized by the sight. It was one thing to hear about change and another to see it So far he had tried showing me around aside from one place;the pack
Connor. I took in a breath to prepare for what I had to say next. I was going to tell her everything about the past, everything that I had failed in.It had crossed my mind last night before I fell asleep. Despite all my speaking I had barely communicated and I didn't trust. The fear of her leaving after this was still there, but I wasn't going to let it stop me.“When I was younger, there were three of us, the future Alphas Beta and Gamma raised together. Me, Isabella and… Darius.”It took effort to say his name, I and my entire family, the pack as a whole, had done our best to erase him from our existence. Even his own mother. Mentioning him was like conjuring a spirit.At times the memories of the past and our childhood came up, but it was always embittered by everything that happened next, who he became mI could tell her confusion from the way her brows furrowed at the last name. It was easy to predict what question she was thinking about. She was expecting me to mention Ralph c