Sarah.
I was so tensed and doomed at this point I had looked for her everywhere I still could not find her anywhere. I had the letter with me, and I did not know how to react on this.
How can she.... That guy loved her so much. She too was so madly in Love with him then how could she just. Damn what the hell do I do. Should I inform all or should I just run away. I have never been in a situation like this what would I do what would anyone do what will happen if this is all out. I was going insane thinking of the reactions I could get.
Why? Why the hell did I get this letter, if it was anyone else, they could have handled this situation way better than me. Whom should I tell this about first?
These are the times when my brains officially stop working it be like, ‘nope not gonna happen, no thinking here’. Only and only if I could make all these thoughts running in head turn into a physical object, I could get these kinds of thought out of my head and hit them so hard that it would be lying on the floor bleeding. I looked at the floor and saw a paper lying there, I went ahead to pick that up and thought that Amber would have brought this whole place down if she knew this room wasn’t clean.
Amber, yes Amber I can talk to her she should be the first person to know about this, after all Olivia was her daughter. without further ado I quickly ran to talk to Amber before my mind would create other all useless things out of this very situation. As soon as I entered the stupid musician guy played the music that they were supposed to play on Olivia’s entry. How can they not make difference between the bride and bride’s maid? And the fact that the music was playing people would expect the bride walking right behind me. At this situation could not wave my hands in air and yell, ‘hello this isn’t the bride’.
Oh, good great God that sounded to mean how can I even think of all these things in the midst of the hassle. I’m such a disgusting person. No no no this was not about me now this is something major, and something that needs immediate attention. The musician however understood that the bride isn’t coming any time soon and he stopped the music bring me relief.
I quickly ran to Amber she was sitting in the front row. I glanced at Michael who was looking at me back. I quickly looked down as I could not face him, not with the thoughts as to what will happen later when he knew all this. That very thought got shivers in my body.
I went on to Amber and said, "she is not there", Amber looked at me and she was all confused I handed her the letter and once she read that, she immediately stood and looked at the crowd and slowly muttered, “so many people” she said while taking a deep breath she immediately walked out of the room, she walked as fast as she could, and I stood there looking at Michael and thinking how he would react on all this. I could not imagine his reaction and the only thing I did was, I started walking behind Amber.
On our way to Olivia's room we heard Michael calling out for Amber. He quickly walked pass me and spoke to Amber. He had no idea about what was going on. Amber did not want any hassle so she asked Michael to get inside so we could talk. Meanwhile Taylor was in the room with us, he entered when Michael was reading the letter written by Olivia. While he read that letter, he seemed all lifeless. After some time of silence, we had Mr. and Mrs. Smith who joined us, that was when they understood that Olivia was gone.
MichaelI had no idea what was going on. Once I entered the room is when I realized that Olivia was not there and before I could ask Amber any question, she looked at me and looked down and nodded her head in some agrdesigquestion I had in my head. Her actions made me realize that Olivia was not in hear. She was gone. She left me on our day of wedding.To make things worse my parents followed us inside to know what was going on with their look I could tell that they were already aware that Olivia was not here. My mother looked at me and I could not look her into the eye. I did not know how to react on all this. I thought this was going to be the best day of my life and this is turned into worst one. My parents were always against all this they never wanted me to marry Olivia for some reason. Seeing them in this room just made things worse. What will I answer them?Why did she do this, whatever it was we wou
SarahAt that very moment when he grabbed my hands and yelled, I did not know what to do I simply stood there looking at him and blinking like I was a zombie. I could feel that he was hurt too much, at least his actions showed that, not sure about his mental health though.But the question is why had he held me the way he did? Was he trying to express his pain, his sorrow and why would he not Olivia did not do the right thing she should have thought of something better, she should have spoken to him about all of this? But if she was not interested at the first place why did she even accept the marriage proposal in the first place. As much as I knew she loved this guy too at least that is what she told me last time we spoke.I was so drowned in my thoughts that I totally forgot that he still had held my hands and was looking at me like he was trying to get some answers from me. I gently pulled
MichaelAll this was too much for me to take in a day I have been having a roller coaster ride with all the feelings and the decisions that are being levied on me now are just way too much to be taking in. How can this be decided so early I have not yet got out of the fact that Olivia who was to marry me has left, without even my notice. She did not even spoke to me about all this. Why would she such a terrible thing to me. I never forced her for marriage I thought she too wanted this. And as for me, I wanted a life partner like her who would be least bothered about what I do and how I do.But what Is bothering me the most is why I’m I not feeling devastated I should be feeling sadder than what I feel. I should be leaving this place by now but why I’m I not able to why is this place not giving me the true emotions I should have. I was trying too hard to think what went wrong and the only thing I’m pulled back to is the thou
SarahThe moment Amber told that she wanted me to get married to Michael as a pay back for what they have done is when I realized that how odd it was to be an orphan. It was after a long time that I had this feeling of being alone. Would my parents do the same would they too ask for what Amber asked for.Yes, I did promise Amber that I'll do anything for her but not this, this was way too much to ask and I do not believe that I was trapped is such a situation where I don’t know to say yes or no.How can I marry a man who loved someone else? He was to marry my sister and now the tables turned in a way that I don’t have any route out of this damn trap. Why do I always end up being the last resort for all the damn situations. I should be the backup for Olivia every time. When she broke the master piece at Amber’s room she blamed me for that I was just 6 years old and had nothing to defend mys
Michael.All this seemed so quick that I could not get the time to even thing about it. I don’t know how to deal with this one, to make it worse Mom is getting more stubborn and that makes me feel more helpless. I always knew Mom was not happy with my decision, but this is not how she treats me.I was standing and looking at anything that could distract me from the situation is was in right now. I needed something to ground me from all the worries that had taken my life to a troll. I was looking at a distance from where I was, and I could see Sarah come out and walk to a desk and sat there looking at the skies like she was talking to the skies. After a while Mom accompanied her and I was about to walk towards them to make sure that Mom won’t convince Sarah into this marriage.The moment I started to walk towards them I saw Mom just sat next to her holding her hand and spoke nothing they looked a
Sarah.After sitting there with me for some time she stood and looked at me and spoke, “You don’t have to worry about anything everything will be taken care of.”With that statement she left with nothing to listen from my end and I was almost calmed from within and had nothing to question it seemed like all my questions were clearly answered. I had to get back to the Olivia’s room and I was not liking it but still I had no idea but to do so.Once I got in, I saw Amber there already sitting there and was waiting for me, “I was looking for you everywhere” she said, making me feel that why didn’t I run too, it would solve a lot of problems."You have to do this" Amber was telling this for the 100th time, yes not practically but it seemed like so to me. If we do not like listening to something and it is being repeated even once we feel like that has been told to
Michael."Mom please stop forcing me into something I cannot survive in" I said this thing to my mother like for I do not know how many times she is just not understanding any of this at all and was telling me how all of this was right."I'm sure that this girl is very much for you, I don't know what's the matter with you, you are doing all this because she left you mid-way, now who is suffering you or her" my mom yelled.' I don't think anyone is suffering here's My inner self stated. Wait what why?!!!! Why would I even think that way. I’m suffering I’m feeling bad. But, why do I feel calm within like all this was something that the inner me wanted to happen, the inner me? where did all this come from, I pushed that thought behind and walked towards mom."I need you the most now" I said while looking at her."I'm doing exactly that Mickey, I'm here for
Sarah.I can't believe that he agreed to marry, I was forced into this but what wrong could have happened with him. What made him accept the marriage. Was he also forced to pay back like me? Did his mother asked him to marry me to return the whole lot of favors done to him as well?Anyway who knows what made him accept this marriage but I know it I know It very well I had to pay them back and this is how they wanted me to do it, here I'm paying for the favors I had done. Hopefully they won’t ask me for anything more.My life was so different before I got dressed up for this marriage today.Back at Australia I was happily enjoying my life and the studies. I was so much into studies and I had no idea about the out wide world apart from my books and my library. Getting myself into a wedding will end all that I had before I could ask them to continue the studies at least I hope no one