My mind felt as if it was being torn down the middle. Or was it my soul?
There were two Caras, two hearts, two sets of feelings, two intentions. Body versus mind.
When Rig flipped me onto my back, the animal came forward—aggressive, feral, afraid, fighting for life. But my soul knew him.
Rig wouldn’t hurt me.
My heart wanted him—wanted to pull him close and keep him closer.
One moment my eyes saw my husband, the male I wanted to embrace, to taste, to hold me. The next he was a dog. Danger. I wanted to fight.
I felt like I was going insane.
I couldn&
~ CARA ~I clutched him to my breast, choking his name. “Rig… Rig.”“I’m here, babe. Just breathe.” But he never stopped kissing me, never stopped stroking, drawing, those tingling pleasures out of my skin.And with every twitch and instinct, I held him—held him in my arms and in my mind.My mate. Mine. Husband. Lover. Forever.As desire grew urgent and my body began to ripple, he soothed me with kisses, touched anything I pressed closer, whispered reassurance until I was trembling with the drive for him.He raised his head once from his
~ RIG ~It was the small hours of the morning, the darkest moments before dawn began to creep up around the mountains.We’d eaten, talked, I’d held her when she got scared, and laughed with her about the funny side of her naked, midnight jaunt. But she was exhausted.So now, as the fire died in the hearth, I lay there in bed on my back with Cara curled into my side, deeply asleep, but still clinging to my chest like a lifeline. Her breathing was deep and slow, her hair loose and flowing over my arm as I held her close, thoughtlessly trailing fingers up and down the curve of her spine.She was herself again—and relieved. She’d described exactly what I’d sensed, an animal within trying to come forward, fighting to take control. Instincts acting
~ MACK (two days earlier) ~“Do you guys want the River house, or the Tree house?” Rig asked, looking back and forth between me in the rearview mirror and Natalie in the passenger seat.“The River,” I said, because it was closest. Three hours in this car saturated in Natalie’s scent as well as the two lovebirds yearning for each other was a torment I could have done without. Plus, the thought of the next few days alone with Natalie… I swung between ecstatic and despairing.Where I would ultimately land was, in the end, entirely up to her—she who sat so stiffly in that front seat you would have thought there was a rod stuck up her ass.She wasn’t the only one. I needed to get out of this fucking car.
~ NATALIE ~I am such a bitch.The minute I slammed that door in his face I knew what I’d done. This close, I could feel the way it shocked and hurt him.I stopped just inside the room, barely breathing, and turned back to face the closed door. My heart was pounding.I hated myself. Every time he was gone I ached to have him close again. Every time he was close I wanted to run screaming. It was too hard. Too much. When I’d realized we were coming here and going to be alone together, a part of me had welled up, singing with joy. But the rest of me sank into cold, abject fear.Was he scared too? Or just mad?
~ MACK ~I wouldn’t make it easy for her. If she was going cold on me, if she rejected the bond outright, I was going to make her tell me. Face to face.Once I was resolved I went downstairs to the kitchen. I would cook. Natalie hated to cook, and she’d be famished—I was. We hadn’t eaten since breakfast and it had been a helluva day.An image of Rig’s face when Cara appeared from the house, the sheer joy—like he’d just found the sun—rocked through me. I wanted that moment. I wanted that day. And I wanted it with Natalie.Fuck.My hand trembled as I pulled out pans and started searching through the pantry and freezer to pull something together.
~ NATALIE ~“You… you ignorant fucking—”“Get it all out, Natalie,” he said dryly, completely unaffected by my rage.I wanted to slap his face. Instead I dropped my hand that reminded me of my mother when she’d been about to spank me as a child and I just held his eyes, glaring.“You really think that’s what this is about? You think I’ve been avoiding you because you’ll be Beta?”“If the fang fits—”I almost hit him. Almost shoved him backwards into that island I was so furious.“I am the
~ MACK ~Natalie gaped at me, stunned.The fact that she hadn’t immediately snapped me down gave me courage and I stepped closer to her, staring into her eyes, pleading with her to see me. To really see me.I took her hand from where it rested at her side and she turned her head to look down at where I touched her, following the trajectory of our clasped hands as I brought her sweet fingers up to my chest and pressed it there, right at the center. Her eyes got wider, then snapped up to meet mine again.“Feel that?” I murmured, embarrassed by how my heart pounded. How my hands were trembling. But that was the truth of the effect she had on me. “For three years it’s been beating for you, Natalie. My heart speeds up every time you walk in the ro
If you like music while you read, try “Never Let Her Go (Reinvented)” by Project Vela. It speaks Mack’s heart very clearly in this chapter!*****~ MACK ~I slept in the next morning because it had been the small hours of the morning before I’d been able to sleep. I’d spent the whole night wracked with guilt and self-loathing, anger and injustice and… just weary. The wrong kind of weary. Bone-weary and with nowhere left to fight.She was right. I hated it, but she was right. I’d been not-even-eighteen years old and somehow in my mind I’d decided that finding other females, getting them to smile, getting them to give their bodies to me would make me feel better.Three years later and I couldn