CAPÍTULO 04 - CAMILLY

Camilly

After all, I ended up falling asleep and I didn't hear the door open, it was only when I heard my father's voice that I woke up.

- Get out Nina! he said authoritatively.

— Camilly , I want you to listen to me because I'm only going to speak once, he almost made me lose everything that night with his rudeness, I'm glad he didn't give up on the contract, because if he had done that, I don't know what I would have been capable of to do with you, if I'm doing this, it's because I didn't find an alternative, and when he made me the offer, I didn't think of turning it down. You would one day have to get married and nothing better than doing that with a man who will be able to give you everything I've always given him or thought he would marry anyone, my name won't go in the mud. I just thought about keeping our life as it always was, but you never saw that, did you? He never appreciated anything we gave him.

— You sold me like cheap merchandise to a man I've never seen, they didn't think that I have plans for my life, that I don't want to live under the same roof as you, I want to be a doctor, I want to have the power to choose mine future husband without you meddling in my life.

— You already have a future and there's no way to change it, I won't lose everything because of you, now come to terms with that. You should be thanking me and not criticizing me like you're doing, I thought of the best for you.

— Father is sacrificing me for something that is not my fault, you were the one who made the mistake and I am the one who is being paid, he hit me and you did nothing, imagine how my marriage to that man will be. If I didn't want to have a daughter, why did n't they abort me when they found out she was pregnant? made.

— I'm sorry, no, I had no choice, it was either you or total bankruptcy and a lot of people out of work.

— Don't feel father, because in eighteen years, I never had a father and it won't be now that I will have one. Even if the worst had happened in front of you, I would still continue with this contract, how can I call a person like you a father, when a real father would never do that to his only daughter - I feel disgusted. — I hope that after my marriage, I never see them again.

- Do not worry. Your future husband doesn't want us to have contact, after the wedding we're going to move to another city, I don't want to stay in this place anymore, your mother is right, you never appreciated anything, maybe now learn that.

— Please, get out of my room, I want to be alone, if I've never valued anything, how can you say that, if I can't leave this house for anything, I don't live like other people. I leave home for school and school for home, how can I appreciate it if they never let me show how grateful I was for what they gave me?

He gets up and walks to the door, as soon as he holds the doorknob, he turns and looks at me, takes a deep breath and leaves. The tears are falling again now with more intensity. Knowing that I'm being sold hurts me deeply, I cried so much that I ended up falling asleep again.

The next day, I get up still staggering, I take off my clothes along the way, when I get to the bathroom, I'm only wearing underwear, when I pass by the mirror, I see the mark on my face.

“What will I do now?”

— Camille !

I hear Nina's voice calling me from my room.

“I'm in the bathroom, Nina.

"I brought your coffee."

— I'm not hungry, I won't be able to eat anything — I speak loudly so that she can hear me.

"You need to eat, you can't be like this because of them."

"And how am I going to look?" They put an end to my dream, I doubt that this man will let me study, Nina was so short for my life to change — I say in the bedroom.

- I know daughter and I'm sorry for that - her look is compassionate.

As soon as I sit down to drink my coffee, the door opens, as soon as I saw who it was, I didn't think, I just spoke.

- Why are you here?

"Is that how you talk to your mother?" Nina leave me alone with my daughter.

"Now I have a mother?" Where was she all these years, why did I never see her as a mother.

"I doubt you treat that black woman the way you treat me."

— That black woman is more my mother than you, she gave me what you and my father never gave me, so tell me, how many times did you come in here to find out how I was doing? She just looks at me and doesn't say anything. "As far as I can remember, this is the second time in my entire existence that you're claiming to be my mother?" This must be a joke, right?

— I'm a very busy woman, I don't have time to stay at home and take care of a spoiled child.

"Then what are you doing here?"

— We have to go to the store to choose the wedding dress, you don't have to worry about anything, other than that, the rest I've already taken care of.

— Of course you've already decided, you'd be surprised if you hadn't, I don't want to choose any dress, since you're going to do everything, you can choose that too.

— This is not a choice, you will come, even if I have to drag you from this room, I'm still your mother and as long as you're inside this house, I command you.

— I think this marriage will do me good, just to get out of this house and never have to look at it again, I hadn't weighed it yet, but now I'm definitely going to get married.

— If I were you, I'd change that temper of yours, for the slap he gave you yesterday, things aren't going to go your way, so a word of advice, if you don't want to be beaten, be good and make your husband happy, don't forget that it's all up to you.

— He can't be worse than you, and if he is, I'm used to it, after all, I have the marks on my body as proof, they will only get bigger.

"Shut up!" I only did what you deserved, do you really think I would raise a lost daughter and make fun of my friends? Never.

- Congratulations! You did a great role, what are you going to say to your friends when the wedding comes around? Will they know you sold me?

— That never!!! Nobody will ever know that we almost got poor.

— I'm disgusted with you, I hope one day you pay for everything you've done to me.

- Never! - his look is angry. — Let's go far away from you and forget that one day I gave birth to it — she points her finger in my direction, at that time my chest hurt deeply.

Hearing my mother say that she would forget about me hurt a lot, but, I already knew this, this woman should never have been a mother. What I wanted most was to disappear into the world and let them screw themselves to pay this debt that wasn't mine, I just didn't know how I could do that, since I never had a penny.

After she left, I left the coffee aside, I really didn't feel like it, I finished getting ready and I went down, she was waiting for me, we left and as soon as we got in the car she said:

— If we meet a friend of mine, I don't want her to open her mouth, let me talk, I know very well what I have to say and I don't want the others to find out about our situation.

— Don't worry, I won't, what can I say, that my parents love me very much and that's why they sold me?

She turned to me, her look was pure hate and without me expecting it, she slapped me so hard that the driver even got scared.

— I never want to hear you say that again, especially in front of others, with each passing day, I regret more for having brought you into the world.

I didn't say anything, I just turned to the other side, I saw how everyone on the street was better than me, they certainly didn't have a life like mine, even if it was simple, it was better. What's the use of having money if I've always lived hell next to them? Who didn't think twice to sell me to the highest bidder.

When the car stopped in front of a store that looked very chic, we got out, she went ahead, abandoning me, I see the driver looking at me, he comes close to me, hands me a tissue.

“Wipe your face girl, don't let others see what you've been through, she doesn't deserve this.

- Thanks!

“You're welcome,” he says.

I put the handkerchief in my pocket and walk down the sidewalk, I go into the store and see her talking to a woman who, as soon as she sees me, measures me all over.

— Come on, she'll bring the newest models that arrived this morning — she says, sitting down in an armchair.

I go to where he is and sit next to him, it doesn't take long for the saleswoman to arrive with three models of dresses.

"Come on young lady, let's try these on." With your body, they will definitely look perfect.

I followed her to the dressing room, the first one I put on was a strapless one, well rounded, made all in lace, I didn't like it and neither did my mother, I went back to get the other one. I liked the last one I tried on, it was perfect on my body, it was beautiful and discreet.

— This dress is too simple, choose another one.

— I'll use this one, I didn't like any others, if not this one, I won't try any more, you decide.

— Let it be this one, I'm glad I'm responsible for organizing the party, because with your taste, I don't even want to imagine how it would be.

"It certainly wouldn't please her."