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It’s been a few months since Blue and I broke up. Paunti-unti nababawasan ang sakit na naidulot niya sa akin hanggang sa isang araw ay bigla nawala ang bigat na nararamdaman ko.
It’s not easy to forget how I feel for Blue because I thought he was the first and last man I would be with for the rest of my life. But, what they are saying is that destiny is really playful.
Basta ngayon ay maayos na ako at nakalimutan ko na ang nararamdaman ko para kay Blue. Hindi madali ang naging proseso ng pagkalimot ng nararamdaman ko para kay Blue. Kailan ba naging ma
NOTE : THIS WHOLE CHAPTER IS FLASHBACK. ************************* “PERRINE!” Dinig ko sigaw ni Shiela habang nag-aayos ako ng mga gamit ko rito sa tulugan namin.Pag-pasok na pasok ni Shiela ay agad niya akong linapitan.“Totoo ba? Totoo ba, Perrine?!”“Which one?”“Nag-resign ka?!”Tumigil ako sa pag-aayos ng mga gamit ko at tumingin kay Sheila. “Oo, tot
NOTE :THIS WHOLE CHAPTER IS FLASHBACK *********************Pag-pasok namin sa loob ng botoquie naabutan namin ni Mommy Maricel si Reed na palakad-lakad habang nakatingin sa lapag.“Son.” Tawag sa kanya ni Mommy Maricel.Agad na tumingin si Reed sa amin ni Mommy Maricel at lumapit sa amin.“Huwag kang mag-alala, tuloy ang kasal ninyo ni Perrine.” Sabi ni Mommy Maricel tapos ay iniwanan kaming dalawa.I watched the reaction on Reed's face. Are you really worried that our marriage will not continue? Do you really want our marriage to continue? I want to ask him that.When Reed looked at me I didn't take my eyes off him. I stared at his face. I don’t know if he is happy, angry, or dis
NOTE : THIS WHOLE CHAPTER IS FLASHBACK. ********************* THIS IS THE BIG DAY.Today is Reed and I's wedding day. I felt a mixture of excitement and pleasure, especially since the last time Reed and I met went well. Last week when we were fitting my wedding gown and his tuxedo, even if he didn't pay attention to me again it was okay enough of that somehow I knew he could see me.Now, I am here in the dressing room waiting for Reed and I to get married. It's just sad because it wasn't in the church where I first saw him we would get married, because someone had previously scheduled there. But, that's okay, the important thing is that I will ma
NOTE : THIS WHOLE CHAPTER IS FLASHBACK. ******************************* “Hey, Reed. What are you doing here? Wait. Do you still remember me?” Tanong muli ni Gaira kay Reed.A few minutes passed again but Reed still didn't answer Gaira's question. Why he couldn't answer, and he just stared at Gaira. How did the two get to know each other?“Gaira, he's my groom.” I said weakly. It's as if something has stuck in my throat and it's hard for me to say that now.Nag-ipon pa ako ng lakas ng loob para tingnan si Gaira, at pag-tingin ko sa kanya ay hindi niya naitago ang pagka-gulat sa sinabi ko.Bakit nagulat si Gaira? Magkaki
Natuloy ang kasal namin dalawa ni Reed. Wala naging problema ng mga araw na iyon. It was like a wedding dream to me. When Reed and I got married, it was as if we weren't fighting that time. Most of all, it seemed like at that time he loved me very much too. The way he looked at me at those times was, it was as if he could only see me. That time, it seemed like Reed was so happy that he married me. Even though I knew Reed wasn't really happy when we got married, I still couldn't get out of my mind what he looked like then and, every time I think about that I can't help but to smile. Even if Reed's expression at those times was just fake or just pretending, that's okay with me because, somehow I saw how he looked just in case he loved me too. Ngayon ay nasa beach resort kaming dalawa ni Reed para sa honeymoon namin. Dito pinili ni Reed na mag-honeymoon kaming dalawa. Siguro ay mas pinili niya hindi kami mag-honeymoon sa ibang bansa dahil ayaw niya mag-ak
I wiped my flowing tears from my eyes as I stared now at the ocean. One week ago Reed and I talked here in front of the ocean about where the two of us first met. I don’t know what I said wrong that night. When I told him that here at the beach resort I answered Blue, I immediately told him that I didn’t have that anymore and I forgot that night and about my ex-boyfriend and me, because he is the one I love. But, he still left me suddenly here at the beach resort. Since that night we haven’t talked to Reed, not even on the phone or even just texting. To this day I am still waiting for Reed here at the beach resort. I hope he gets me back here. Even without an explanation, if he comes back here, I will be happy. “Perrine?” I don’t know that voice, but I know I’ve heard that voice. “Hon.” Tinignan ko ang pinanggalingan ng boses na iyon. Tama ako, narinig ko na ang boses na iyon. “Don’t call me that, Blue. Our relation
I smiled when Reed left wearing the wrist watch I gave him for his last birthday. After Reed left I quickly went to the pool area to take care of my surprise for Reed. Tatlong taon. Tatlong taon na kami nag-sasamang dalawa ni Reed. Mag-mula nang ikasal kaming dalawa ay wala pang masiyadong nangyayari sa amin bilang mag-asawa, ni hindi ko pa nga siya nahahalikan mag-mula nang ikasal kaming dalawa. Pero, nagsusumikap pa rin ako at umaasa na isang araw ay mamahalin din ako ni Reed, hindi gaya ng pagmamahal ko sakanya, ngunit kahit konting pagmamahal laman ay sapat na sa akin. I hope when Reed wears or uses the wrist watch I gave him that is the beginning that he will give time to my love. He will give me a chance to love him. It is now exactly three years since Reed and I, were married. I want to surprise him again and hope that he will like what I have prepared for him. On our first wedding anniversary I cooked him Reed’s fa
Three days ago after Reed and I had our third anniversary. Then Reed moved even further away from me. I didn't know how to talk to him so I could apologize for what I had done wrong. Now, I’m trying Reed's favorite dish to cook again but, the third time I repeated it today, I still couldn't get it. I had already stopped cooking when I cooked it. Then I sat in the chair. As I sat down I wiped my tears down my eyes again. Three years. Reed and I have been together for three years but nothing has changed between the two of us. Ubos na ako. Pagod na pagod na ako maging asawa ni Reed. Ngunit hindi ko siya kayang iwan, dahil mas nangingibabaw sa akin ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. Pinunasan ko ang aking mga luha sa mata at pisngi nang marinig ko ang pag-bukas at sara ng pintuan. Siguradong si Reed na iyon. Linapitan ko si Reed nang mayroong pilit na ngiti sa aking labi. Natawa ako sa aking ginagawa. Mahal na mah