Chapter 16

Derek pov

I try not to let it show but Ellie killing herself crushed me. I did love her but I wasn't in love with her, not like I was with Anna. I closed myself off but I know Anna noticed. She got really quiet which worried me. She also got really withdrawn and barely ate again. She went quieter than usual.

I found her sitting in her rocking chair staring off into the yard watching the squirrels. I went quiet and she noticed. The looks she gave said it all cause she looked at me like I broke her heart all over again. When she went into labor she called Wesley and had him tell me. She wouldn't even tell me herself when he told me he shook his head looking disappointed.

"You're doing good Anna one more push",the pack doctor said. She listened to him but I could tell she wanted to get away from my touch.

"Okay",she gasped then pushed hard. I encouraged her but the look was one I saw when she was giving up to die. Once our son was placed in her arms she smiled at him and kissed him. I