88: Talking to the doctor

*Lumi*

“So there is another type of medicine she can get, am I understanding that right ?” I hear Luca asking the doctor. “One that is safe during pregnancy”.

To be honest I am so glad I have him with me. I would forget to ask anything. My mind is completely overwhelmed with the fact that the doctor has just said that while he would suggest I do not go through with the pregnancy, he doesn’t think it is impossible.

“Yes, there is another medicine, but it is less potent, and the effect on the type of leukemia that Miss Saarela has is questionable, it has helped on some patients, but not all … the upside is that it presents no danger for the fetus, so it is worth trying”. The doctor says. “It might be enough to keep the sickness at bay long enough for the fetus to reach viability”.

“That is good news right ?” I say, looking at first Luca, then the doctor. It has to be good news. I need good news.

Luca sighs deeply, and I know that he is torn. On one hand he wants so badly to be a f