The pale woman lying on the bed was nothing like the woman who had raised her since she was two years old. The woman who was lying before her with her shallow breathing was nothing like the strong vibrant vivacious woman who had made sure that she had a home and a safe place where she would not be watching things that no child needs to watch.
“Mom, do you need some water?” asked Cara as she quickly blinked away the tears that were threatening to blind her vision.
“You know that I can see you crying. I can hear you sniffling at all the points of time when I am sleeping,” said the woman on the bed. This woman’s name was Matilda Walsh and she was suffering from stage four lungs cancer which was the reason talking was so difficult for her.
“You are not to take much pressure at all. You do realise that, right?” asked Cara as she wiped her face and then said,” I know that you have to speak a lot so I have made sure that you can talk to me. I have given you something to calm you down and you can talk to me.”
“You should have given me some damn morphine!” said Matilda as she groaned and Cara said,” You know that there is a limit Mom and I want you to be free of pain but that doesn’t mean that I want you to be over. You cannot do that to me Mom!”
“It is time for me to leave, baby girl. It has been some time for me already. But you know that already don’t you? Right now whatever I have to say is very important and you have to listen to it with and exceptionally open mind. Can you do that for me?”
“Why are you speaking like this Mom? You have a lot of time left and I'm going to make sure that you are comfortable during that entire time. Please don't talk like this. You know that I'm not ready to let you go….”
“No one is. No one is ready to move on. No one is ready to let go of the people that they love most. Do you think that I am ready to go? But that is not how life goes on is it? You my child are an exceptional woman and I am proud to call you my daughter. But that doesn't mean that you cannot be alone. I'm already leaving on borrowed time. It is high time for me to go in peace. But there is something that you need to know before that happens. I could have done this long time ago but I wasn't brave enough. And I had made my promise to people who had made sure that I could have a better life. but you need to know.”
“What are you saying Mom? I don't understand anything at all.”
“Whenever someone dies they make a will, they put back keepsakes for their children. They make sure that their properties are going to come to you. And I have already made those provisions. But there is something more that you need to know. You can consider this to be my last wish.”
Cara had been holding herself back with a lot of difficulty but now when her mother said this last sentence she could not hold herself back any longer and she broke down. Cara sobbed out so loud that she knew that someone was going to knock on their door and ask what was the matter. But she could not be quiet.
“baby girl…you have to listen to me. Will you listen to me?” Matilda asked in a hoarse whisper and Cara immediately stopped crying and said,” Of course Mom. I will listen to anything you have to say.”
“There are somethings that people want to take to their grave. I wish that I could take this one as well. I never wanted to bold in you with this responsibility. But I don't have the time or the energy or even the strength to do something bye myself. If it was possible then I would have done this by my own but since it is not I want you to do something for me.”
“What is it Mom?”
“I need you to send a letter that I have written.”
Cara raised her brow at that particular statement. “This is not something that you couldn't have done Mom. you could have easily sent a letter. Or you could have sealed the envelope and I could have sent a letter. What is the big deal about sending a letter?”
“The big deal about sending a letter is that you have to handover the letter in person to the man for whom this has been written.”
“Okay. Sounds a bit weird but I think that is doable as well.”
“He lives in Sicily.”
This time Cara did not restrain her shock at the statement that her mother had said. “What on earth do you want to do with a man residing in Sicily? And that too sending a letter by hand in person?”
“Because he is my son. Because I gave birth to him 29 years earlier. And 6 months after he was born I left him with his parents and I have not had any contact with him or with his parents since then. They sent me cards and flowers or even sometimes small gifts which you know that I place in our home very carefully. but I never returned back the favour because I made them a promise that I was never going to tell him anything until I was dead.”
“And now that you are dying you want me to go and give him a letter?” asked Cara. Her voice was hard. She could not even begin to say what was going on in her mind and Matilda smiled at her and said,” I know that you are angry with me, baby girl. But don’t be. If I could take back what happened I would have done that long back. But I can’t and I am glad now that I did not.”
“Angry does not even begin to describe what I am feeling right now,” Cara said that as a tear slipped from her eyes.
“You have every single right to be angry with me. I know that. And I am not even saying that it was my life and you should have let me live it the way that I wanted. This was something that I could not help anything with, darling.”
“You wanted him to be born, isn’t it?” asked Cara.
“Oh yes, I did. I really wanted him to be born. But his father was not in the picture any longer and at seventeen I could not take the responsibility of a baby and work as a maid and…” Matilda could not speak any longer and she was having trouble breathing and had a violent bout of coughing and Cara patiently waited for it to subside. Finally when she was done, Matilda said,” I did not want him to be…I wanted him to have…”
“I understand, Mom. You don’t need to explain or clarify yourself to me at all. It is fine. I am going to do whatever you need me to do.”
“You have to leave now, senorita.”Cara Welsh tipped her head back, and back some more, until she stared into the face of the uniformed security guard who towered over her. I am not leaving, she told him, making no move to vacate the chair she had occupied for over 2 hours in the waiting area of this vast marble foyer.The big man’s eyebrows beetled together. “You must go. The building is closing.”The building was the Velga tower---- a great big steel and glass monolith that rose from the heart of Barcelona thriving business district and dwarfed everything around it. It had caused $1.2 billion to construct, had taken two years and three months from foundation to completion, and comprised of 44 floors of bustling head office activity for one of Europe’s largest and most successful multinational conglomerates. Cara was well acquainted with these facts because she had picked up the glossy hardbound book titled the Velga corporation 60 years of success off the loot table beside her and,
“Can you Miss Welsh?” Xavier’s tone was hard. “Because the last time I checked my parents were still happily married to each other. To my knowledge neither of them is hiding additional spouses or secret stepchildren.” Her blush intensified. She had expected this to be tricky. It was why she had put such careful thought into what she would say but how she would say it if she ever got the chance. But now that she was here and he was standing before her so much more imposing in the flesh than she had imagined she couldn't recall one single sentence now she had so painstakingly crafted in her mind. Cara swallowed. “Maybe we could sit down?” She suggested. For a long moment he didn't move just stood there staring at her eyes narrowed to the slit sub silver grey as if he were debating whether to have her thrown out or let her stay. Finally as her composer teetered on the brink of collapse gesture to a chair in front of the desk. Relief pushed to smile on to her face. “Thank you,” she sai
Girls did not look at their brothers and feel their skin prickle and heat or their mouths go dry.He wasn't even the sort of man she liked. In fact he was everything she disliked. Arrogant. Superior. Unfeeling. A self appointed demi god in a power suit ruling his kingdom from the top of his gilded tower.And Cara knew all about men with god complexes didn't she? She had dated a surgeon whose ego was the size of the sydney opera house and then even worse because she should have known better she had moved in with him and decided that she was in love.Jamming the bricks on her runway thoughts she focused on the cold handsome face of the man in front of her and made a snap decision,” I don't think you are ready for this letter Mr de la Velga.”And in that moment she knew she wasn't ready to relinquish it because what if he didn't treat it with the respect that it deserved? What if he threw it away even without reading it?Stiffening her resolve she talked to the envelope into her journal
Barcelona was basking in the heat of a blazing sun beneath the glorious blue sky when Cara emerged from the hostel just before 11:00 AM. She had risen late and lingered over breakfast chatting with the Canadian guy and the young German couple who had wanted to ask her a one your questions about Australia. She waited a bit, pausing on the pavement outside the hostel she Ramesh in her tote bag for her sunglasses and slip them on. She had a mild headache and her ears rank still from the over loud music in the club last night but at least she wasn't suffering with a hangover. She had one tequila shot with the girls and then stuck with lime and soda water for the rest of the time.The dancing had been fun but the clubbing scene really wasn't her thing. She had only gone because the 2 Irish girls with whom she was sharing a room had invited her out and the prospect of a few hours of defending music and final loving company had appealed more than sitting alone feeling sorry for herself.“Sen
The big man with mountainous shoulders who seemed no less intimidating even now that Cara knew his name waited in the reception area while she went to pack. The Irish girls we're still out for the count so she moved about the room quietly and left a farewell note saying that she was checking out due to change of plans said that she wish them well on their travels.When she emerged Juan reached for her backpack. “Let me carry it senorita Welsh.”Although she was more than capable of carrying her own bag she gave it up without any argument. He was under orders and she suspected even a burly tough looking man like when would not wish to invite his bosses displeasure.“I just need to settle my account,” she told him.“It is done.”She frowned. “But…”“Please come at once senorita. Senor de la Velga doesn't like to be kept waiting.”Cara wasn't happy about it but she held her tongue. She knew that arguing with the hired muscle was pointless. She would see something to Xavier though. She co
Turning away from the stunning view Cara went inside and took a shower in the massive ensuite bathroom and afterwards pulled on a pair of Navy dress jeans and a short sleeved white gloves she hadn't thought to ask Rosa about the dress code for dinner and she had never died with a billionaire in his home before so smart casual seems to be the safest option.After dying her hair into a loose not at her neighbor she checked the time and decided to make an appearance 10 minutes earlier than Rosa had recommended. If her host was a stickler for punctuality she would rather be early than be even a minute late.The villa was so big she took 2 wrong turns on her way to the formal dining room before she finally located it bossing in the hallway she touched a hand to her hair and took a deep breath and then walked into the room Rosa was there and then Cara smiled at her then shifted her girls to the long dining table and the single place setting at one end.Before she had fully processed the imp
Assuming Cara was travelling somewhere not far behind he didn’t slow his pace nor did he glance over his shoulder until he reached the doorway where he finally paused and looked back. Only to see that she was nowhere in sight.His mouth flattened.Infernal woman.He dumped his briefcase on the desk return to the hallway and cast an impatient look down its vast empty length.Finally just as he was beginning to consider the possibility that she had decided to defy him emerged around the corner at the far end of the hall when spotting him waiting hurried towards him on those long shapely legs.She stopped in front of him panting a little each breath moving her firm high breasts up and down.He gritted his teeth. don't look.“Did you get lost?” Xavier asked dryly.“Of course I got lost.”Her snapped response made him drawback a fraction. I was being sarcastic.she gave him a droll look. “Were you? I would never have guessed.”She jammed her hands on her hips and hacked out of breath blowi
So incendiary.Because even knowing Cara’s pride was at serious risk she couldn't pretend those little detonations of heat that occurred beneath her skin when she was near him weren't disturbingly real.It was all very well trying to ignore her bodies’ response to him but today she had stood in his office and found herself on the receiving end of a very frank and very masculine appraisal the inevitable flash of heat and awareness that had been so overpowering she had feared he would see some evidence of it.Even more disturbing had dreamed the trick her imagination had played on her. Or maybe it had been a trick of light reflecting in those cool grey eyes that had for a brief moment made them look blisteringly hot and molten.To unbalance her completely there had been movements when his hostility and surliness had abated and they kind of dry reluctant amusement had surfaced.It was all terribly confusing.And overwhelming.And no wonder her stomach was jumping with nerves as she made