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"Father cannot always defend you to the council, Hera. It may be sound as if I am forcing you but you need to finish this mission. Do not fail it" he said, voice that weigh so much emotion opposite to his serious face.

I am force to do something even if I was not told to. It feels as if there is an invisible hand that push me to do things that I am hesitant to commit. Even without words, no command, on the back of my head I am force to things, to act with initiative.

"I know what's my role in this family and what is my responsibility in the organization, Jaxer" I pause and took a deep breath. "I have to listen and be obedient even if that kills me inside. Even if I had to ignore my own emotion, what matters is to always get the work done without a mistake"

A single tear escape my eyes followed by the strong blows of the wind. I am not sure if Jaxer saw it but one thing is for sure, he is aware that I am struggling right now. There is a silent dilemma inside me and my hesitation is