Beth sniggered sarcastically at how greatly her life had taken a turn when she caught Lord Carlisle's valet, Albert, watching her. He had a strange look in his eyes, one that reflected annoyance and repulsion. It told her immediately that the man did not want her there, he did not want her by Lord Carlisle's side. Was it his loyalty to his Lord or to the Lady that had been affianced to him?The Lady that had been affianced.Lady Cossington.Another person that would hate her and wish her ill. It was suffocating. Everyone seemed to despise her – her father, Albert, Lady Cossington, with great possibility, the staff at Carlisle Crest and probably, the whole gentry.Oh, how she missed Gwen!Beth cast a caution eye towards Lord Carlisle and was surprised to find him asleep. Between Torrence Hall and Carlisle Crest, he had fallen asleep. He must be equally exhausted. Not that she was bothered. It was better. They could never converse with each other, it would be too awkward after what she
"What does it say?" Lord Carlisle's voice rang with nonchalance."'What does it say?'" Lord Cossington repeated with disdain. "Unbelievable." A small chuckle. "It says here that you move to end, might I add, your long engagement to my sister, with compensation." He scoffed. "You end your engagement with us for her." He pointed at Beth. "For your mistress?"Mistress! Beth pressed her lips together. She knew the life that awaited her and the unkind things would be said about her, but to have such things said while she was in the room, it was agonizing. But it was not untrue. She had indeed had an affair with Lord Carlisle, she had been his mistress even for the shortest of time."I thought we agreed," Lord Cossington continued. "that you can keep her as your mistress even after your wedding to Harriet. We_""Keep her as a mistress?!" Lady Cossington exploded. "I would never share him with the most noble of women, let alone with that tramp!"Beth swallowed. It was upsetting to hear how s
Beth could hear the crack of static in the air. The fire in the fireplace flickered slowly. She noticed how quickly Lord Cossington held his sister but the damage had already been done. Lord Carlisle's anger must have been stoked again. She was grateful she wasn't the receiver."Harriet, keep shut.""Would you assault me again? Push me to the floor this time?"Lord Carlisle was quiet, until, "You challenge me?" He questioned.Lord Cossington stepped forward, shielding his foolish sister. "No, she does not. She would never."Lady Cossington pushed her way back. "I should be your wife, not her. I waited for years, and while I was waiting, you disregarded my honesty and chased after this tramp." She glared. Beth turned her head, looking at other things in the room, fearing another assault. "She doesn't deserve you.""Cossington?""Harriet?" He implored.She wasn't listening. "I should be able to_""Be quiet!" He yelled at her. Shocked, her sobbed stopped abruptly. When she tried to talk
December 1826Beth sat at the table finishing up the embroidery she had promised Gwen for her eighteenth birthday. It would be done in enough time to have it sent to Westside Manor. She had promised to finish it in six days, just in time for her sister's birthday. If she couldn't be present for their traditional family dinner, the least she thought she could do was finish up her gift and send it along.It wouldn't be the same as when she was with her family. Who would assist Grace with the cooking? Who would distract Gwen so the gifts could be well hidden? Who would listen to her mother's tale of womanhood and family ties? She sighed. How greatly she would be missed. She hoped the day went well.Gwen had wanted her there. She had sent letters to that effect, inviting Beth to Westside Manor. But Beth knew better. She couldn't. The ton were making fun of her and Lady Cossington spared no time telling her how she was a thief and a seductress. She couldn't let Lord Carlisle come to know o
Beth wanted to query the maid who was putting up an aura of naivety. She had instructed everyone that she did not wish to entertain and so far only Albert seemed to be adhering. The Butler would send her calling cards the moment they arrived and invitations as soon as they were received. While Anna would, in passing, tell of the ball happening that day, or the luncheon being held at a particular moment. She wished they would let her be."I do not wish to entertain. Tell her I had an engagement to attend to in town and had left the mansion all day." The Dowager Duchess had been by many times and on all occasions she had told them to send her off with the excuse of her being away from home. This would not be different.She was a good woman, maybe too good for the son she had, but Beth did not want to associate herself with her just yet. She would never be able to evade her forever but she would for as long as she could. She seemingly could not face the older woman who seemed to already
She was a beautiful woman who did not seem to have any grudge, or hold anyone accountable to a fault. She was loving and accepting and it was confusing to Beth. The night at the ball, Lord Carlisle had told her that Lady Marjorie wanted him to develop a better relationship with Lady Cossington, yet she was welcoming to her who had upset the Lady. Surely, she should be disliked, shouldn't she?She remembered how Lord Carlisle had told her that she reminded him of his mother. Maybe in terms of height, for she could not relate what else. The Lady was outspoken and brave. She was accepting of a stranger, and she loved her son.Maybe deep down, Beth had wished for the older woman to dislike her, loathe her even for upsetting Lady Cossington from the position of Lady Carlisle, but she was surprised that she was accorded with the eye of kindness. Although, she remained wary."Thank you. How was your day?""Oh, I had a short visit with Lady Dumbray and Mrs. Eastwood. It was enjoyable. We talk
He didn't care for her. "You are mistaken. He did it so he would not be humiliated." He had feared her to be with child. It was confirmed now that she wasn't.Lady Marjorie went quiet. When Beth looked at her, she had a soft smile on her lips. "Do you think my son cares about being humiliated or not?"She nearly nodded. He married her, so he does care."He is the Duke of Carlisle. He only need mention it and the talks would cease." Her eyebrows furrowed. She sat up. "Could that be the reason you have avoided social life since the wedding?" Beth was quiet. "You need not torture yourself. I will set the rumour straight."Beth panicked. "Oh please don't, My Lady. I only need to wait it out. Soon they would find another to talk about."The Dowager Duchess held her eyes and she looked away. She was scared, but she did not want anyone to see it.After a while, the Dowager Duchess rose and walked about the room. "I love this wall colour, but I think it is about time to have it changed."Why
Beth gasped. She had suspected but to have it confirmed and to know that it was Lord Carlisle's, was frightening. She stepped back. "What had happened?"The Dowager Duchess rubbed again, then she stepped back also. "Has there ever been a moment in your life you would wish undone. A day or a happening you would gladly go back to and undo?"There was. The morning of her eighteenth birthday. Time and time again Beth had wished to revisit that hill only to run back down with her brother before tragedy struck. And she had, in her dreams. She would race atop the hill, search for him and attempt running downhills only to find herself alone at the bottom.A sad smile rose. "My son had always been a good student, but that day he had failed a few questions on his test and his Father was reprimanding him sternly." She looked at Beth. "He was only seven years of age, a few months' shy of his eighth birthday." She stepped further away from the door. "Charles was such a sweet boy. His smile was so