It was a weekend. I was in a cafè with Dhruv and Rosh….
"So you gave him entry card? He can just walk in and out of your life as per his wish? And YOU with 'ego' let him do that? " Sneered Rosh.
"Yes, I agree. I don't remember you forgiving people so easily, after been left on 'seen' for like 15 days." Added Dhruv.
"Remember when she stopped talking to us when-" said Rosh but I interrupted.
"I know okay. I don't know why I did that. But everything is back to normal" I said.
"Kavya, rip the bandage off" said Dhruv.
"I think I like him, a little, a soft corner" I said.
"Ohhhhhh" unison.
"How little do you like him?" Asked Dhruv
"Do you want to be in relationship with him?" Asked Rosh curiously.
"No. You know how suffocating relationship are and I have already learned my lesson." I said.
"But you are attracted?" Added Dhruv.
"YES"
"Does he knows yet?" Asked Rosh.
"NO" I rep
I tried to suppress my emotions. The more I suppressed the more i was drawn to him. He was in my mind most of the time. I liked being with him. And he liked it too. Everyday he checked me out whenever I entered the class. I was walking to the class using my phone. I was chatting with rosh, "OMG! Are you wearing a kurta?" Grasped kevin. I looked up. He was standing outside the class, in the corridor, the same place from where I saw him the first time. "Yeahhhh" i said casually. "Are you blushing?" He put his hands on my shoulders, and shrugged me. "Whatever. Why are you standing outside? What about the lecture?" I was confused. "Lecture got cancel" he said still checking me out. "Kevin stop now" i said shyly. Shyly? Yes shyly. I didn't knew i have this side of me. "Ohh.. you look beautiful" he said making me visibly blush. I felt my cheeks burning and oxytocin level rising. "Thankyou." I said.
Me- kevinnnnnnnnn…. Guess what? Me- i played my lesbian card today on chand. Seen no reply. Me- you dared me okay. Don't behave like a baby now. Kevin- Kavya, I don't know what to say. Kevin- you don't know how it feels. Me- Feel what? Kevin- Exactly my point. You don't feel. Me- what do you mean? Kevin- Nothing. Good night. So he is frustrated because he trigged me on the first place. Okay yes i agree i talked to the cute guy but what's a big deal, he was boring and i clearly said i am not interested in him. Men are so difficult sometimes. The next day, I reached early, half and hour early. I waited for him in class. After 15mins he came and sat beside me. "Hello handsome" I chirped looking at him. "Hi beautiful" he replied without even looking at me. He was still bothered. "Someone is not in mood." I said pinching him. "Kavya stop." He shouted. I back
It was weekend. I spent my whole day binge watching the series and sleeping. I was hormonal. Periods really suck the energy out of me. It takes a lot to control my emotions but i manage, up to some extent. "Go directly to your bed. Your aunt will be here tomorrow, and you have to pick her up from railway station." My mom ordered after i finished my dinner. "Which one?" I was really annoyed now. " My older sister" she chirped clapping her hands. "I am not going to pick anyone up." I said shaking my head. I went straight to my Papa's room, and mumma followed yelling at me. "Ask your daughter to behave." Said my mom looking at papa. "Yeah, he only contributed while making me, you just baked me in your oven for nine months" I said sarcastically. Wrong choice of words in wrong place. "She is not a child, she has to behave herself. What about her responsibilities?" Mom snarled. Papa got out of the room when hi
The past few days, i tried to distant myself from him but failed miserably. Everytime i look at his face, my heart melts. He has asked me to think, and all i did was to avoid thinking. I don't want to think… He grew more protective, holding the small of my back when someone looks at me, not allowed me to sit on the railing of balcony.He did small things but i never failed to notice them. Professor kay was teaching us… "People tend to consume steroids in order to built muscles and that greatly affect the gental organs" spoke kay firmly. He was incharge of teaching everything realted to reproductive organs and such topics. He was pretty good at it. "And i have heard they also have small length" whispered carol in my ear from behind, loud enough for kevin to listen. Kevin turned and wink at her. Ohhh i know this. I know who she is referring. I ignored her comment. "Consuming steroids also affect the sperm count in males, which ul
We took our time for few days. As each day passed the more i was attracted to him. The cultural fest came. He was busy with his pre- shooting. But never left my side for more than 10 mins. It was awkward standing between boys, when he and his fellow mates are discussing the shoot and schedule. They would pop out from nowhere and start showing him some presentations. Most of the time I excused myself but sometimes he would put his hand on the small of my back and stop me. I always wondered why. I never liked his team. "You know, i hate them. Just ask them to meet you in alone and not when i am with you." I complained. "I know. It was just 5 mins talk." He said. "Whatever." I sighed. We were walking back to our class after the lunch break. Half of which was wasted by his team. "Finally the couple is back." Teased carol. "We are not." Both me and kevin in unison. "But we can be." He said in my ear.
Its been 8 months here. I never thought my life would change so much. I am happy.i have fallen for him. But i still am afraid of relationships. Commitments. Kevin- Hi beautiful. Me- hello… Kevin- Are you free? Me- sure. Kevin- I miss you. Me- we were together like 5 hours ago. College remember? Kevin- i know. Kevin- Do you trust me? Me- Not at all Kevin- I am serious. Kevin- we have known each other for 8 months now. And we both like each other. Kevin-Be mine kavya. Will you be mine? Omg omg omg He finally asked me. Officially. A lot of thoughts were running in my mind. Afraid of commitments was above all. But I can't be afraid forever. I mean i can't. I have to get it over with. Adrenaline was at its peak. Kevin- kavya? Kevin- listen. Just listen to your heart. Tears rolling down my cheeks. A little voice holding me back shouting No.
Its been 5 days in relationship. We are taking it slow, thanks to me. The first 2 days were awkward because now we can't just say 'look that one is cute' or 'ohh this girl is hell' or 'that guy is handsome'.We decided to keep this thing secret and not tell anyone. I entered the class, raaj was looking at me and smiling widely. He has been smiling at me for last 2 days. What up?I smiled back."Kevin?" I said."Hi darling" he said"Ssssssss…..class" i reminded him. I asked him not to call me with nick names here. "Ohh hi hitler" he laughed."Why is raaj smiling at me?" I asked. He looked at raaj. Then at me again."Umm… i don't know" he looked away. I raised my eyebrows."Okay he knows." He confessed."And?" "Armaan ""Chruch friends" "Best friend" I sighed."Are you ashamed of being in relationship with me?" He asked out of the blue.
Stop" i shouted. I felt myself being lifted up. He threw me on his shoulders. "Jaan, don't act now." He laughed. "I said stop" i shout again. "We have needs, jaan" he said throwing me on the bed. I can't breath. My thoughts are all over the place. I felt a hand on my waist. I opened my eyes. I was breathing loudly, i was panicking. I looked around, it was my room. Arjun was sleeping beside me. "Nightmare" i whispered and got off the bed. My top was wet with sweat. I walked out and entered the kitchen. Gulping down the water i decided to sit on the swing, which was on our terrace. Tears rolled down my eyes. "Jaan" i repeat. I pulled my legs to my chest and started sobbing. After few minutes I heard footsteps climbing up. I immediately composed myself. "Kavya, what happened? Are you okay?" Asked my father. "Yes,papa. Why are you up?" I replied. "I don't know, I couldn't sleep. Why are you up? An