One thing I love about today? It was God given. That is the only reason because other than everything else is a mess. Here I am stuck in traffic, going back home with Mirella and Blake in the car because of:1)The bride and groom to be cancelled everything after the accident since Ms Katy was shook up from it so we are all going back home. I decided to travel close to midnight.2)Jack was my transport so since he left I had no other choice than to ride with Blake.3)Mirella invited him over for the night, as if my rules and voice don't matter.Meaning I will be under the same roof as Blake for the whole night, what could go wrong?Leaning my head against the car window I start to think how this year has just been a rollercoaster. With Blake and Mirella sleeping, it's so much easier. The first question to pop up is why? Why is it that when I finally tell myself that I've found love something, well someone, has to waltz their way into my life and ruin everything. Every single day after
Putting down my bowl of cereal, I search for my ringing phone. It’s been hours since we arrived and my baby is still sleeping while Blake is in one of the guest rooms. That man has honestly turned my house into his house!“Hey, what's up?" I answer the video call from Bianca."Blake has a girlfriend!" Bianca immediately shouts and as quickly as the words came out of her mouth, that is how quick I fell a pang in my heart.I don't know why but an immersive pain is spreading quickly with the source of creation being from my chest."What? How!?" I close my bedroom door just as quickly as the pain."I don't know, thing is he has been talking to Tom and he was firstly explaining to him about the accident you told me about when he suddenly talked about something deep like-""Wait! How do you know all of this?""Uhm," Bianca looks at me knowingly, "I was just passing by and so happened to hear what they were talking about but that is not the point!""Yeah you're right, what did he talk about?
Walking towards the library shelf Jack had told me to meet him, I feel my body refusing to allow air in. Should I start by apologising? Should I push him away or pull him closer? Should I initiate a relationship with him or not?Confusion fills my head and every step I take carries another question. Finally arriving, I spot Jack standing next to the shelf holding one of the books. His outfit burns my soul, not helping with my need to breathe. A white golf shirt tucked in nicely into his scotched powder blue pants. He looks up from his book and does something I wasn't expecting from him, he smiles."Hey." I tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. With nervousness rocking my ability to walk straight, I fail to make my way to him in my usual walk."Hi, how are you?" He leans against the shelf, his arms folded whilst still holding the book."Good, you?""Fine...why did you lie?" He asks, not wasting any second."I...I never lied. I believed what I told you too, I believed that nothing was h
Beautiful moments come everyday but the first time it happens, there is magic and if you miss out on that one beautiful moment, if it comes back again for the second time it won't be as beautiful as before. Unfortunately Blake ruined my almost beautiful kissing moment with Jack. He couldn't even wait for our lips to touch, no! Blake decided to just destruct everything. "What is it Blake?" I turn around, teeth grinding against each other."Someone is in a bad mood, is it because I ruined your "moment"?" He leans on the doorway, with his famous smirk on. I know that he knows that I'm angry and frustrated but he doesn't care. Why? Because he is Blake."Yes, it is because of that! Couldn't you have come out maybe after five minutes?" "Nah, I wanted to have an up close look of what you were going to do. Oh and if there would ever be a next, which I highly doubt, piece of advice, grab her waist she loves it." Blake winks at Jack and my cheeks heat up in a lot of emotions, embarrassment be
How would life without Blake be like? Splendid! I can tell you this confidently because it has only been a week without him and everything is going well. No guilt, no temptation, no lust, everything is going accordingly. The best part of it all is the bond that Jack and I have. It's so crazy how within a week a person can know so much about another person. It really feels as if I've known Jack for a lifetime. Even though work comes in the way sometimes, we are always together when we have free time, like now."No, if you put the marshmallows on top now they will melt and probably ruin everything but we can place them on later after taking the cake out." Jack says to Mirella and Calvin.Both of them agree only because they see this as an opportunity to eat some now. Their smiles remind me of how this beautiful Saturday morning has been and baking as the four of us is calming. Mirella and Calvin have been getting along great but Mirella is acting up towards Jack here and there. The f
Cold. That is how I feel right now. My head is throbbing in intensive excruciating pain, my fingers are digging into my skin as it is turning pale on its own. I have never seen a corpse nor touched one but I am certain that I look and feel like one.Blake's words just keep on ringing and ringing in my head without any signs of stopping. I can see that he is trapping me but I cannot find it within me to move or push him away. I'm in my head contradicting his words.I am still not married to Blake!I AM still not married to Blake!!I AM STILL not married to Blake!!!I AM STILL NOT married to Blake!!!!I AM STILL NOT MARRIED to Blake!!!!!I AM STILL NOT MARRIED TO Blake!!!!!!I AM STILL NOT MARRIED TO BLAKE!!!!!!!But the harder I try to tell myself the more his words ring louder and louder and louder and louder. The more they get bigger and bigger and bigger until I cannot help but scream. Good thing about that is that Blake moves away."This is a lie!" I pace around the room with my ha
A lot can happen in a day. A woman can move from being single to being married with a blink of an eye.When I woke up my mind was hazy from all the crying that I had forgotten about my fate. It was when I went to the bathroom to look at myself that everything came crashing down like a major asteroid. It has probably been over 30minutes yet I'm still staring at the mirror. I am questioning all my life decisions and trying to figure out when did everything seriously go wrong with me. It's even hard to say who Aria is right now. I've hidden from everyone even myself how I've been struggling with my identity ever since my divorce.Sex before marriage has been one thing I never compromised. Daily I told myself that I wouldn't want my soul to be attached to just anyone because after all half of me will become one with half of his, same to me. However, I didn't sit down and let it drown in until the divorce and I had no choice but to try and forget about Blake. This became a struggle because
"Aria." He finally starts and goodness I wish he didn't start with my name.The way he says my name makes me want to forget everything. It's the way he says my name that made me fall so deeply in love with it. Even after the divorce, my name never lost its value on his tongue. Stupid good tongue."Blake." I utter his name with venom, I am not here to make him feel special."How do you feel?""You're kidding right?" I stand from the ground laughing, "that is your first question, how do I feel? Well, since you asked let me be a decent human being and answer. Blake I feel the way I look, a mess. I feel like the world has turned its back from me and all of this is a nightmare. I feel like I'm suffocating without any chance of survival. That is how I feel." I bite my lower lip keeping the tears away from rolling down my cheeks. "And it's all because of you.""Aria-""Stop saying my name! Stop saying it the way you do. Say it with hate, or maybe anger. Just don't say it the way you're sayin