Nate"I think it’s time to look," Maya said.I could feel my heart beating in my throat from the excitement, I was excited to have another baby with Maya, and I had to admit, if the test came back negative, I would be very disappointed.We both looked towards the table, towards the answer to our questions. We both held our breath. Because the coffee table was empty, and the pregnancy test was gone.Maya immediately pulled herself up and began to look down, frightened."I left it here! That’s not possible!" Maya said as she looked under the table."Mom, Dad!" Axel yelled as I also leaned under the table to look for the test."Not now, Axel," I said, raising the carpet."Dook!" he shouted.I looked up and stopped. Axel was holding the pregnancy test and running around the kitchen table, lifting it in the air like a toy."Fuck. Axel, let it go," I said with my teeth clenche
JessHours had passed, too many hours, the sun had risen, and now it was lighting up the whole room when they had finally given me my epidural. I’ve never screamed so much for a shot as I did in the last few hours. Andrew had taken all the insults that I had poured on him without fighting back, on the contrary, he was kind enough to make me cry and while I just wanted to tear my belly and put an end to that torture.Now I found my legs wide open and three people looking where only Andrew could look."Okay, Jess, is it time to push!" said the gynaecologist between my legs.I pulled myself up and looked at her with blurred vision and tears in my eyes."On three, I want you to push as hard as you can, okay?" she said again and I nodded, "One, two, three! Push!"And so I did. I pushed with all the strength in my body, feeling excruciating pain. I threw myself back on the bed exhausted and shook my head "I can’t do it" whimpering."It’s just the beginning, Jess, you have to keep pushing,"
MayaHours had passed, and after daycare, Nate had gone to pick up Axel from my parents. Although I really didn’t want him anywhere near Brad, I couldn’t leave him at my mom’s all day. So now we were still sitting in the waiting room. Axel was in my lap, playing with his soldiers, while Nate had his arm around my shoulder and looked at Axel carefully."It’s been 13 hours," Nate said, frowning."You don’t give birth in ten minutes, love," I answered, laughing.Lucas and Devon in front of us were staring at us carefully, they were doing it from the moment I went to the bathroom to vomit, trying to draw as little attention as possible, but now I seemed under inquisition with Lucas' eyes pointed at me.And I kept looking the other way, and I kept focusing my attention on Axel. Suddenly my stomach growled, so much so that it caught Nate’s mother’s attention.I tried to hide from shame. God, I would eat four sandwiches by myself. Nate sighed and got up."Let’s get something to eat," he said
MayaWe had to wait a few hours before they moved Jess and the children to another room. The sky had darkened, and the sun was on the horizon.Nate had gone away to make a phone call, who he said was booking an appointment with a gynecologist. He returned with the phone still in his ear while Axel slept blissfully in my arms, the pacifier between his lips as he breathed deeply."Yes, Dare," he said on the phone, "Tomorrow at six o'clock is perfect," and continued, stopping in front of me.He hung up the phone and leaned over to get Axel, for a moment, I looked at him badly, I didn’t want to disturb him while he slept."Andrew texted me that Jess woke up," Nate said, and I gave him Axel, who sighed sleepily as Nate placed him over his chest with his blonde head on his shoulders.I grabbed my bag and watched Devon and Lucas practically fall asleep in the bar chair."Jess is awake," I told them they immediately got up.Nate reached out to me, and we went to the floor where Jess and the k
MayaIt was 4:00 in the afternoon, and after I picked up Axel from kindergarten, I stopped by Jess in the hospital to check on her. She and the kids were fine. Axel had done nothing but stare carefully at little Emma as if he was afraid that at any moment she would burst.Jess and I laughed at that interaction between the two kids. Luckily Jess was alone in the room and, when I came in, I found her on the bed, legs crossed, with leggings and a light T-shirt, while the children were lying in front of her, blissfully asleep with their fists clenched. I had placed Axel on the bed, who had immediately fallen asleep and had focused all his attention on Emma, watching her sleep peacefully.I was with Jess for a couple of hours, which gave me a chance to be alone with her and the kids. I had picked up Liam who was the quietest of the two, while Emma did not let anyone near her except Jess without starting to cry desperately.Jess was happy and radiant, so radiant that I would cry desperatel
NateI followed Maya, Axel in my arms who was watching carefully the movements of the gynecologist around Maya, when it was his mother, Axel became possessive, perhaps too much. Lately, I had noticed that he had started to do it with my parents and with me, it just meant that he loved us and that he was possessive of us.At that moment, he was with his mother because he saw a stranger lurking near her and was ready to attack like a lion. I was so proud of him.The doctor sat in front of Maya’s open legs, at that moment, she was right in front of that paradise that made me lose my mind every night. I saw her taking what was a giant penis and squinting at my eyes as Maya looked up at the ceiling, almost bored with that wait.The doctor covered the giant penis with an equally giant condom. No, that doesn’t go inside, does it?I blinked several times when the doctor laid a hand on Maya’s belly."Okay, now try to relax," she said"Is that thing going in?" I asked.Maya looked at me, her ey
JessAndrew opened the door and immediately pushed the stroller with the twins to enter, I followed him slowly. Andrew tried to make as little noise as possible, hoping that that way he would prevent the twins from waking up, but he didn’t realize that the children would wake up whenever they wanted and claim what belonged to them.I took off my children’s bag and put it next to the sofa before I sighed at it. I closed my eyes and breathed the smell of home. After three days in the hospital, it was a pure pleasure to be finally home, although I knew that the peace would not last for long.Andrew sat next to me and moved my hair from my face, I leaned to his touch, immediately feeling my body relax as always with him."Are you tired?" he asked softly.I opened my eyes, and I collided with his grey, God, how much I wanted to jump on him at that time, no matter how tired I was, I would have wanted, but we could no
MayaJess came back after putting little Emma to bed, Axel was right behind her as he had followed her like a hawk. I couldn’t understand my child anymore.Axel arrived and immediately went to Nate who picked him up and made him sit on his legs while he ate. Nate would occasionally feed him and give him some of his chicken while Axel would be happy and still in his father’s arms.I began to eat happy under the eyes of Jess scrutineers who never lost sight of me, sometimes she was worse than Lucas. I ignored her completely and continued to eat while Andrew and Nate talked.It wasn’t that I didn’t want to tell her about the pregnancy, it was that I just wanted to stay in my bubble for a little longer. I didn’t want to have people around, I wanted to be alone with my children and my husband before the chaos broke out about my pregnancy and we were wrapped in a spiral of parties, parties, parties.