LUCREZIA~~~When the stars make you drool just like a pasta e fasul That’s AmoreWhen you dance down the street with a cloud at your feetYou’re in loveWhen you walk in a dream but you know you’re not dreaming signoreScusami, but you see, back in old NapoliThat’s Amore~~~My father’s favorite song played loudly inside the mansion that I could even hear it’s slightly muffled sound inside my room.As if the music player knows about my aching heart, it played a song about love on queue.I feel like there is a heavy brick placed upon me as I lie on my bed, my body tangled in bedsheets, my arms opened wide, flatly placed on the bed as I stared at the empty ceiling above me as if it is the most interesting thing I’ve ever seen. I laid there on emptiness as the void in my heart continues to sip the happiness in me. I feel empty. I no longer dance down the street with a cloud at my feet as the song sings because I’ve lost my Amore. I’m no longer dreaming because I’ve lost my love.And t
LUCREZIA“Father won’t give our hand to that man. I’m sure of it. He will never do that over our mother’s grave,” I spoke firmly, but I sounded more like I was convincing myself, not stating something I really believe by heart.I paced around the kitchen, my arms crossing and uncrossing for I don’t know how and where to place them for I am filled with unease. I chewed my lip with a frown plastered on my face as the long wait tears away my sanity.What’s even taking them so long?I watched Letizia who looked sick as she sat by the kitchen counter. She’s staring at the floor, avoiding eye contact.Feeling my gaze on her, Letizia reached out to the glass of water that I have given her a few minutes earlier. Her hands trembled as she held the glass with both hands.I stopped moving and sat on the kitchen stool in front of her to give her comfort. When she’s done drinking her glass of water, I held both her hands in mine and looked at her in the eye.“There’s nothing you should be afraid o
LUCREZIAEros’s character and real intention just shows when he did not even asked to specifically marry one of us. No. When he came to ask my father for our hand in marriage, it did not even matter to him who among us he will marry.Even now, it shows that we are really nothing to him but assets. We are just going to be his arm candy, someone that will make him look good and bring more power to his business. I couldn’t believe that father has agreed to that. Eros is blatantly showing him that he would be the worst husband to his children, yet he agreed to let him marry one of us in exchange for the “right offer”.I know that being born as a woman in the mafia family wouldn’t all be unicorns and rainbows. Even though I’m showered with all the love and riches, treated like a princess, I know I could never escape the responsibility that someday I will have to grow up and live for the business.Being a mafia princess meant doing sacrifices for the betterment of the business. What’s the
LUCREZIA“Carusso?” My father’s eyes squinted as he stared at the man that just barged right into his mansion without his permission. Father looked angry and felt disrespected at the man’s arrogance. He just went in and surpassed the guards he hired as if he owned the place.I stepped back, distancing myself from the sudden visitor to take a better look on his face. I pushed Letizia further behind me to protect her, an act of instinct.I swallowed hard when the man turned his head to face me. My eyes widened when I recognized his familiar gaze.It was really Pietro Carusso who barged into our mansion unprecedented. What is he doing here?“What are you doing here?” As if my father could read my thoughts, he asked the question at the same time it occurred in my head.Pietro turned his attention back to my father when he heard his question. “I should be the one asking you that, Rocchi. I am not the one who had done something wrong,” Pietro spoke calmly
LUCREZIA“I should talk with her for a moment,” Pietro spoke confidently as he stared at me with intense gaze which I returned with equal fervor gratefully. He wasn’t asking for permission, Pietro just pulled me out of the living room without waiting for anyone’s permission. He pulled me away from my father who looked like he just won the lottery and my sister who looked like she just received a news that stated she was adopted.I looked at her for the last time, I wanted to explain to her. I want to talk to her more than I want to talk to Pietro so I can clear things out with her. Letizia gazes back at me, with her eyes filled with so much emotion that I couldn’t tell the thoughts running in her head. She just found out the secrets that I’ve been hiding from her and she just also realized that I used her so I could sneak out at night and have a date with the Don of the Carusso family. She has the right to be angry at me and feel betrayed by my actions.I
PIETRO“Why did you do that?” Pericles asked me as soon as I got home, I haven’t even taken off my coat yet.I stared at him but didn’t answer his question. I took my time taking off my coat and my watch so I could think of the answer to his question carefully. To be honest, I’m still not sure about the reasons behind my actions. I just know that I had to do it.“Which one were you asking me about? The part when I broke Lucrezia’s heart or the part when I apologized for it and even asked his father’s permission to marry her?” I asked back just to annoy him.Instead of becoming annoyed, Pericles looked at me as if I was a child doing stupid things that an adult can never understand.“Both Pietro. I don’t understand both!” he blurted out like a madman. “The Pietro Carusso that I know always took calculated steps. These… It’s crazy.”“It’s one word to describe it,” I replied nonchalantly as he fusses over it. I just don’t want to think about it and he
LUCREZIAI exhaled loudly as if a heavy boulder of rock is lifted off from my shoulders. I shut my eyes, my hand automatically reaching for my rapid beating heart. I still couldn’t wrap my head around what had just happened. I couldn’t believe that I’m already engaged with Pietro just like that.Last time, we just had a fight and in another spur of the moment, we’re now engaged.I had no idea that this could actually happen in real life. The whole thing wasn’t sweet and romantic as I had hoped for, as any women had hoped for in a marriage proposal. What happened was far from how things are depicted in the movies.The whole thing was a mess and things happened unpredictably. Just when I was ready giving up my love, Pietro swooped in and swept me in his arms.Pietro’s proposal wasn’t any good either. It wasn’t some sort of a dream I had that was fulfilled. He made it clear that our marriage would only be a marriage of convenience.What is marriage without love?I guess I’m about to fin
LUCREZIA“This is my fault isn’t it?” Letizia mumbled beneath her breath and I heard her perfectly fine. “No, it’s not like that,” I immediately regretted my words. I don’t her to feel this way, I don’t want her to blame herself for my decision.Even though one of the reasons why I wanted to marry was to protect her from a loveless marriage, it doesn’t really mattered much because I love Pietro too anyway.I have higher chances of being happy in a married life than Letizia. Life still had too much to offer for her and I can’t rob her of her innocence and freedom when she’s just about to experience life.I noticed how Letizia’s jaw clenched as she fidgeted with her fingers. “I’m sorry,” she mumbled an apology.“Why? This was my decision. I could have chose otherwise but I chose to do this,” I tried to lift up her spirits even though she feels disconnected from me.“If it wasn’t for me, would you have chosen to handle the business instead?” She finall