LUCREZIAMy chin trembled and my eyes slowly turned glassy upon hearing Pietro’s reply. As to not lose my face, I forced a smile and blinked my eyes to make the tears away just so I would save my dignity in front of him. I lowered my head, refusing to look at him as I pretended to be strong, that everything was okay, even if it was not.Pietro gulped and I saw how his hands itched to reach out to me, but he didn’t made any move to comfort me. He saw how hurt I was, he witnessed how his words had pained me. Yet, he chose to stood still and be firm with his words. He never loved me even once. That’s what he said. It made me realize how delusional I was to hope for the opposite of his words. I should have listened. Why did I have to make a fool out of me? Why do I have to risk everything for a game I’m losing right from the start?Why do I have to get hurt and hear this brutal truth first before I decide to do what is right?“Lucrezia—” Pietro whispered my name with pain in his voice.
LUCREZIA I couldn’t erase Pietro’s words from last night from my mind. The guilty look on his face, and how he felt that he was the one to be blamed for everything. Somehow, I think there is something more than meets the eye. I thought everything was simple. Everything was already right in front of me. It wouldn’t take a genius to understand Pietro and I’s situation.However, if I were to think about it clearly, shouldn’t there be a reason why Pietro doesn’t feel the same way that I do?I mean… he’s a man and I am a woman. We had been together in the same house for months and we’ve already went through so much together. How come that after all of that, he still doesn’t feel a bit attracted to me.It’s impossible that he never loved me even for just a second. I was kind to him, I doted on him as his wife. He already saw many sides of me. There’s just no way that he did not fell in love with me for no reason, right?Pietro doesn’t love me, period.It couldn’t be that simple, right?Pi
LUCREZIAEven though I didn’t know who the woman was, I allowed her to enter the mansion since I had a feeling about her.I couldn’t point out what it was, but judging by her confidence and the way she held herself in front of me earlier, I think she was telling the truth when she said that she and Pietro knew each other. I don’t know who she is in Pietro’s life, if she was ever Pietro’s childhood friend at all. The only way to find out who she was and her connection to Pietro is by agreeing with what she wants so I could talk to her. She wanted me to let her in, and this is my territory. She’s the one putting herself in danger not the other way around. I sauntered inside the mansion with the maid and her following behind me. When we finally entered inside, I turned around to see her reaction.I could still remember what my reaction was when I entered this place for the first time. It was after I married Pietro, the day that this place had become my home. Even though I’ve seen man
LUCREZIA“Fair enough, I did say that,” I answered back casually, as I turned around. Bianca is quick-witted and she has good memory also. It only took her a few exchange of dialogues with me to find out my real relationship with Pietro. However, she is not the only smart person in the room. “Since you had nothing important to say and I don’t have any questions to ask you. Why don’t you leave? The person you are here for is not here anyway,” I replied as I fixed the tea and the biscuits we barely touched on the table.Bianca scoffs, “Why? Is the person I’m looking for doesn’t come home to live with you often? Does he sleep at a different place instead ever since you came to his life?” Bianca dumped all of her questions.I’m not sure if she is trying to piss me off or if she just doesn’t know that her words could piss people. Luckily, I know all her tricks.“You should just shut your mouth. You sound so desperate to find out that there is no love between Pietro and I. If you keep tal
LUCREZIAI froze on my place as I continued to eavesdrop on Pietro and Bianca’s conversation, trying to decipher the meaning of their words and get to the bottom of what they were actually talking about. Right now, there is nothing else more important than finding out the secrets that Pietro is hiding from me. Even though I was hurt by Pietro’s words, I decided to stay and continue on secretly listening to their conversation than to flee and protect myself from getting hurt even more in the expense of not finding out the truth. I know too well that the world doesn’t revolve around me, and I learned it the hard way. Today, what matters is the secret that I need to know and not the things that might happen to me once I found out that truth. Once I find out the real reason why Pietro couldn’t give his heart to me, I will be able to willingly let go of him without any regrets. It would also be able help me in the healing process, since I need to know and accept the truth before I cou
LUCREZIAMy breath hitched and my heart started pounding in my ears when I heard Bianca’s question. My face turned serious as I await Pietro’s answer. I had asked the same question to Pietro many times before, and every time I ask him that question, I always get the same answer from him.He made it clear to me that the only reason why he married me was because of my position and the power that I will bring to his business. He only married me merely because I were a Rocchi, and it would be a waste of opportunity to let me end up with the Cassiano crime family instead. However, hearing Bianca’s words made me realize that Pietro’s answers were a lie. Pietro did not marry me to benefit from our marriage. In fact when he married me, he willingly placed himself in danger instead. What danger could probably that be? Why would Pietro even marry me and place himself in danger because of me? Why would he lie about the purpose of our marriage. If Pietro indeed married me even though it mea
LUCREZIA 8:20PMMy lips quivered and tears started to fill my eyes when I heard the most painful truth in my life. I bit my lower lip and pressed a hand over my mouth to silence my cries. What should I expect in this situation? Wasn’t I the one who forced myself on Pietro?I was the one who did all things just to have him. I even forced him to go on a date with me by using a lame excuse of a favor that I gave him when we were a child. I should have known that life is not just about marrying the person you love. I was so immature back then. I only thought of myself, but I never thought about his side. Imagine being forced to marry someone you don’t love and deciding to stick through that marriage only out of pity?Life doesn’t end once you get what you ended. There is no happy ever after. in real life, you story only ends when you die. Just because I ended up marrying Pietro, it doesn’t mean that everything is finally done because I already got what I wanted. Until now, I never th
LUCREZIAThe words that left my mouth were sudden. Clearly, my sister never called me asking for my help. It was just an excuse I made myself out of nowhere. It wasn’t in my plans to leave Pietro behind with Bianca and live with my family for the meantime. However, that’s what I think I needed right now. Since I’m planning to file a divorce on Pietro, I think it would be just right for me to distance myself from Pietro as early as now. Especially that I still have some attachments on him. Love is not something you can just forget or even stop feeling. Pietro will always be my first crush, my first love, and my first husband. He is the only man I ever loved this way in my life. Letting him go will never be easy.The least that I can do was to take baby steps, to slowly let him go so I wouldn’t have to suffer that much. I need to prepare myself from the future pain. The things that are yet to come for the both of us. I had to be strong. I need to hold myself together. I can’t just