I found myself inside a bar. I was next to a table where I was away from other people who were drinking and having fun.
I've had several glasses of Margarita already since I got gere. I stopped breathing while drinking the wine in front of me. At first I did not want to taste the wine I was taking. Its too bad. But after a moment it was so sweetened and as if I was looking for this all the millisecond of my entire being.I want to take my mind off what Theron did to me. I wanted to escape from the pain that prevailed in my heart. And the only way I think that can help me is drowning myself in drinking so much alcohol.At the same time as I held the glass, my tears started to fall. When I kissed the lip of the glass, I cried so hard.He didn't even think that what he was doing to me was so painful?He didn't appreciate me even just a little bit. It's been a long time, two years, to be exact, but I don't even see him with love growing in his heart for me. I'm breathing but I feel like I've been dead for two years.In fucking two years of marriage, I sob, I'm hurt, and I'm stupid to hope that one day I'll wake up drowning in his love.I just smiled because of the thought reigning in my head. I know that it is impossible for him to love me. I'm just his wife on paper and he doesn't love me. What else can I expect from him besides beating me? Nothing! My parents made him think of me only as a way to pay a debt to him. Nothing too much and nothing too little, just that. Just a payment of my parents' debts to him."What are you doing here, you woman!? Shouldn't you be at Duffins Enterprises right now cleaning my office?""T-Theron?"Half of my emotions were surprised while the other half seemed to be happy because of what I was seeing. He's mad. And he deserves it.He was staring at me angrily. He violently sat across from me. I was startled when he hit the table hard with his palms."Theron, don't make a mess here!""What exactly are you doing here!?" he asked not to give his damn about what I said.I reached for my glass and stood up. I stared at him before turning away.Maybe he just wants to have fun while I stay where he wants me to stay. I don't think it's fair if he wants something.He grabbed my wrist and pulled me so that the glass I was holding fell and broke."Let's go home, you woman!"I pulled my hand back to me."Let me go, Theron! Let me go because I'm letting you do what you want. So, I guess, I am liberated too!""Crazy!"He quickly took me outside. He opened his car and pushed me into it."What the hell, Theron? Let me out!"His eyes almost bled because of the way he was looking at me. He was sweating profusely.He did not speak anymore. He quickly drove home to our house.He got off first when we got to the house. Like he did earlier, he pulled me out of the car until we got inside.He pushed me so hard that the sofa where he pushed me almost fell over."You have no right to leave the house without my permission, Athara! I'm not giving you permission to get drunk!"I stand. I gave him an insulting smile."Aren't I just your wife on paper? Why are you like that? Why do you deprive me of the right to do even the simple things I want to do?"I don't know where I got the courage to tell him the words I said."I am your owner! Only I, should make decisions for you!""How about me, Theron? Are you not mine? You're mine, Theron! Even just on paper, Theron, you're mine! But you don't give me the right to make decisions about your life! To be honest, you just do everything that you want to do without considering me, your wife!""Among the two of us, I am the one to obey, Athara! I am not the one who owes your family so I will do everything I want to do to you! You are the one who owes me so you will suffer the law! I am the law and will judge what you must do! Did you get it, Athara!?"I want to scream now. I want to slap him because I'm so annoyed with what he's doing. I'm suffocating."Theron, what are you going to do?"I stepped back because I saw him undressing again. He removed his belt. He turned the end of his belt and immediately hit my arm."You said too much today, Athara!""Ah! Theron! It hurts!"He hit me again with his belt so I grabbed my arm."That is what I should do to you, Athara, because you are too decisive! You knew from the beginning that you shouldn't have done what you did today!""You, Theron, did you think about what you did today? Did you think that what you did was so unfair?"His belt touched my skin again. The effect of alcohol on me was lost because of what Theron did.He threw his belt on the floor and immediately came to me. He put his fingers in the back of my head and immediately pulled my hair."What right do you have to question what I'm doing, Athara? Didn't I tell you, I'll do what I want to do to you?""Theron, I'm begging you to s-stop?"He pulled me by my hair. Half of my body almost fell on the floor as I was walking backwards. I was screaming all over."What, are you going to plead to me? What, Athara? What!?""Damn it! Theron! My back hurts! Enough! Enough...pl-please, Theron!"He pulled me up the stairs. My back hurts and my scalp hurts too.I have a slimy taste on my tongue. My nose is bleeding.He threw me on top of our bed.I stood up because I felt a strange pain in my stomach. I shuddered as I felt something gooey, liquid come out of my womanhood.I saw that Theron's eyes widened. He held his mouth.I touched with a pressure my femininity from the top of my dress."T-Theron," I moaned.He still couldn't speak. His eyes remained wide awake."Fuck," he said softly, staring at my hands."Theron...""Athara," he said simply.I raised my hand. My eyes widened when I saw a lot of blood on my hand.I'm bleeding. It only means one thing. I've had a miscarriage.The blood just continued to flow from my vagina until it reached my soles."Theron, will you just look at me? Help me!""I don't know what to do, Athara! Shit! Why are you bleeding!?"I just shook my head as my tears flowed. Is he dumb? Doesn't he know why this happened to me? Doesn't he know why so much blood came out of me?"Theron, you really asked that? Isn't it obvious?""What!?""Fuck, Theron! I-I'm pregnant, Theron! I'm pregnant and the baby miscarried!"He almost collapsed because of what I said. He backed away. He leaned against the wall."Fuck! Why didn't you tell me, Athara!? Why didn't you tell me you were pregnant!?"I didn't get what Theron was trying to convey. Is he angry or does he feel sorry?"H-How? You don't even talk to me. Unless you are shouting at me. You don't even say hello to me or greet me in the morning! We don't even eat together! You just treat me like a maid of you, Theron! Now, tell me, how I can tell you that I'm pregnant? That you're going to be a father? Do you have time for me?""Athara, don't put the blame on me!"He headed my way. I received a strong slap so the pain I feel is doubled at this time."T-Theron! How can you hurt me despite my current situation? Are you still human, Theron!?""Because you're stupid! You didn't tell me you were pregnant! What you did was wrong! You killed my child, Athara!""Theron, can you hear yourself?""Yes, Athara! And because of what you did to kill my child, do not expect that I will treat you well!"He turned his back on me. All I could do was sob.He blamed me for what he did. He even told me that I killed the child, even the reality was he was the one who killed the child inside my womb. It's all his fault.A mother can't do what Theron said. That's why I didn't tell him the truth because I thought he might just get angry because he didn't want to be disturbed."Theron, I need you! Don't leave," I said begging him.He stopped for a moment. My eyelids did a few quick blinks. At the same time, healthy tears fell from my eyes."Theron, don't leave me in this situation. Have mercy on me. Don't leave, Theron. J-Just now. Make me feel like I have some value to you," I said again, full of pleading.I expect too much from him. I thought that because of my situation he would never walk away from this room. I rattled because he slammed the door. "T-Theron! Theron! Please," I muttered with fear.I am afraid to be left here because of the situation I'm in. There are stains of blood in my clothes and in my palm. I still could feel the pain inside my womb. It hurts. Every part of my body hurts."T-Theron, p-please." I tried to make my knees firm but failed to do so. I heard unusual sounds inside my head. I can even Identify the tiniest sound that my heart created. "H-Help," I uttered.I fall on my knees. I am like a drop of water falling to the ground. I'm slowly losing consciousness. My fingers crawled to the direction where my wicked husband walked away. I pity myself even more because of this. How could this be? How could his heart be as hard as rock when it comes to me? I couldn't even find a valid reason for the treatment I received from my husband. My vision went blurry un
Somehow, I regained my strength a bit. I was exhausted yesterday from looking for expensive things to wear and use tonight. I was facing a large mirror while two make-up artists beautified me. "How lucky you are to have your husband, Ma'am Athara! Imagine, he is the richest man in the country and even abroad. Very handsome. Very stylish. And the power of his sex appeal is damn obsessive. And you have him! I wish to be you!" said the gay named Jemar while fixing my hair. I was smiling but what was in my heart was the opposite of the expression I showed them. "Keep smiling, ma'am! What Jemar said is true. Your husband is really handsome! I'm sure there are many people who like him! If gays really had a chance, I'd put Jemar first in line!"I suddenly felt jealous because of what Harsy said. I was more sensitive when it came to the topic of someone liking Theron. My mind contradicts my heart. My mind was angry at the fact that my heart was such a martyr when it came to Theron. "Mayb
The party continued. When I was young, I told myself then that I would enjoy myself while I was not in the convent. If I am only aware of my future, I wouldn't be here today. I should have been escaped from the world and stay in the convent."What do you do as Theron's wife, Athara?"Keigan's question made me nervous so I looked at my husband. What am I doing as their friend's wife? Well, I'm his wife on paper but he thinks of me as his servant. I clean up my husband's mess. When I didn't give him what he wanted, he beat me. That's me as Theron Duffins' wife. My mind returned to reality. I cleared my throat when Theron kicked my foot under the table. To be honest, I don't know what to answer his friend. "Probably, she's serving the king. He satisfies our King Theron!" says Herodotus. They laughed. "That's really the job of wives, isn't it? They ought to serve their husbands," I said. "Athara, how is Theron as a husband?" Rome asked. I swallowed. I suddenly felt weak because of
I noticed that Theron was clingy tonight. When the guests exit to get home. Theron and his friends decided to drink high alcohol contains together. They all took off their coats. They are wearing only white long sleeves. I feel sleepy. Maybe Theron noticed this so he gently shook my body. "Love, don't sleep. We'll go home later," Theron told me. I blinked hard to get rid of my sleepiness. I want to change into my pajamas because I'm getting cold in what I'm wearing now. "Theron, what time are we going home?""Follow me," Theron said. Theron never informs his friends that we'll go outside for a while. He hurried out of the house, so I followed him. He headed to the garden. We are in the corner of the garden at Herodotus' house right now. I tiptoed without hesitation when Theron choked me. I held his hand and patted it. He pushed mw without pity. I fell down and coughed because of what he did to me. He violently pulled me upright. "Didn't I tell you not to be disrespectful? Yo
I put on a strapped dress after I showered. Fortunately, my womanhood stopped bleeding. I was nervous because I thought it would never stop. I dried my hair. I sat on the end of the bed while waiting for Theron. I knew that what he would do would be unpleasant shit later but I waited for him anyway. I saw his frustration because he doubted his cousin and me. I know that he is a bad person but I feel guilty because I feel like I hurt him. I asked myself sometimes if I love my husband. And even though I will deny it, the answer would always be I love Theron despite his evilness towards me. I heard the sound of his footsteps so I looked up at him as he entered our room.I swallowed hard when I saw him wearing no top and only white boxers covering his body. I feel excited. Yes, it's stupid if it's stupid but I'm very eager to feel the warmth of my wicked husband's body. He slowly walked towards me. He ran his fingers between my hair and my scalp and then he pulled it. I just closed
I woke up without a trace of my husband on bed. I immediately stood up and fixed the beddings. I was tired because of the things we did. I walked outside. I almost forgot to bun my hair. So I decided to do it while I'm walking downstairs. I looked around for my husband but he was not here anymore. I hurriedly prepare myself. I breathed like I was chased by a criminal when I got outside the house. "Fuck," I cursed. He would be so mad to me for not waking up early. My stomach was aiming for food but I disregarded it. This is not the time to eat anymore. I must hurry in moving.I looked out for a driver. Good thing I found one. I instructed him where to go and he drove off to company. I walked out the car and give him the amount he deserves. "Keep it all, sir. Thank you so so much!"I didn't wait for his response. I ran off to the company. I know that I look like a fool now but I don't mind it anymore. I just wanted to be as hurry as I can. "Ma'am Athara, good morning!" Everyone
I'm inside the grocery store now. I finished buying the needs at home. I got out and immediately put some cellophane where everything I bought packed into the car. I headed home earlier before I came straight here. I fumbled for my phone in my bag because it had been ringing for a while. "Why aren't you answering my calls, Athara!?" my husband asked angrily. I sighed. He's so strict. He didn't care about me before but all of a sudden he got interested in the destinations I was going to. "Athara? You must be deaf that's why you're not answering.""Theron, I already bought our needs. The only thing I didn't buy was your condom. I'll buy it at another store!""Fuck? Really?! Are you serious about that?"I laughed. "I am!""Go home because it's already late!"I looked at the top of my phone's screen. It's still 5 PM. It's not late yet."Really? What happened to you, Theron? You don't care where I go then, right?""Shut the fuck up, Athara! I told you not to question me."I rolled my
I waited until he fell asleep. We are here inside our room. I checked what time it is. Good thing because I still have two hours left before I will meet that slut. I changed my position. I am now facing my husband. I touched his forehead. "Shit!" I stood up and immediately looked for the thermometer on the desk. I returned to the bed. I inserted the thermometer in his armpit. He moved a little."What are you doing, Athara?" he asked me.I pulled out the thermometer after I heard a beep from it. That sound signifies that his temperature was reflected to the tool already. I shook my head. He really got a high fever."Theron, I will change my clothes. We will go to the hospital, okay? You need to see a doctor."He shook his head. Instead of letting me go, he pulled my hand until I was near him. "Don't go anywhere, Athara.""Theron, you are sick. I just can't stand in the corner and watch you unwell," I told him. "Just let me. Let the fever left me ont its own. Don't stress yourself