Perhaps

I was worried that Kevin would see through my cunning ruse, but I was equally worried that he wouldn't.

I hope that in his mind, I will always be a good person, deserving of understanding and affection. I also hope that he recognizes my nasty character and continues to treat me as such.

For a long time, I was conflicted, but I decided to keep the lie hidden for the time being.

I didn't feel sorry for Alvin. Sometimes too much love can lead to severe hatred, but mine didn't.

I simply lost interest in him. I don't care what happens to Alvin. I simply want to be happy.

I wasn't sure Kevin would accept me for who I was.

It's only that I went too far this time, and I exact my vengeance.

Stopping my medicine abruptly resulted in the destruction of Kevin's months of hard work, and I became far more shattered than before. I might have died if Alvin had kept me in his custody for a few more days.

The weather was pleasant. Kevin hung a chair in the courtyard that was large enough for two indivi