Secrets from the past When I was younger, I remember getting a diary as a gift from my mother. I wrote on it almost every day, about everything that happened in my life, but I refused to show it or confess to anyone that I had it. I would report everything I needed to and then tuck it under my mattress to make sure no one would ever read it. There were secrets kept deep in my soul, materialized in words, where my main subject was my father and that hatred he felt for me. The first time I realized that Claudio hated me was when I was ten years old, at least as far as I remember, there were probably other times that he had shown bad things in my respect and that I had witnessed, but I didn't remember any of them. When I got back to my old house, I realized that things remained in the same place and that my old diary would probably still be there, stuffed in one of those dusty boxes, on top of my wardrobe. Desiree always respected my privacy, and she was the only one I let in my room.
The literary group I don't remember what time I went to sleep the night before, but I wake up with my body completely sore. I exhale hard, and he presses the back of his hands over my eyes to, perhaps, wake me up from sleep. — Is everything okay, Aurora? Desiree reached up with one hand to brush back one of the strands that fell across my face. I'm so happy to look at her, looking good and smiling, it's like taking a long sip of strong, hot coffee first thing in the morning. It invigorates my strength. — I'm fine, mother – I offer her a smile, thus trying to disguise the pain in my shoulders – it's good to see you too. — You look so pale.– Are you sure you slept well? Although I don't like lying to my mother, I don't feel like telling her about my worries from yesterday, even though I know she doesn't know why. — I'm just tired. I stayed up late last night writing that book. — What wonderful news. It's good to see my mother smiling. — My father is staying with you this aft
Me and LukeThe house is silent. There are no women's shoes on the door, nor is the door unlocked. Claudio is not at home and things seem to stay where they are. I go to my old room. I can't imagine it any other way, it's old, like it's from the past and doesn't belong to me anymore. Likewise, I felt that I didn't belong there and that as soon as my mother left that hospital and came home, I would leave again. A few hours later, Geane sent me a message canceling the meeting without explaining the reasons.A week later, the meeting finally took place.Since meeting Luke, I haven't had much time to think about him and how my feelings confused me when my eyes landed on his. But now that I'm here in front of my wardrobe making sure I don't have anything cool to wear, I'm thinking about giving up, calling Geane and making up some excuse and giving up on seeing Luke again. I rummage through it, hoping I've left behind some decent-looking clothes, but all I find are old, torn, faded, outdate
The conversation between us — Want some ice cream? – I asked her. I'm not the type of guy who takes turns in conversations, in fact I'm pretty direct and objective. The expression on her face is one of surprise and I even tried to disguise my admiration for her, but I know I failed miserably. — Since you arrived, you haven't asked for anything – I continue – don't worry, I'll pay. — Is it so obvious that I don't have any money? I break out a smile and see her cheeks immediately redden. — Not really – I'm lying – I'm just exercising my gentlemanly side. — I'll accept, – she says, looking me straight in the eye, – but only out of chivalry. — Can I choose the flavor? — Sure, – he answers. I got up and walked over to the counter. I turn to look at her one last time before deciding a flavor. Surely Aurora must have thought that something was going on between me and Geane, by the way we left the ice cream parlor a few minutes ago. I thought about explaining to her that Ge
— I wanted to buy new shelves for my books – I swallow hard, trying to hide the fact that the world has just collapsed on my head at that very moment – but they're over there in Rio, and I'm here. I wonder every day if they are being well cared for.She was amused by the way I talked about the books. And even though I was telling yet another lie, I realized how passionate I was about reading.— If you want, I'll lend you mine – there's still a silly smile on his lips – it's not the same as in your books, but it's enough to kill the nostalgia.— I'll think about the proposal – I scratched my beard, trying to throw all my worries away – there isn't a bookstore in this town. And the stores here open at nine.— A pity – I watched her take the last sip of ice cream and start biting the crunchy cone – although there isn't much to buy here, so it doesn't matter if it opens at nine or eleven.— I hate shopping online – I said with a despondent air, because I hadn't known how it felt to buy
Rebecca, the traitor. I walk towards the hospital with my head completely on the moon, or rather on Luke. I mentally go over every moment we lived together that afternoon, and it felt like a script for a romantic movie. Likewise, I don't even notice or realize what time it is. I follow all the bureaucracy of the hospital concierge and head to my mother's room, when that shadow hovers over me. She wears the same shoes as the day I picked her up from my mother's house. The same upturned nose, the same hatred. She's standing in the hall, a few steps from my mother's room. Arms crossed, he seems not to care about the ridiculous role he is playing. Fury surges through me, leaving me rooted to the spot. I can't take a single step. The traitor came to visit my mother. It's a very straight face. Any misstep would ruin everything. Hate takes over me. A heat runs through my whole body, while my cheeks burn and my eyes don't leave that woman. She doesn't notice I'm there. She holds a small mi
— Are you all right, Aurora? – she looks at me in astonishment – it looks like she saw a ghost.I saw the devil in human form.I'm fine, mom – she stammered and the crying started, but I have to swallow so I don't worry Desiree.Furthermore, I walk towards her and hug her. Not only that, but I feel safe in her arms, and I wish I never left here. How I missed that hug, the smell of chamomile that exudes from her hair, her skin so soft, and the love that only she has for me, shown in every gesture, attitude, and word. If only I could transfer all my vitality to her. If I could just switch places with my mom, I certainly would.— Rebeca came to visit me – I walk away, looking at the smile that formed on her lips when she said her name. Traitor – very kind of her to come here, don't you think?She came to make sure you had your foot in the grave.— I don't think so – the words come out harshly, but I don't regret or apologize – I don't like her.— Why are you saying this? – he a
Luke is GonzaloI got home that afternoon, wondering if Magdalena knew that Gonzalo was coming to see me. It would be better if she didn't know, that way she wouldn't pretend normalcy to him. Magdalena wasn't home, but her husband was. He was rummaging through her things, as if looking for something to grab. Immediately, the idea that he was the one who had taken her money that day hit me hard. Of course! The only explanation would be this. And to imagine that he saw me suffering the retaliation for the crime he committed, without asking my favor, made me sure I was in a den of vipers.Who could I trust?I approached him, he didn't notice me approaching, getting scared when he looked at me.— Where is Magdalena? I leaned against the door frame. That room stank, in addition to being completely messed up.— It's in trade. – He wiped his hands on his already dirty shorts and continued to look around the messy surroundings.— Need help? I asked, as he widened his eyes at me.— Not! – he