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It took three days for Miguel to make preparations and I got progressively bad, I felt so haggard and tired, like every ounce of strength I had was going into growing the baby in my womb, it didn’t help that I couldn’t keep anything down.

I dressed the kids, in warm clothes because we were all going and put on a loose sundress.

“You ready?” Miguels' voice came from the doorway.

“Just a sec” I called back then tied the final knot on my shoe, yeah, I looked a mess but whatever.

I touched the rose diamond resting on my collar bone, he should be here for this. I am reminded of his dedication to being present during every doctor's visit, holding my hand, just simply being there.

"Next time," I say to the silence nodding once.

I joined them in the living room to see Miguel had the diaper bag I packed earlier and Caela on one arm she looked to be asleep, good, I preferred them to be asleep for the drive.

I tightened the bun at the top of my head and lifted Angelo.

“Remember the rules”

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