Alana
He can't even speak, we're interrupted by laughter and screams coming from the hallway, and I recognize it very well, they're my friends, they come into the room and look at us in a very accusing way. Edu, as always, in a not discreet way and without any caution with words.
— What are you guys doing here alone? — Are you already wanting to open the room, and with Raúl?
Edu and Babi express a cynical smile on their faces, I particularly want to kill them. Meanwhile, Raúl and I were extremely embarrassed by what my friend said, I look indignant and come to our defense.
— Edward! What a dull joke, it's been a while since we've seen each other, and this is how you welcome me?
— Oh, friend... I was just kidding, Raúl knows it's a joke, doesn't he Raúl?
— It's all right! Alana, I'll make you comfortable with your friends...
— But you had something important to say to me and...
— Tomorrow... Uh... I'll call you!
He doesn't say anything else, smiles, hugs me and leaves. I don't understand, he said he had something important to tell me and he leaves like that? It definitely bothers me. As soon as he leaves, Edu and Babi ask me.
— Guys, but what did he want to tell you? — Did he want to declare himself? — insinuates Ed.
— Surely he wanted to declare himself to you and was embarrassed by what Edu said! — Said Babi.
— Oh, people! You know that for a moment I also thought that Raúl was flirting with me...
— Alana, he doesn't want to flirt, Raúl wants something more... I've been saying this for a long time, even when you were in Brazil, Raúl would call me or Babi wanting to know about you, because you didn't answer the phone, is not? He says, and I just roll my eyes at his comment.
— Leave Lana alone, her and her reasons for leaving! — Babi comes to my defense.
— It's okay, but when he calls you “MI CARIÑO” I don't know about you, but if he called me that, I'd have an easy, easy orgasm...
— How awful, Ed!
I can't say anything else, I burst out laughing, I'm infected by Babi who was completely red with laughter. He also bursts out laughing and comes towards me, hugged me, returned the hug, and I confess that I was missing him, or rather, both. Babi throws himself around us and we give a big collective hug. We hugged each other affectionately. Edu lets go of the hug, and says one of his many jokes.
— Oh, it's good enough! You are trying to convert me, you know very well that I don't like women… — he uttered and burst out laughing.
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I get out of the bathtub and wrap my body in a robe, stop in front of the mirror, and observe my image reflected there. I look at every detail of my face, my black eyes, my thick eyebrow, and my upturned nose that make up my face, apparently tired. I bring my hand up to my long hair, which is tied back, and let it go . My fingers run freely between the strands, and my mind takes me to Dani, his girlfriend, and if there's any chance he's interested in me, sees me, finds me attractive.
Deep breath. I feel defeated. What should I do from now on? My thoughts wander, and I'm snapped out of these reveries when I hear someone knock on the door. I open it, and I find the owner of my thoughts, he opens a big smile at me and asks me:
— I can enter?
— Clear.
He enters the room, sits on my bed, pats his side for me to sit down. I do as he asks, and then he hugs me sideways, kisses my head.
— I missed you so much!
— Me too.
— Did you like your room? It was decorated with you in mind...
— I just don't understand why the white... References to Real Desportivo de Madrid?
— You cute little girl, of course not!
— That's right! I wanted to ask you something... Don't you think Raúl looks weird? — I ask him in order to tell me something to get out of my head, that strange thought.
— It's your impression, he's just a little tired, he had a very intense training day, but I thought you were strange in relation to Isabella, it seems you didn't like her very much!
Of course I didn't like her, you idiot! I'm in love with you, how can I be happy to see you with a girl other than me? That would be my real answer, but since I don't have the courage to do so...
— I don't even know her well enough to know whether or not I liked her. I'm just tired from the trip, I couldn't sleep during the flight, and when I got home thinking I was going to rest, you guys prepared a party for me, and you still want me to be in a good mood? Please be patient, Dani!
He looks at me, and apologizes for not thinking I might be tired, then leaves my room. As soon as he leaves, I think about everything that is happening, and how I should act from now on, because I'm sure I can't go on like this, but how can I declare myself to him, if he's dating, and in love with someone else?
Raúl
— I don't understand why you didn't say anything, if you were so determined yesterday afternoon, you left here saying you would talk to her and...
— I know Tomás, but the moment I had the courage to talk to Alana, her friends invaded the room for good, what could I do at that moment? — I run on the treadmill while I talk to Tomás about Alana's welcome party.
My friend's speech is completely understandable, as I decided, days before she returned to Madrid, that I would speak. I was willing to expose what I feel, this feeling has been around in my mind and heart for a while, but I never had the courage to admit that I'm in love with my friend's sister. Before she left for Brazil, I was willing to confess, but I didn't have the courage to do it, and I spent these two years dedicating myself to my career, I met some girls, but I never had a serious relationship with anyone, but now I'm decided, I'll confess and invest in that feeling, even if Dani doesn't agree, I'm willing to do anything for Alana.
I'm so distracted, thinking about all this, that I don't pay much attention to what Tomás continues to say, I just tune out my thoughts when he approaches and snaps his fingers in front of my eyes.
— Dude, are you still here? I've been talking to you for a few minutes, and you're not answering me!
— Sorry! I was far...
— Wow, if you didn't talk, I wouldn't even have noticed!
— Stop being silly, Tomas!
— The coach's assistant came here to say that training on the field is only after lunch...
— After lunch? I ask and turn off the treadmill. — He doesn't get tired, training yesterday was exhausting, he said that today would be at the gym!
— Are you feeling bad, defender?
I look in the direction of the voice that has a perverted tone to the question, which I don't like. Coming from my left side, I observe that mocking smile, along with his analysis look at me, is Pedro, one of the defenders who is in the reserve. Before they hired me, he was a starter, he wasn't performing as expected. When I got here I worked hard, and I managed to get his spot on the team, he became my reserve. It bothers you too much.
— No, Peter! Why would I? — I answer and head towards the door, which is next to the other training equipment.
— You must be tired, after all, your attacking friend's sister must have given you a hard time, right?
— What are you talking about?
— Alana, that's her name, isn't it?
— Listen, I don't owe you the satisfaction of my life, I think you better stop saying what you don't know… — I say and turn to go on my way with Tomás.
— You know, Raúl, I've been looking at some photos, she's very hot, it remains to be seen if after a day of training, you can handle a...
I didn't let him finish, I go towards him to punch his scrotum face, but Tomás holds me back. The wretch passes me, looking at me with that cynical smile plastered on his face, my friend continues to hold me.
— Raúl, control yourself! It's not worth fighting with him, he's angry because he lost the title to you...
Thomas is right. It's no use fighting, he just wants reasons for me to return to the reserve, although Pedro didn't yield anything, but for my coach, the team should be at peace, and if I start to fight back his provocations , I'll be bringing discord and relationship problems for our daily lives. So, I would stay out of the team, and I won't be able to think about that possibility, it's the year of the World Cup, I need to show my football, being called up is my biggest dream. However, something starts to take my peace, it's not Pedro. Alana with her sweet smile, her penetrating look, her beautiful curves, and all this takes my concentration, I can't go on like this, before I go crazy, I need to declare myself, because, if it's possible, I want to live this love!
AlanaThe night passed like a torment, I couldn't sleep well, if I didn't know the reason, I'd say it was due to the time difference, or fatigue from the trip, but it wasn't anything like that, the reason was Dani. I lay down on my bed with the intention of resting, but in my mind an idea was swarming, and like a fool I went to her room, which is two doors down from mine, in front of her I tried to turn the knob, but it was locked, I turned to face her. back to the, and before I took a few steps, I heard a woman's high-pitched moans. He was with her. Why couldn't those moans be mine? Why didn't he want me? I was shaken, tears streamed down my face, and I ran back to my room. I locked myself in, and I stood there in the doorway, leaning against it, slipping until I was sitting on the floor. I grabbed my legs and cried. I stayed there for a long time until I got up the courage to go to bed.I turned from one side to the other in a frustrated attempt to forget that damn sound, and now I'
AlanaEvery kiss of Raúl on my neck makes me uncomfortable, I don't know how to explain what happens to me. I let myself be carried away by the firmness of his hands on my waist, his citrus scent invading my nose, my skin burning with each contact of his lips. I'm surrendered to sensations, my eyes closed, I don't see anything, I just feel it, and when I feel the hardness of his member against me, I realize that it's going too far, and I push it away. I look at Raúl scared, I realize that I was right with my suspicion, he has some interest in me. He looks at me regretfully, approaches me again, but I push him away once more.— Raul… no ! I think you better go ..— Lana, I can explain it to you! — Sorry , I don't...— I already told you, I think you better go! — She said a little harshly.He doesn't say anything else, lowers his head, looks disappointed, and goes off like a rocket. I stand there not understanding what is happening, or rather what happened, I don't understand why my bod
RaúlI run around the field unwillingly. I haven't slept well for a few days, I spend the nights thinking about what happened. Will Alana want to go out with me? I tried to call her, I went to her house, but it seems like she doesn't want to see me, I think I need to give her space to process what happened that day. Tomás and other players talk non-stop, I can't understand what they're talking about, he's a little ahead of me, and he turns around, looks in my direction.— Hey man, shall we?— To where?— At Diego's house, he'll throw a party to celebrate the last victories, and we'll prepare ourselves psychologically for “El Gran Clasico”...— I don't know, I thought I'd do something later! — As soon as I speak, he stops running and pulls me to the corner of the field.— Dude, I don't know ... I think you should forget about this girl a little, at Diego's party, there are going to be a lot of wonderful cats, and...— Tomás, look… I know you're my friend and you want the best for me, b
RaúlI park in front of the house, on the other side of the driveway, and watch in front of me a row of cars much better than mine, probably my teammates' cars. I look at those cars, and I remember Tomás saying the other day, in the locker room, “You need to change cars, this one has done its job. You need a more powerful and more attractive car, my friend!” I don't see a problem with my car, but according to Tomás, it's already old and doesn't attract women. I have a great passion for this car, I bought it when I signed my first professional contract, and besides, the woman I want doesn't seem to care much about it, so for me, it's just a big nonsense, but for my colleagues of club seems to be something very important.I get out of the car, cross the street, go up some steps to the entrance, which is between a large expanse of grass, I notice some people in front of the house, it has a rustic appearance with its stone facade, it reminds of those old castles with huge glazed windows.
AlanaI feel strange with all this closeness, our bodies pressed together, one hand on my waist, and the other holding my arm, I don't know what's happening to me, my legs are shaking, the hairs on my arms are standing on end, and my mouth is opening and closing. Suddenly something seems different, it's as if something is preventing me from breathing, talking, and that's because of Raúl's intense gaze on me.My unease in front of Raúl is strange, after all, I shouldn't feel anything, I like Dani, but why am I trembling? Why is my skin burning right where he touches me? I'm lost in his gaze, which moves between my eyes and my mouth, and when he comes closer and whispers in my ear those words “Calma cariño” it's even worse, hard to admit, but I long for something. I'm not recognizing myself.By the pool I talk to some guys on the team, when someone bumps into me, I turn to look, and I'm in for a surprise. I never imagined finding her here, her scared look, a little lost, her fleshy mout
AlanaHearing that simple nickname that Raúl loves to call me, made an even bigger impact, and when he said he wanted me, I felt a different energy go through my body that reacted warmly to it. What is happening to me?Raúl takes his hand to my chin, and lifts it, his gaze leaves me lost, he approaches his mouth again and kisses my neck, I feel something burning through my body, inside me, an intense heat takes over. The reactions that invade me, frighten me too much, I never expected to be like this with a man other than Dani, and is it Raúl who makes me feel this way? I've liked Dani for a long time, and I've shied away from relationships, I've never allowed anyone to get this close, or touch me like that.One of his hands lands on my thigh, and he squeezes it, his mouth is on mine again, and this time I take the reins of the situation, and I kiss him with pleasure. Raúl squeezes my waist, and quickly pulls me to sit on his lap, and I allow it. What's happening? If you had asked me
AlanaYou know that moment that precedes major changes in your life? I believe I 'm living it. A few weeks ago I was sure how I felt about Dani, but since Raúl kissed me, a lot has changed, and that defender messed with me somehow, and now I don't know what to do.Yesterday after what happened, Dani still knocked on my door, but I didn't answer him, I didn't want to talk to him, his behavior was unacceptable. Raúl called me a few times, left a message, but I didn't answer him either, I'm in a confused moment, I need to think about what happened, I feel like my life has turned upside down, talking to him wouldn't be very good at this moment, I need to think about what to do from now on.Of one thing I'm sure, your kiss is wonderful, and just thinking about those hands touching me, that mouth running through some parts of my body, I start to feel a heat invading me, which excites, and makes me out of myself. I get out of bed, walk to the window, and look at the sky, the weather seems to
Raúl— Hello… raúl ? My heart races just to hear your voice, so melodious, light.— Hi, baby! Good to hear your voice... I need to talk to you, I think yesterday everything happened very fast, and I...— I'm a little busy, no time to talk right now...— Not alright! We can go out tonight, remember I invited you, but we didn't have time to agree.— Oh, I don't know if I should go out with you, I...— Like this? Forbid you to go out with me?— No, it's just that... I... I...— You are afraid of me? She takes forever to answer my question.— Cariño, are you still there?— I'm sorry... It's just that I... I don't know where this is going , and... I'm afraid of...— Are we going to find out where this goes together? — Despite the adversities, yesterday was very good for me, wasn't it for you? — and again she takes ages to respond, and I just hear her breathing on the other end of the line.— I liked it, but I don't know...— Let's do this, we'll go out as friends, and I promise I won't tou